the dead ov winter

[Copuldaemon]

I must confess that I've been off as of lately. I am learning alot about myself (habits, patterns) and how I remember how I was last year like a notch up on the spiral ring-You know, I can't explain it but I do go berserk this time of the year.

Like since it gotten really cold out, I've been sent off into an oblivion of whoring, drinking and food consuming to the point that I got bad flagellence again and a splitting head. It's messed up because I don't like being totally sober because I'm such a tightass and that's when I'm really crazy but I don't want to be drunk.

I was going to go down to texas to the SOTNC fest but now I made up my mind that I won't and so I may be off to Mass for more whoring and drinking. The funny thing is, I'm like right now just objectively observing things allowing my flesh to go with the flow and I see that these little changes in people during the dead of winter.
Oh yes, did I mention that it is dead winter right now. The last week and a half have also been really, really COLD or BRICK outside but now we finally got snow + ice =sleet and it's about to get worse.

But things are also good to balance out the differential surprise. Like the intense rising of alot of feminine interest and no Valentino have nothing to do with it but rather, sex and death (winter) is connected as always.
I'm just observing but not too happy because this cold front has kind of set me back and I guess that's why I'm writing this, hah, I guess.

But at least I get to finish my paintings and continue work on the Bathym project.
That's it I guess, if or when I have something more metaphysical to write about I will come back and or to show off my oiled work.

Btw, if any of this doesn't make sense, me too.

[feranaja]

Winter is really difficult for a lot of people. I had a houseful of guests and craziness last weekend - dogs too! which was great fun, but I am so busy with work I can ill afford the time off. I hate the winds more than anything. It takes about a half hour to bundle up my dogs and myself and trudge off into this horrible cold and within 5 minutes my puppy is shivering even WITH his chillydogs coat. So, less exercise, bored dogs, probably SAD too...I wish it would end. We have a snowstorm today which at least is pretty and I ma making carob hearts for my puppers...we do what we can to get through! I do love a woodstove fire, a pot of hot tea and a wooly shawl, there are some comforts ot a Canadian winter but you have to go looking for them. I'm just basically in recluse-mode right now.

Hang in there, CD.
fera:)

[fr.novumorganum]

SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder) is a real thing. I know peopel who have it, and have been diagnosed with a low end case of it myself. Lightboxes and UV light source do help with this, but so do Seretonin boosters, like SAMe.

[Kuroyagi]

The winter here in central Europe is extremely clement this year...but still its the carnival season (and before that pre-xmas and new year etc.) so everybody drinks a lot. :D

[Copuldaemon]

hey everybody!
Thanks for the input. also, I've made my first venture into the qlippothic zone last night but want to do more because I can make heads or tails as to what's what before i post it.

in short though, winter has kind of set me back but i am learning a few things no matter how subtle.