Naomi Chan

[Anibis]

Thoth Count Journal

[Naomi]

15:1 The World

All I remember this morning is being totally busy, and then I got online, I think I did some stuff here. I was totally relaxed. Then I decided to sleep and it was really quiet and I was so aroused. I don't remember why but I was worried too. I ended up sifting through my tarot deck and asking for some help.

I drew some reassuring spreads. They told me my honesty would pull me through everytime, and that a part of the emanation I was relying on was having doubts about being a good leader. And that I shouldn't try to pretend like I was in control even though I try to put on a good front of being brave and fearless. I was getting like "Queen of Swords vs. King of Cups" My tarot deck has started talking to me. Like I can just move the cards around a little bit and they make stories for me.

So I spread them out again and asked for some points for the day to rely on. I randomly chose one female, neutral and male card. The book my tarot came from is geared towards people still in highschool, and so, it makes my situations seem so altered if I listen to the advice out of the book instead of from traditional symbolism. It makes it funnier, somehow.

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King of Cups lol "A certain older man is easier to talk to than you thought, he could be a good role model for you."

Three of Pentacles "Life may be hard at the moment, but tread carefully and all will be well. It will feel like you've hit a bottleneck, but this is a passing phase and things will soon flow again and take you into the next stage of your life."

Queen of Cups "Your life is full of happiness and satisfaction right now. A mature woman is on your side, but she may be a bit dreamy. You're likely to get help from some kind girlfriends," rofl "and you could volunteer for a good cause. Your honesty is bringing you luck."


But! I was still very nervous. I felt like particles of some great force were surrounding me, and I loved that, but at the center of this whole tapestry unravelling before me was this bright core of uncompressed data that was not approachable in the slightest, but was at the center of the emanations. It was like I was this extensive force of nature but there was this super multi-galactic force of nature steering me and I was aware of that, and it was really weird. Oh and I had a lemon banana smoothie because I can't really chew much I had three teeth taken out yesterday. That was soooo much fun, except for all the blood, I really got tired of tasting iron all day. (No I don't know what's going on with liking dental work either, it's very strange.)

So I was like ok I CAN DO THIS and I just listened to music and sort of got all high doing that. Then later everything became so busy. I was taken out to go shopping with everyone and to hang out with my sister Elisa (actually TheTengu's blood sister) who just flew from Hawaii. We just partied and partied. I was so godamned high, I remember waiting in the car for a while in myriad places and listening to Black Sabbath mostly, and some other songs. I could feel the music and go inside of it, like it had new messages for me. Like I could divine the music's meaning just from the sounds of the chords on the electrics. I could also still access some skillz I acquired last week which I can't really go into yet.

There was a huge shark shaped cloud in the sky too, I thought that was funny. Then I went out to eat. I think I am going to a graduation tomorrow for a sister.

Haha I was making everyone around me high too, it was so funny. LIke I can control people's moods. Weird! The internet kinda sucks compared to talking in a parking lot.

Today was like Hawaii+Party+Highschool+Tropical+Scary+Funny

I still have some very scary things to do though....

Edit:

Oh check that out, guests can't see posts in here. Awesome....

[Anibis]

An interesting reading: suggest and integration of masculine and feminine currents in the physical world... Balancing of will and emotions in the context of a project of some sort? Maybe just the prospect of getting excercise... Dunno. DOn't mean to cut in on your thread... the reading just leapt out at me.
-Anibis

[Naomi]

An interesting reading: suggest and integration of masculine and feminine currents in the physical world... Balancing of will and emotions in the context of a project of some sort? Maybe just the prospect of getting excercise... Dunno. DOn't mean to cut in on your thread... the reading just leapt out at me.
-Anibis

But you're the teacher!!! lol :laugh: I will have to call you Professor Anibis now to make you feel more comfortable with the role. lol!

I don't have any answers about all of this! Thanks all of the feedback is appreciated.


15:2 Judgement

Today I was so busy. I woke up and knew I had to go to my sister Christina's graduation at the Fedex Forum. I spent all the time I had to get ready just writing about Cynic and Stoic philosophers on Abrahadabra instead of doing what I was supposed to do. I didn't really want to leave the house but I was being forced too. So I dressed the kids and then my sister Elisa, John and Christina's boyfriend Mike picked us up in the minivan.

I was really busy juggling lots of things today. It was really funny I had no inhibitions in talking about all kinds of weird occult stuff with my extraneous family and they didn't really recieve it badly! I told Christina that she graduated in the hour of the angel Samael (I happened to notice the tables in 777 and was curious) I didn't have room to think until the afternoon, it was just a blur of family reunions, exchanging of lucky money, phots and such. I studied my copy of 777 through most of the 2 and 1/2 hours graduation ceremony, even despite the thousands of screaming people and speeches around me and came upon some very interesting insights, to which I scribbled some notes in the margins and underlined with my pen.


777. Useful in a similar way, as affirming the Unity is the Qliphoth. But a dangerous tool, especially as it represents the flaming sword that drove Man out of Eden. A burnt child dreads the fire. "the devils also believe, and tremble." Worse than useless unless you have it by the hilt. Also 777 is the grand scale of 7, and this is useless to anyone who has not yet awakened the Kundalini, the female magical soul, Note 7 as the meeting place of 3, the mother and 10, the Daughter, whence Netzach is the Woman, married but no more."

Fedex Forum is a "state of the art" (fnord) facility, with LED screens scattered throughout the enormous complex so you can watch what's going on in the rotunda as you walk down the halls or in the bathrooms. (lol) The rotunda itself is huge, absolutely huge. I looked up at the industrial black ceiling of steel beams - beautiful in its architectural genius. There were two distinct "zeroes" The one above, the firmament, where I noticed how the distant spotlights looked like stars over a the black roof, and then the seating area below, which from afar, with the humans as small as ants, appeared like a shifting serpentine creature and I read this passage at the same time as making this observation:

"0. The Dragon represents Draco connected with Nuit in the Heaven: Ananta, the great serpent which surrounds the Universe. It devours its own tail, thereby reducing it to Zero."

I am also constantly getting the symbolism of a serpent shaped like U holding up lots of little dots inside of it like a cup. Not just in my mind's eye but on my plate when I go out to eat, or on billboards etc.


(I don't claim to understand this, just that I thought it was cool)

As I was standing in one of the recieving docks of the Fedex forum I handed Mike my Hopi spider bracelet - it's one of my most prized posessions, and I had thrown it on that morning on a whim. I knew it was his because I could see he was Iktomi and he needed the medicine. So it was cool I was able to give it away finally. I showed him my other favorite silver bracelet, a sculptural silver piece depicting a family of 7 cheetahs, and told him "This is my new school symbol, I graduated today, too!" :laugh:


I'm not at all well acquainted with Crowley's work, I've read only one of his books all the way through - a free PDF, and never touched my copy of 777 until a few weeks ago. (I thought it looked real elite and mysterious on my bookshelf) but like any Gemini I try and succeed to appear like I know everything. I can read only a little bit of something and portray the illusion that I know alot about it. Sometimes, I wonder - do I really know anything thoroughly? If I do it probably can't make for much polite conversation.

Somehow the whole herd of Chan members ended up over at the main household to play the Wii again - I really don't like the Wii because I'm fucking lazy and I don't like standing up for a game. So instead I took a blanket outside and found this patch of really really green grass by the raingutter drain and laid there in the small patch of shade between the two houses and totally just blissed out again. I stared at the flowerheads on the grass and observed their intricate structure like trees, and I meditated on everything I had been going through, decided maybe I wasn't scared of the center of the emanation after all and just gave in to the pull. I slept for a couple of hours and woke up to find two leafhoppers sitting on my arm staring at me. They are such funny creatures.

I went inside to socialize a bit more and then went outside again, and then in again, and got on abrahadabra for a bit, but I couldn't remember my password and didn't have e-mail so I just read some, and then I realized I never actually read the book of mirrors - heh it's true - :tembarrassed: so I started with "An Apology" and it was really interesting!!! And funny, particularily how it starts out:

"It sometimes happens that profound discoveries are made by those with no obvious skill on any level, who are not only uniquely unqualified to have made such a discovery, but also conventionally unqualified to communicate it from a position of worldly authority. For most of my life I was content to say nothing of this model at all, realizing what a mess I would undoubtedly make of it should I attempt to feign the academic qualifications to speak out about it publicly."

And ends:

"I am the Fourth Oracle of Hermes by way of spiritual assignment and a Secret Chief of Ningishzidda for those with understanding. I owe no particular allegiance to god or gods but operate solely from motivated self-interest to the greater advantage of all sentient beings everywhere. That there may at times appear to be some contradiction between who I claim to be and what I claim to be is a mystery you will have to sort out for yourselves...it is no odds to me"

lol!
Then everyone decided it was time to go eat at Edo, a Japanese restaurant, I put on my black lipstick because it reminds me of eating death or being an octopus, so I did that and at te restaurant I had unagi (eel) and kappa (cucumber), and generally just socialized and made people laugh, all very pleasant.

Not the day I had in mind but you know, it was good...(I was really hoping to just hide in my room all day - or at least take a shower and eat breakfast hahahaha!) Now I am sitting here it's 11 pm and I just got back I am sitting here with my orange cream cat Hom Su Ga and trying to wind down. I think I will take a shower now and I am not making plans for tomorrow....

My randomly chosen cards for today w/the funny book readings:

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Masculine: "If you didn't prepare yourself properly, you'll find yourself losing out, You were stubborn, and it shows." :(
Neutral: "You're confused about who exactly your friends are here. People seem to be talking about you behind your back - but you're not helping matters at all. You're quick to start an argument. Be careful - there's danger ahead if you're not." :(
Feminine: "This card says that you're facing a tricky road ahead, and you're confused by the different ways there are of doing things. You'll feel a pull between the logical option and your own intuition, and no0one but you can help you find the middle ground. Stay in the driving seat and keep to your course. It could be that you're off on an adventure - either physically or emotionally. But now is the time to do this, even f it seems like a struggle, You'll almost certainly do well in waht you do, but only if you put the effort in."

[Naomi]

Oh and I just found out Anibis invented this Mercury Calendar thing. Omg that is so genius.:mshocked:

Oh by the wei am I doing the dating thing right, Professor Anibis?

[Anibis]

Yes, it's fine. If you try any actual scrying excercises it would be neat to hear your thoughts on what you see as well. Sounds like your life is super intense. About ten years ago I sat down an memorized large chunks of 777. I know what it is like... intoxicating almost... Have you read 'The Magician's Handbook'? I'll dig out the author, it's agreat read, and is a nice addition to 777 in terms of data tables (even has the Tai Hsuan Ching in it). Aslo Godwin's Cabalistic Encyclopedia, which CONTAINS Sepher Sepheroth, as well as a lot more. keep in mind that 777 may be genius, but it's Crowley's genius, and it's almost a hundred years old. Have fun! Stay grounded!
-Anibis
Before enlightenment mountains were moutnains and rivers were rivers. During enlightenment mountains we no longer mountains and rivers were no longer rivers. After enlightenment mountains were mountains, and rivers were rivers.

[Naomi]

Do you have an idea of what I should scry? The universe is so broad and when I meditate now, unless I have a directive, I tend to fall into overwhelming and hypnotic rapture of the one....all I see is stars really, or eyes, or nothingness.

If you give me an idea I will pursue that and maybe I can distill it down to a magnified form.

No I havn't read 'The Magician's Handbook' I don't really own many occult books, just the Peterson translation of The Lesser Key of Solomon and Bardon's last two volumes. I also have the tarot. I did notice some of Crowley's work on the hexagrams are different from what I have read online. I know m1thr0s mentioned they were incorrect.

I can't believe you memorized this thing. I can't even remember my own cell phone number. Sepher Sephiroth didn't make a whole lot of sense to me, I was mostly focusing on the Equinox stuff. I made some checkmarks on the tables of stuff I had been noticing lately, but I havn't bothered analyzing it. I don't think I want to try yet.

[Anibis]

A big part of occult systems is what is called 'The Art of Memory' It's an ancient practice and has to do with the fact that occult systems were meant to encode knowledge that was not written down. The art of Memory involves building memory houses and memory buildings, where each part of the building is a visual image that reminds the imaginer of some specific fact, thought, idea, or other such thing... It should not be too difficult to use a system such as the tree as a sort of metaphysical memory peg, no? I am a staunch memorizer actually: I think if a system is not encoded into memory until I can retrieve it effortlessly, then I am still a beginner. But that's just me. Focus on the tarot sigils for scrying Connect to the Juggler first and then the Atu in question.... see what come up...
Try and not the different levels that these trumps manifest on : The physical/assiah, the intellectual/yetzirah, the imaginative/briah, and the spiritual/assiah.. jsut a fun way of excercising the awareness...
-Anibis

[Naomi]

OK ok I can do this....

>_<

Will try now.

15:3 The Sun

Physical/assiah:

A clear high pitched ringing in my ears, intense sensations of energy tingling along the insides of my shoulder blades like a connection is there, warmth and strong, pleasant crown pressure. I feel a coordinated circuit between my crown and base chakra, which is continuous.

Intellectual/yetzirah:

Suddenly I really want to clean my kitchen and cook great chinese food, and then go outside in the garden and make a flower arrangement for the table. I'm really calm, motivated and active. I think about the sun but later I'm still drawn to the same form within the sun itself, it's beyond the sun. I can't get my mind off of it, no matter what I try. Words can't express it. As I meditate, waiting for the rice to finish, I feel like I've been drugged. My consciousness slips in and out of the present. There's only the awesome emanation before me...so wise, so powerful, so beautiful, so overwhelmingly hypnotic. I find I can break my trance if I try, but it's only possible if I have some duty to attend to, like serving lunch, or forcing myself to make a post. I simply don't have it in me to care about much else, that's why. A good thing about this is I don't feel afraid anymore. That seems to have dissapeared since yesterday. So hurrah!


Spiritual/assiah

I've come back to my desk with a cup of tea. There's a loud car stereo blaring from the projects on the block over. I slip into meditation as I'm typing this and eating my food (rice and fresh canton style chinese greens w/sesame seeds and raw garlic for my immune system). I keep repeating the gateway at each juncture to be sure I'm not viewing debris. I go through the pan'ku and to the sun as in the book of the tarot but also as the star of our solar system. There's the sun floating in the black of space. It turns blue and then shifts to rainbow spectrum colors that drift down along the surface and dissapear again at the south pole and return at the north pole, like waves. I reconnect to the gateway after taking a few bites of my lunch. The twin serpent surrounds the sun in my visuals, orange in color, on the black of space. I move out to a higher dimension. The sun is an orb clutched in the claws of a great dragon. Everything is in warm hues, brown, orange red and yellow.

Imaginative/briah:
Reconnected with gateway. Couldn't decide what to do with the sun, imaginatively. I performed a half assed solar grounding ritual by sitting on the sun. Then I went inside. A magnetic force pushed me out. I hugged the sun with my arms and legs and sat there for a bit. Wow I feel really warm....and so sleepy....

I think i'm going to sleep now.

[Naomi]

Well after I drink my tea....I need the fluids. Also i like comments on this as I am trying to figure it out all myself. So if anyone has any insights feel free to 'invade my journal" as I can use guidance of any kind.

[Naomi]

15:3 Tarot


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Masculine: "A reliable and honest man is looking out for you. People could be talking about you behind your back, and if this is the case, it's because you can sometimes be too full of yourself." :no: (cool, a sun picture!)

Neutral: "You may be tempted to do things that you know are wrong. You'll always be surrounded by strong influences, but while they will move on out of your life, if you follow their advice you could be stuck with the consequences for the rest of your life. Prepare well." :dull:

Feminine: "You are keen to speed things up, but you must be careful not to make hasty decisions or act too rashly. If an older person gives you advice, listen. Now is a good time to get down to your studies." Cool triple X....

I feel really good tonight, I'm totally dancing in my chair while listening to the free AdultSwim Chocolate Swim album Fr. Novum Organum reminded me of and some Fort Minor. and typing too. I think I could totally have a party on the sun if I wanted to tonight. Maybe I'll check that out tonight when I go into evening trance then post the results on here.

I think i'm going to like, cook dinner, and then dance, and that's about it.

[Naomi]

15:4 The Moon (May 7 07)

I really put in an effort to study last night, as the tarot reccomended, instead of just dancing or hedonistically lounging about on the sun or elsewhere. I focused mainly on the study of the Ningishzidda (http://forums.abrahadabra.com/showthread.php?t=325) links. I also spent time on my painting project, marking out the anatomical features carefully using an reference guide.

Today I feel very motivated- and well prepared. I've finally read the instruction manual to the Thoth Count and actually know what I am doing now. :no::laugh: I've got my Moon page/card out of the Book of the Tarot, it's sitting on top of my desk. Wow I am all organized!

I'm opening with the Tree Fields 001 P'an Ku Mirror (http://forums.abrahadabra.com/showthread.php?t=1276) (I've been using this as the juggler, if it wasn't clear.)


Physical/assiah:

As I pull into lotus I notice my ligaments are getting sorefrom the constant yoga over the past three weeks. :laugh:

I feel alert, my back is tingling strongly and my crown pressure is strong, as is the energy in the third eye. There's a very distinct blue trident shape in my third eye region! Surprising!

I feel really good, my body is running well and is well hydrated. I feel a little aroused too. :dull:

Intellectual/yetzirah:


Intellectually I feel very artistic, I want to paint and create things, or look at other good artwork and share it with others. I'm also interested in sleeping too, just for fun and meditation. Aesthetics is very important to me today. I want new clothes, especially green ones! I log on to my Bank of America account and check if I have any money there. Oh crap $2 short. I'll have to walk to the bank to deposit some money if I want to buy this t-shirt online. That's annoying. I hate banks. I think about the Sunday market on the Navajo reservation, and how much easier it is there. I find myself hating malls, and the artificiality of it. The excess packaging and lack of quality. It's all a bunch of illusions designed to hypnotize retards.

I decide not to walk to the bank, I have to paint today.

I make a horribly funny x-rated joke in my head and decide not to type it here.

Spiritual/assiah

After laundry and breakfast (tomatos, rice and shrimp) I gate through to the Moon again.

A beautiful silvery light suffuses the surface of the moon, dust clings to my skin as I sit there on the surface. The dust is magnificiently beautiful - like piles of silver eyeshadow, soft and metallic. A small silvery grey asp with black diamond shapes on its back emerges from the dust and bites into my left wrist. I look at it calmly and I allow the venom to seep into my veins. I lie down, feeling numb (I've lost awareness of my earthly body) The serpent drops off and changes into a man with pale skin and long black hair. I lean forward on my elbows and stare back at him. He's like a brother to me. We don't speak to each other, though he's leaning in front of me as if he's a reflection. I notice he doesn't have legs, he has a snake body, silver with large black anaconda spots. I feel hypnotized, numb and dreamy, I feel like I could fall asleep. I think "I would probably fall off my chair irl". I force myself to come out of reverie and post this. I'm going to nap I think....

I've woken up at 11:55 AM.

As I laid in bed I recalled the surface of the moon. I cast a glance at the man there again, and note his features, a strong romanesque face, white-grey skin and lips, , inscrutable eyes. I wonder if he's simply a male reflection of myself. Then suddenly I realize he is my brother, Siva, just in a form not like the pictures on the internet. (Perhaps this is Chandrapal, the Lord of the Moon name of Siva) I feel the connection between the moon and myself strengthen as the venom from the serpent reaches into my chest. My limbs are paralyzed and my tongue goes numb. The sensations from my entire nervous system go still shortly after. I begin to feel delirious. A tingling sensation plays across my lips.

There is a power coalescing in me. Chandrapal beckons my attention and silently shows me I can weave illusion, he points at earth. I struggle against the hypnotic currents in my own mind, to try and use these for something helpful. I cannot concentrate. I don't have any plans or ideas. Confusion resides in my mind and my thoughts are like a school of fish. It's totally useless.

I press my tongue to the back of my throat and call upon the lord green as emerald. I quickly offer the keys to the lunar gates to him, and I feel my mind slow its fluctuations. I willfully open the doors to my mind and lightbody, allowing access to him. A sensation traces itself around my skull. I feel motions being carried out through me at the incredible speed. I catch blips here and there, like a television flipping from channel to channel rapidly. My mind begins to fibonacci spiral out onto thought tangents, and I feel the process slowing, as the emerald one waits patiently for me to bring my mind back into mushin (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mushin). I release the distracting thoughts and the process of the weaving of illusion continues. Though I am too slow to follow what is happening, I feel ecstatic just being useful. There is a subtle fire running along the left side of my body. My left foot encounters sensations as if it were being poked with stick in various places. My right foot twitches from time to time. I stop trying to follow his work, and concentrate simply on keeping the way clear through my mind, I look up behind my lids at the third eye region, and find eyes staring back at me.

Time goes on, and I can only feel the thrum of my blood going through my veins and the electric sensations in my brain. I physically feel a strange quake shift my whole body, as if I was in a car being bumped. The movement begins to slow down in my mind, and I listen to his voice speak to me, so charmingly, so beautifully... He gives me back the keys and tells me to make my own changes. I try to visit every person I care for in my life, thinking of the dreams that escape their grasp, and I open the way for them. I come to see there are so many people I know, some I do not even speak to anymore, how can I visit them all. I visit Sebastian, and linger there for almost a minute, watching his movements, I lean over his shoulder and give him a squeeze, and watch him look up thoughtfully. ^_^ I do my best to remember what everyone wants and grant them the path to their own personal paradise. I become aware of the emerald one's observance of my actions through it all, I return to my own city and come back to my body. My hara (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dantian) hurts, I have no excess energy left. Later, I lay still as the energy is replenished slowly, I fall asleep...

(Imaginative/briah)

Working on painting.

My random tarot:
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Male: "You're raring to go and your battery is fully charged. You're lucky and healthy, packed with energy and ready to take risks, Go on, be a heroine in your own life."
Neutral: "Are you being overly strict with yourself about how much you spend? You may be earning enough to be a bit more relaxed, so don't let your stingy side stop you. It is a good time to make plans for the future."
Female: "Put the brakes on; you're getting out of control. Be wary of people who are out to trick you. You could become the subject of some rumour at school." :terr:

[Naomi]

15:4 The Moon (May 7 07))

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2fQg4bTeDrU

PS: Hi Jacob!

My favorite song of all time:

Timekiller - Project Pitchfork

go away leave me alone
I feel your presence in my mind
the time seems to stop I set you free
you calm my mind you calm my mind
make my dreams come true - baby
every time it seems to me
that fiction and reality melt together for eternity
liquid words dropping down the stairs
filling the emptiness with sense
you and me on the floor floating on our sensibility

you need a timekiller and you don't understand
I am like quicksand lick it from my hand
I am your timekiller I let your mind expand
I am like quicksand lick it from my hand

tick tock tick tock madness comes tonight
what's reality compared to me
I rest on the bed and I'm sure I slowly get mad
I'm in a state of mind which makes me blind
for the fact that I'm a man
I'm here to stay forever but not today

you need a timekiller and you don't understand
I am like quicksand lick it from my hand
I am your timekiller I let your mind expand
I am like quicksand lick it from my hand

in my heart is no place for you
and in my mind is no space for you
the exit already melted away
and now there's nothing left to say

you need a timekiller and you don't understand
I am like quicksand lick it from my hand
I am your timekiller I let your mind expand
I am like quicksand lick it from my hand

All things creative can also have a shadow side of destruction, (...) if you don't use your leadership skills properly, a project or a plan can fall apart before it even begins, and could backfire on you. Take care with the details. Don't be in such a hurry to prove yourself. Use your friends and resources to find out what you need, before throwing yourself into something that could zap your confidence if you get it wrong.

[Naomi]

15:4 The Star (May 8 07)

Physical:

I woke up at 6 AM feeling pretty hyper. It didn't take much convincing to get me out of bed. Still I sat there for a while and giggled madly about an e-mail I sent the night before to a friend. I havn't been eating much, and I look in the mirror, and I think to myself "AAAH! my boobs are shrinking!" >_< then I think "Oh no one will notice, I will just wear clothes."

I drape myself in a midnight blue gauzy dress thing w/sparklies and a opalescent glass necklace from Africa. Listened to N.I.B. by Black Sabbath while drinking some water. Wake the kids up and get them ready, goof around etc. Make coffee for the first time in a few weeks. My sister shows up and we have a nice conversation. She gives me a present she bought for me in Hawaii: Snake earrings with pink rhinestone eyes and a hoop in their mouths! I say to her "Cool I've really been into snakes lately.":yes:

Mental/Intellectual:

I'm feeling helpful, and still pretty creative. I think I'll spend most of my intellectual energy today working on my painting and writing e-mails to friends, but that could change. I'm still catching up on my mythology research as well. I want to encourage people and share my enthusiasm. I'm very much enjoying exercising in this Calendrics class. I've never engaged in this kind of intense time marked ritual before, and it's very interesting. I'm also enjoying the other journals, so intriguing.

(tbc - maybe)

Spiritual:

I'm actually pretty down to earth today. I want to engage people here on earth, less than people in other spheres. The freedom the internet affords me is so nice. I'm so grateful to Iktomi for creating this. Life would be much more difficult and boring without it. I'm feeling hmm...social.

I start now by pulling myself into half-lotus (ow I need to clip my toenails) I leave my music running today, but I switch it onto a Mahakala Sadhana recording from sum temple in Tibet.

I get the Star card out and place it on top of the Book of the Tarot. I gate through the Pan'ku (http://forums.abrahadabra.com/showthread.php?t=1276) and visit the star.

[...]

The first thing that appears is a large number of legs in a swastika shape. :laugh: No other parts, just legs!

I see a crown, in front of me. I am standing in a space unseeable, for I am surrounded by white mist. The crown- it's not any color. When I try to lock onto the color it shifts into another color and another shape, though it is in a classical European style. It's metallic, at any rate, with jewels. I take it. I feel rocks under my feet. I feel really lucid, not like yesterday. A dragon appears before me. I can only see his head though, because of the mist. His head is as big as a Tyrannosaurs, but elongated, with opalescent white scales and two white horns like a gemsbok. (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gemsbok) He has green eyes and looks more like a cross between a horse and a dinosaur.

I feel disposed to affection, so I hug his face, which is very warm. ( I feel silly doing this, but I can't help it) I put the crown I found on his head. He doesn't do or say anything, but he doesn't really seem to mind, and he seems very calm.The crown begins to shapeshift again. It's not meant to sit on his head. The extra decoration, bejeweled even, seems mean compared to his majesty. I see it absorbed into his scales. I sit down, and the mist begins to clear away completely, sinking down. I see that I'm sitting on top of a really tall and slender mountain made of black rock. Way down below is nothing but mist. I look to the side and notice the dragon is coiled around this precipice with his tail, and just lying casually on the top like so, watching the mist below very still and collected. I wrap my arms around my legs and just sit there, looking down at the view. I feel very clear minded. I notice I'm wearing a circlet with a white pearl on it....(and not much else)

Nothing happens....I look at the dragon and examine his hands, which are folded one on top of the other, and he has black claws.

and

Nothing happens...(this continues for some time)

I decide I can either pounce on the dragon to relieve my boredom or leave, I decide logickally that leaving is probably the best course of action.

I come out of the trance and post here, then pull my tarot cards.


Imaginative:

nothing yet - maybe now that i've read the tarot I'll make a wish...I don't know what to wish for though....

Random Tarot pages for teh day:
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Masculine: Nine of Cups: "It feels good to be you, A wish will come true. If you're waiting for exam results or the outcome of a project, you'll be pleasantly surprised.":o_O:

Neutral: Five of Pentacles: "You're feeling ancioux and impatient and your plans are falling apart. Whatever you do, you're making mistakes. It's time to cut to the heart of the matter and see where you're going wrong." :no:

Feminine: Expect choppy waters. Your life is full of turmoil and change, but just remember that it's about cleaning out the old to make space for the new. Forgive who you need to forgive. This card suggests that there's a new relationship around the corner anyway, but don't leave the old one without sorting it out first. You might find it hard to study at the moment with all that's going on.
:confused:

NOOOOO!!!! >_<

[Anibis]

At the risk of sounding redundant, I'd just like to point out that the methods you have chosen for the working are NOT the one's that I recommend. At the end of the day, I cannot force you into one way or the other, but I do feel I need to re-state this, in case you were not entirely clear on how I proposed that people approach the Thoth Count. Principally, I pointed to the Tarot I designed which has some different features/ arrangements than other decks. I do not believe all decks are created equal, and structurally speaking the Book of particles is more conducive to this count than say the Thoth Deck, or even the Rider Waite. One of the key differences is that where most decks number the Star XVII and the 'Emperor' IV, I have reversed this. This is somewhat of an aesthetic move, but it entails a 'change of docterine' which is quite significant, and ultimately will take you farther with synchronized, Hermetic counts. The Axil-Aion Tarot (Google it or follow the link from my original posts) is also suitable. Alternatively, you could craft your own tarot as you go along, although I again emphasize that the nubering pattern as demonstrated in the tarot provided is the 'correct' one for the Thoth Count. Using an unsuitable tarot, is in this regard a bit like wearing improper footwear to a mountain climbing expedition.

The TC is part of a system of magic which I call 'Ibisystem', and there are two more counts which I have not fully brought out. I will introduce the more advanced material when there are enough people working the TC to appreciate it. The Tree fields actually end up being very vital at a higher level of work, and as such the Pan Ku arrangement is most certainly addressed calendrically in my work. While I see where you are employing the tree fields in place of the Juggler, I do need to say that these are NOT interchangeable features, and you may be crossing wires that have nothing to do with one another. The juggler is an ATU which accesses the other ATU silmultaneously. The tree fields are a system of interfacing the Tree and the I ching.

As a chaos magician, I understand that you are working as you see fit, and I do not condemn that, but as a person who has crafted this magical system with specific reasonings and goals in mind, I must re-iterate that my strong recommendation is to work it as I have described in the background posts, if only so that you can learn the whole language before you work it into other methods which you may have. Still, I cannot force you, and will not push the issue beyond saying that you will 'get' this magic much more if you listen to me in this regard. My suggestions are 'optional', but not without purpose, you see?

I am thrilled that you are enjoying this system to the degree you have been. I know it is quite illuminating, and I feel it is also very important, and at the end of the day will prove to be a very valuable protection against the total temporal meltdown which seems to be looming on the horizon...

Take care!

-Anibis

[Naomi]

Oh that's funny. See I was following Ricci's thread and she called it "The Man" so I thought "Oh star=man" and I just followed the next one in my book. I'm not familiar with the system so I don't know which card to use then.

I did read your posts but ummm....they don't make a lot of sense to me, it's alot like reading m1thr0s or Kain's stuff. I'm trying to follow you Anibis, but I am a little confused. I'm not actually trying to alter the system though it may seem like that.

I don't think I'm as clever as people seem to believe.... ^_^ Like half the time I don't even know what you're talking about. I don't know what Briah means or ATU, and I can't buy another Tarot deck right now, this one was actually a present from my sister. So um am I supposed to use the Emperor today? I thought we were going backwards from the world I'm on 17 right now.

I'm trying to pay attention, really :(:o

edit:

I am searching for the posts on the juggler and the tarot you are talking about so I can re-read them

[MythMath]

Try this:

http://i133.photobucket.com/albums/q48/MythMath/AnibisTreePathscopy.jpg

[Naomi]

Ohhhh thanks so much.

[Anibis]

Hey, no problem Naomi, I'm actually not as obtuse as I sound sometimes! :laugh:

I'll try to get you up to speed, but for now I have some business to take care of.

Briah is one of the *Four Worlds* of the Qabalah, corresponding to Water, and the imagination. It is seated in Binah on the tree. 'Atu' just means 'Keys' The trumps were called 'the Atu of Tehuti', or Thoth... so when I say we are now working Atu XVIII in Briah, I mean we are working 'The ocean', in the world of the imagination (for example.)
-More later
-Anibis

[Naomi]

Nah it's just embarassing Anibis, I guess I should have been studying Calendrics instead of Ningishzidda the other day when the Tarot told me to.Oh well nothing ventured nothing gained, right. :p

PErservering...

15:4 The Man/Emperor

Physical:

Absolutely rotten. Stomache ache, irritability etc....low blood sugar but I'm not hungry. I lie in bed with my sunglasses on for about 20 minutes.

Mental/Intellectual:

I decide to redo the entire working for today according to the right process.

Spiritual:

I go into a trance. I close my eyes and shift through the mirror MythMath posted, then to the Man/Emperor.

I find myself clinging naked to the side of wet black sheer rock face. I gaze down, it's about 200 yards down, a black ocean crashes against the rocks. Sharks swarm around the boulders strewn in the ocean. I'm not afraid of the sharks, but I don't want to fall off. I look up and see a precipice jutting out, and decide to try for it. I climb carefully but end up cutting my hands on the rocks. I swear, and lick the blood off of my hand. As I approach the precipice I discover a cave hewn into the rock face just beneath the precipice. I decide to enter here instead of trying to stay on the outside of the mountain.

As I crawl into the cave, I find myself looking at a huge pair of black dragon claws. I stand up and look him in the face as I lick my sore palms. It's either this way or back out on the rocks. He grabs my hand and pulls me into the cave, then lifts my arm and sinks his front incisor into my wrist slightly. The tooth is about the size of a banana, so it destroys some of my wrist ligaments and muscular structure. The pain in my wrist is felt in my fleshy body as well, quite vividly. I hear a voice in my head say "Shhh, it will be over soon." He lets go and then grabs me in his mouth and walks me further into the cave and flings me on top of a pile of dead bodies.

They're not dead, I sense warmth and movement. And they're all girls. I think "Orgy?" for a second. The dragon walks off down the Western corridor (to the left of where we entered) The bodies shift and begin to stand up. I back up off of them and stand there, watching them. Suddenly one of them lunges at me! I punch her in the face. It doesn't do a whole lot but knock her over. Another bitch comes at me with some sort of whack-ass clawing maneuver. I put some force into the punch and feel her ribs crack.

I'm starting to get really pissed off. I begin to shapeshift into a shiny black demon creature, I've got the wings and alla that. I extend my claws out pretty far and just start taking out the whole damned chamber, hissing and spitting at them all. It's not going fast enough so I expand into super-mega tyrannosaurus form and bite half of the rest in half and squish a few with my feet...I fling another into the ceiling with my jaws and the body splatters. After that's over I morph back into my regular shape with black skin. I'm covered in blood. There's one girl left in the middle of the room who stares at me blankly. I furl and unfurl my fingers waiting to see if she'll attack - she does. I cut off her head.

I look to the north and notice a woman standing there watching in a red sari, with blonde hair down to her knees. The room behind her is beautiful and gilded, and leads deeper into the mountain. There's a couple of other girls behind her, all lovely. I wave at them and scamper off down the west corridor to follow the dragon I saw earlier. It doesn't take more than 50 feet to reach the exit, a large round portcullis. The dropoff leads down into the sea as on the other side. I look around for the black dragon but he's nowhere.

I do notice a shiny white tail dangling down though. And...it's holding icecream in a prehensile grip. Inexlicably I leap off of the cavern floor and grab hold of the tail. I try to grab the icecream but end up only getting a handful. I stuff it in my mouth. Vanilla. Bleh. What a dissapointment.

The tail starts swinging back and forth like a cat and It's getting really hard to hang on....pretty soon it flicks me off with one motion and I go flying through mid-air.....

"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!" I scream.

I fall, and my heart and adrenal glands are working overtime. (irl)

I feel claws grab me and carry me for a few seconds, then I get flung up in the air again and caught in that black dragon's mouth.

He flies somewhere - I've blacked out kinda.

There's a lot more (actually the main point of the experience) but it's mostly X-rated and I don't want to get banned and spend the rest of eternity on Occult forums.

Imaginative:

going to paint tonight. I also imagine that I really don't know what the fuck that adventure was all about.


My randomly chosen tarot for the day:

Masculine: The Chariot: "This card says you're facing a tricky road ahead, and you're confused by the different ways there are of doing things. You'll feel put between the logical option and your own intuition, and no-one but you can help you find middle ground. Stay in the driving seat and keep your course. It could be you're off on an adventure, either physically or emotionally. But now is the time to do this, even if it seems like a struggle. You'll almost certainly do well in what you do, but only if you put effort in."

Neutral: Eight of Swords: "You will be offered a solution that will alow you to turn over a new leaf. You'll make new friends and resolve old relationships. Your studies are going really well - just remember to leave time for old friends."

Feminine: Death: "This card says you are about to lose something that seems precious. It might be a boyfriend, or it could be your health - you might feel that your own energy or power is slipping away, that you're beaten down by a number of circumstances and are helpless to change anything for yourself. Do yourself a favour and let it go. Imagine the autumn leaves falling off the trees and becoming the mu,lch to feed all the new buds below ground. For you, those will be new loves, new ideas, new energy. You'll bounce back with twice as much power if you just five in and trust it's all for the good."

[Naomi]

15:5 The Tower


I feel great today, very energetic and so-on. There's...interesting phenomenon going on during the early afternoon. I just finished working out. My computer is overheating because it's pretty warm out, so I didn't get to finish my workout completely. whatever.


Pretty much feel like queen bitch of the universe, but I've calmed down since using the elliptical, which might be good for the working. Hmmm.

I move all of the study crap off my desk and pull my hair tie out.

Gate into the tower....

[...]

Ok, I'm swimming in a black ocean. It's not black because of pollution, it's just there are black storm clouds surrounding the area. I'm a cobra, huge and black. The water is full of sharks. I casually swim past them towards a black rock jutting up out of the water about a mile or so....

I recognize it as the same kind of rock surface I cut my hands on earlier. I lift my snout out of the water and slide up against the rock, finding it easy to grip on and my scales protect me from the sharp edges. I am pissed off. Fucking rock towers man....

I wrap myself around the rock and sit there for a few minutes, casually trying to figure out what I'm supposed to do. I slowly make my way to the top. There's a guy there. He ignores me. I don't like him. He doesn't belong here. I hiss. I look around for the white dragon. The skies are black this time, of course, but it feels like the same spot. I drop back down the side of the cliff and dive deep into the water, past the sharks, past the dim light. I gaze up towards the surface and watch the midnight blue light. I decide to come back up. Bored.

I lift my head out of the water and stare at the tower, confused. I start plotting malicious ideas. A drop of warm liquid drops on my head (my fleshy body feels this as well) I circle around the tower once more, weaving through the perimeter boulders. I start to slink up the side of the rock again, wrapping around it very tightly, like a constrictor. My head reaches the top and I focus all of my pissed-offedness on the man up there. I squeeze the rock very tightly in my coils and it begins to crack... the man screams and falls off into the ocean, I continue crushing the tower with all of my might. After I'm finished, all of the black rock has fallen away and there's a gleaming white tower left under it. I flick out my tongue. And begin to slide down.....(it's slippery)

I splash down into the water and circle around, swimming for a while. I decide to climb the glowing white tower again and inspect the situation. To my surprise it's not too slippery. This time there's a different man up here. This one I looks different. I spread out my hood and flick out my tongue and stare at him for a while, then I breathe out and try crushing the tower again. It doesn't break. Some sort of holographic effect happens where I multiply for a second with green light shadows but I absorb it in again. The sky is still black.


uhhhh im not really into typing anymore so im just going to go lie down....outside in the grass, there's a storm coming in and I want to enjoy the outdoors before the sun goes down completely and everything gets rained on.

other things l8r

[Naomi]

I meant to finish this but I am like totally feverishly working on this e-mail to some guy over a really important artwork toP (http://www.angelfire.com/crazy/spaceman/inaugural.html)ic and probably won't get finished until so late I'll just want to crawl into bed.

Ill probably just start with the next tarot in the morning. flaky, i know...

All the best,

naomi

oh the cards I drew for today just so I remember:

four of pentacles (reveresed)
the star
five of swords (reversed)

[Naomi]

15:6 The Devil/Horned 1

Physical

I pull into a half lotus. I feel alert and energetic. I'm pretty flexible too. My back is tingling mainly, where my shoulder blades are. I take a walk outside to hang the wet blankets in the grass up to dry so I can use them later this evening.

Intellectual

I'm pretty intellectually quick this morning. The house got trashed last night since it was Greg's 'weekend' but I don't feel like cleaning this morning and want to transcribe my Mythology book or paint more than anything. I could get into some mischief too, but I do my best to maintain.

Spiritual

I'm gating into mirror MM posted and through the card [brb]

[...]

I begin by spontaneously deciding to sing a mantra to Ningishzidda, changing my pitch each time. After three times I sing a mantra to Mithras, the Roman deity.

I am sitting on the top of the glowing white tower seen in several of my earlier recordings. The sky is still black, with white light on the horizon. I am like the Ardhanarishwara
esoterically speaking, I can feel both of my male and female sides as individuals but my form really looks like the Starbucks lady and not the old one either, the new one. I am floating above the ground. Maybe I need some coffee. Weird.

I sit waiting for something to come to mind.

I become seated and find I have black claws and am wearing beautiful golden jewelry. I'm not a Starbucks mermaid anymore, just a magician. The view is gorgeous, as is the crashing of the violent waves far below. . I see the other towers Anibis mentioned. My right hand traces a triangle on the sand on the ground and marks it with a dot so that it is a tetractys. Not satisified with this, it adds two more dots, like MythMath's mirror he posted earlier. The dots shift and begin to glow, and my right hand lifts it using some force until it is floating in front of us. The fingers spread and focus energy into the dots. The hand moves this diagram aside.

We trace another drawing into the dust, the tree field. I raise it up with my right hand and infuse it with energy as well. I see the towers in the distance lighting up with sparkling golden thread patterns and a light goes up into the sky.

I sit there for a moment, satisified, and look up and see that the Starbucks lady has turned into just a simple glowing green crescent moon shape holding a star., the symbol of islam, except the crescent is holding the star and not tilted to the side. (I'm so not into Islam, just fyi)

Imaginative

I'm going to see Spiderman 3 today! Now I want to paint my painting. and read about Mesopotamian mythology.

I only drew one card today:

King of Wands

[Naomi]

15:6 Alchemy

(this is a transcription of my paper journal)

I lie in the grass under the sun.

The myriad plants sparkle it seems to me as if all is as palaces of gold, just as Niguma said.

At my head a weed with a spiked black seed fruit grows. I will collect these for later use, I see a shiny black beetle clambering along a blade of grass. Iktomi, as a furry black and white jumping spider, sits on a violet leaf.

I pull off my sarong and lie with my back to the sun. To hell with sunblock. - I want UV rays. Gold light suffuses the back of my eyelids. Beautifullll.

Im given permission to be the black dragon. I roll onto my back exposing my hands to the sun. I collect the golden light. My male side takes over. I stand as the black one atop the tower. Threads of lovely golden tracery light noveau patterns on my hide.

I stretch out my wings and dive out over the black sea. A breeze kicks up in the physical, relieving the heat. I swoop towards one of the neighboring towers. A small structure in ancient Athenian style sits, atop it. I unfurl my claws from beneath me and land on the ground in front of the door. I poke my head in.

Ricci sits here, her face in her hands above a marble throne. All is greyish white with gold accents. All save the statue of Anubis opposite her in the tiny temple. All is beautiful. I lean over and give her a huge lick, sliming her hair and face. I pull my head out and examine the crescent moon above the door.

An eternal flame sits here, unlit. I breathe fire onto it and it is alight.

I swoop off again, towards Anibis. Clouds have begun moving over the sun, in my backyard, so my body is cooling off in the physical. (phew)

I land on Anibis's tower and examine inside his house. It is casual, full of strange posters, books and a comfortable chair. He sits studying. But he sees me and looks up. I nod to him and turn to leave. Outside there is a timepiece and image of Thoth etched on the walls.

I take my claws and dig three grooves into the stone image of the clock.

I take off again, this time travelling to Kain's place. He has no temple, he sits in meditation on bare rock. My form changes from a black dragon to a black winged red fox as I land. He ignores me, but is aware of me.. I notice the glowing silver/green crescent moon above his head. I turn to face the black ocean and sit beside him like so, quietly.

A crow calls three times in the trees above my garden (crows are quite rare around here) I take it as a sign to visit TheTengu. The crow flies west, cawing three times. As I leap off of Kain's tower, I shft into dragon form once more.

I come upon TheTengu's tower and house, a wood and stone building in Japanese style.

Inside, I see glowing white japanese screens. On the left side of me is a large collection of black rifles, machine guns, pistols and other such military gear, neatly hanging on the wall. On the right is a equally huge and orderly collection of beautiful japanese and chinese weapons.

I approach the silent and meditative form of TheTengu/Gardua. In the blink of an eye, he has a naginate held to my throat. I knock it away with my claws and push his chest w/my snout.

I tickle him and turn to leave, noting the glowing red crescent above the house.

I swoop towards 1000shadesofgrey's tower. He sits under adeciduous tree, it is small. He is holding a calm white rabbit. Vegetation grows around him. He is meditating with his eyes shut. I use my prana to make the tree grow higher. It grows into a high pine, majestic. I hang a golden moon xmas ornament on the branch.

I realize I need to record this as I have so much more to do. I open my eyes and find the sun covered in silver mist, nice and cool. Thank you Ningishzidda, oh sweet one...

I run inside and grab my journal. As I sit down on my white blanket, I see a ladybug larvae, black and orange, nestled among the black dragon plant.

As I finish the first page, a huge orange butterfly with black spots and a green furry body lands at the top of my journal. I greet her and continue writing. It remains cool and sunless throughout the writing process.

I will begin meditations again.

[...} gating...

I swoop off again and visit two other individuals. (Not A regulars) They speek coarsely to me, wondering who I am and what I am doing there. I leave them all as they are. They both have companions with them, and no moons.

I focus on Lucian. As I circle her location I fold my wings and dive. Her tower is just a boulder, barely jutting out from the ocean. I am concerned. silver chains bind her hands and feet to a pole and she stands, leaning against it, naked. Sharks, hundreds of them, swarm in the black and stormy waters. I crush the chains with my jaws and grab her in one hand. I fling her onto my back.

My female side separates and I am now a red fox sitting beside her on the dragon's back. I peer at her. She has a blank withdrawn expression. I wonder what to do with her. We approach the tower where I was bitten by the black dragon. We land at the front of the tower, in the cave opening. I lead her carefully into the chamber as regular Naomi, not super mutant dragon Naomi.

It has changed in here. In place of the dead bodies - er, zombie ladies, a golden firepit holds a green and red flame. Benches line the room in a circle. I lead her into the middle chamber ahead of the main chamber. The lady with blonde hair recieves us. She is Venus. Lucian stands silently as we spend an hour (literal meditation time) dressing her in all manner of outfits. We discuss everything girly.

We finally put her in a green silk kimono with a beautiful peacock pattern. I arrange her hair into an exotic japanese arrangement with purple jade combs.

Venus and I both agree this is not right, I wave my hand and the color seeps out until she is arrayed in silver, black and white. The peacock feather pattern still adorns the silk. Silver hair combs hold her hair in place.

We rub silver glitter gel from Claires or maybe afterthoughts on her skin. I take a pale green jade serpent medallion and put it in her palm. She closes it on her own.

We like it. Lucian is silent. I grab her hand gently and lead her out into another strange corridor, all grey rock and cold light. A creeping silver phoenix shifts along the left wall, like a weird moving wall plaque. We make quite a pair, silver bedecked peacock and naked naomi.

We reach the end of the corridor and ascend many steps emerging finally at the top of the tower.

The black dragon sits here, meditating or sleeping. He turns to look at us. I duck down and tell Lucian, in a whisper "OK let's go. " we turn back down the steps.

I hear the dragon speak in my mind - "You're doing the wrong thing." "What am I supposed to do?" i ask. "Take her to the chamber of Ma'at." he replies.

I figure it must be located on the right side of the tower entrance.

I take her there and enter into a dark chamber lit from above by silver light. Ma'at stands, opposite Anubis, the scales between them.

I unfurl Lucian's hand and take the medallion from her, to discover it has changed from a jade serpent to a silver phoenix clawed hand.

I place it on the dais and Ma'At arrayed in white cotton and feathered wings, places it in the tray of the scales.

I watch as it rises slowly. Coyote pounces on the tray sinking it to the tabletop. He snickers, Ma'At stares at him impassively. The trays begin to rotate and spin, like a gyroscope.

"Is that normal?" I ask Ma'At. She says "My scales have changed." she says.

The device continues its fluctations, until a silver slitted eye appears, glowing, above the central pole.

Ma'at nods and takes Lucian's hand. "I will take care of her for now." I turn to Anubis and nod at him, he returns my greeting.

As I pass the door, I nod at Thoth, and as a prank, change into a crocodile and snap at him. He moves away gracefully and blinks at me. I laugh and slither out the archway.

Note to self: Cards after dinner....

[Naomi]

Hmm so two hours of grocery shopping and 45 minutes prep time of 30 ingredients yields 5 minutes of gourmet italian. :rolleyes: Chinese food=faster Naomi Eating= Light speed

My cards for the day:

348

Male:Five of Swords: You're not feeling well, your mates arn't backing you and your enemies are out to get you. You're not even sleeping well. You can't trust a soul and there may be a row brewing. Don't retreat - you need to sort this out. :(
Neutral:Page of wands: You may be inspired by someone with fresh ideas, or you might find inspiration yourself through yor studies - particularily if you're working on arty subjects. You could even find that that germ of a literary idea could turn out to be a bestseller, if you spot its potential.
Female: King of Pentacles;This is your time to take charge and sort out whatever it is that's causing you grief. You have an inner certainty that means you don't have to take no for an answer. :ttongue:

[Naomi]

Shalott lyrics - Emilie Autumn


She's locked up with a spinning wheel
She can't recall what it was like to feel
She says, "This room's gonna be my grave
And there's no one who can save me,"
She sits down to her colored thread
She knows lovers waking up in their beds
She says, "How long can I live this way
Is there someone I can pay to let me go
'Cause I'm half sick of shadows
I want to see the sky
Everyone else can watch as the sun goes down
So why can't I

Chorus:
And it's raining
And the stars are falling from the sky
And the wind
And the wind I know it's cold
I've been waiting
For the day I will surely die
And it's here
And it's here for I've been told
That I'll die before I'm old
And the wind I know it's cold..."

She looks up to the mirrored glass
She sees a horse and rider pass
She says, "This man's gonna be my death
'Cause he's all I ever wanted in my life
And I know he doesn't know my name
And that all the girls are all the same to him
But still I've got to get out of this place
'Cause I don't think I can face another night
Where I'm half sick of shadows
And I can't see the sky
Everyone else can watch as the tide comes in
So why can't I

Chorus

But there's willow trees
And little breezes, waves, and walls, and flowers
And there's moonlight every single night
As I'm locked in these towers
So I'll meet my death
But with my last breath I'll sing to him I love
And he'll see my face in another place,"
And with that the glass above

Her cracked into a million bits
And she cried out, "So the story fits
But then I could have guessed it all along
'Cause now some drama queen is gonna write a song for me,":dull:
She went down to her little boat
And she broke the chains and began to float away
And as the blood froze in her veins she said,
"Well then that explains a thing or two
'Cause I know I'm the cursed one
I know I'm meant to die
Everyone else can watch as their dreams untie
So why can't I

(totally broadcasting this one over mercury)

[Naomi]

15:7 Death

Man, I don't even feel like typing I'm so sleepy. I laid out in the sun for this one, and had my Death card with me. As I knelt down I noticed the black and brown wolf spider at my head. Heh....

I stripped and the sun felt great for a while. After about 10 minutes it became too intense. I decided to stay with it. The intensity pushed me deeper into the meditation. I gave into it and then the clouds suddenly covered the sun for a few minutes. It returned with extra intensity after this, and I still yielded to it. It was so incredibly powerful I couldn't do much but give in. So I did and then the clouds covered up the sun and it was cool for hours. I just went to sleep.

I drew the sword and shield spread for this one, in order:

The Emperor(reversed
Nine of Swords
The Empress
Ten of Pentacles
Death (reversed)
The Star

The Magician
Two of Pentacles
Princess of Cups
Ace of Cups
The Fool

The cool effect in this spread is the Emperor is connected at the feet with the Empress and flanked by The Star and Ten of Pentacles, and walking the path of Death overturned. The Sword at the hilt is the Magician and Princess of cups offers up Ace of Cups. And the point of the sword is the Fool....

[Naomi]

Thoth Count 15:8 The Hanged Man

Misc...physical:

Ate an avocado and a tomato all squashed up on bread. Not hungry though really.

Intellectual:

Kinda fried actually...

Spiritual:

I took some time out to go outside and work on the Thoth Count. I slipped into deep meditation and found myself under the left paw of the dragon. Massive curved talons with the diameter of dinner plates at the top lay on both sides of my head, and the warm scaly paw of the dragon lay on my stomache. I looked around and decided there was really no point in struggling at all, so I just laid there.

Such pretty black claws. I reached out and touched them and then laid still again for a while because I felt energy being drawn off of me. I eventually found a way out but it did require some persuasion.

I also had a chat with him and that's it....

[Naomi]

Thoth Count 15:8 The Balance

I woke up this morning to my black cat Ninja making weird noises like "Mrowwww" "Mrowww" I'm like "Meow?" and he walks in carrying some squirming animal. Oh it's a bird, he's showing it off. He must have ran inside with it when Greg left for work.

I pet him and take the bird. Ech, it's not in good shape, and is panting. I wrap it in bliss energy and take it outside, and set it down on the porch, trying to get ninja to finish it. He won't, the brat. I'm not sure whether to kill it or put it somewhere to see if it's ok to fly. I put it in a hiding spot among some jasmine and decide to check on it later.

After sending the kids off with their auntie, I find my young black cat, Tako (boss) has discovered the bird and killed it, and is now prancing around the yard being pursued by his brother Hom Su Ga. I am so relieved.

Later I prepare to do the Thoth Count and decide to go with the next card (the balance/justice) I sit in the shade doing not much but thinking and waiting for a sign to go into visions or something. Nothing happens, and I decide to wait for the sun to come up over the trees.

As I sit and think I come to realize the importance of barriers, in not allowing the unprepared into higher spheres of influence. The card I carry out with me depicts a woman with the scales of justice and sword of truth, whe's in a red dress and a green sash, like the cobra on the tree of life diagram, is wrapped around her. Mars and Venus - Love and War.

A threesome of noisy birds lands above me, arguing loudly. lol I wonder if they are fighting over food or girls.

I examine the tree branches and cloudless blue sky, reminding me of the earth.

As I sit and think I come to realize the earth as a precious thing. A jewel fought over by many powerful beings and races of people. A mouldering hellish place of suffering and stark beauty, cruel to the living and furnace to the highest minds.

All of this pain only makes it more appealing, more beautiful to the great jewelled serpent. Like a magnificient blue green sapphire prepared and offered up to the heavens by the milky way galaxy herself, a burning offering to a peerless god beyond gods, one beyond a single galaxy. The wise ancient dragon who collects the planet out of the pool of white stars and adds it to his harama, with Nuit the queen of them all, and Durga, the empress. The earth, like a tiny aquamarine pearl amongst a sea of sand, now placed amongst the other jewels in the dragon horde...I see worlds in our galaxy with civilizations far advanced beyond our own, technologically adept, yet spiritually stupid - all meaningless dull stones compared to the beauty of earth's exquisite diversity and complex turmoil.

There's more....put your hands to the sky....

[Naomi]

Neverland [In Strict Confidence Remix] Dkay.com


Neverland
Neverland
The secret lie
it all seems so real
a star so pretty
a fantasy so real
the freaks are out
in force tonight
to idolize a mastermind
its more than fascination
a pervert hallucination
neverland
eternal possibilities
only wish to be real
neverland
utopian green machinery
it all seems so real
decaying purity is the price of success
lavishing the beauty we're dying to save
there's a deadly solution
fulfill the illusion

[Naomi]

362

"It's the turn of the tide." X-Marks the Pedwalk

[Naomi]

Sorry I missed my thoth count yesterday I couldn't help it, too much...too intense...I am still writing...


Thanks for posting Ricci, lovely pictures....

[Naomi]

15:12

Spent 3 hours naked in two thunderstorms, where the trees threw sticks at me...

15:13

I really don't feel like talking to anyone!!!! :ninja:

[Naomi]

15:14 Strength

Alright, alright...

Well I started out this morning feeling really great. And then I got on Abrahadabra and then I was reading some 1337 m1thr0sian dialogue and suddenly it dawned on me as I read the term "binary trigram" er wait no "ternary bigram" I think to myself "Fuck I don't even really know what a ternary bigram is" so I look it up on Wikipedia and there's like a dozen definitions for ternary, and I'm like..."damn, no I can't just be a dumbass and ask what a ternary bigram is....I think I asked that before"

So I lookup "ternary bigram" on the Abrahadabra search and voila, there's Mutational Alchemy Essentials 001-003. I've read them before of course.

hours pass

:dazed::coffee:

So I sit there for a coupla hours absorbing this like 9th density level text :bedazzled:wishing "Man it would be great if I could make Silentjohn voice record these MAE's so I could listen to them on my headphones while I sunbathe - because it's such a great day and I'm fucking stuck inside staring at this screen. I think "MY god I have so much fucking work to do"

But luckily, part of it includes the Thoth Count, so I grab my Strength card and head outside to sunbathe :sunny:

Anyways things have gotten real tedious ever since Justice card, so today I could not get the visuals going. It's like everything is real logickal and focused on academics around me.

After an hour or so I finally came to the realization of the MA DURGA vibe coming off of the strength card....the world is her playground and she never takes anything too seriously - even the baddest rakshasa is like her kid. YEah the world felt like my playground right then. I waved my hand up at the sky and the clouds covered the sun. Haha, cool.

Really no more than 10-20 seconds of vision work, total....real non-maya layered stuff.


Anyways, I deleted all of my bookmarks and replaced them all with Abrahadabra Mutational Alchemy reccomended reading list links and all of that so I am hard at work...

Cards for strength:

Male: Queen of Pentacles
Neutral: Two of Cups
Female: Two of Swords

[Naomi]

15:15

Like....I'm not even like meditating I'm just dancing. Like, really groovin' totally physical realms here....

Real auspicious cards today:

http://www.thetengu.com/abrahadabra/TC_Chariot15-15.jpg

[Naomi]

This is a bit of an outrageous post. Would you possibly make it a little easier to read, and understand as an interpretation of the TC? Maybe a little pruning/color changes would help. Thanks;
-AnibisSEX

AND LOTS OF IT.

[Anibis]

This is a bit of an outrageous post. Would you possibly make it a little easier to read, and understand as an interpretation of the TC? Maybe a little pruning/color changes would help. Thanks;
-Anibis

[Anibis]

The magnet bit seems to ring truest to this path, BTW... it's very much about polarities and counter polarities.. Last time I was there, I got the DNA connection and the I Ching BIG TIME....
-A-

[Naomi]

:O

NO You are not allowed to read my diary either!!!!!

EDIT:

I AM HAVING HARD TIME EXPRESSING MYSELF. :o_O:

http://forums.abrahadabra.com/showthread.php?t=325

I think i'm going to be all night drinking coffeee and painting and doing lots of cool yoga.

YEah I know, I am sorry ANibis, I CAN't HELP IT!!!

[Naomi]

CLARITY!

http://www.7secondsoflove.com/winners/

http://www.7secondsoflove.com/ninja/

http://www.7secondsoflove.com/fans/submarine/

http://www.rathergood.com/looking/

[Naomi]

Well that's nice, but this actually explains the whole story in a short sweet synopsis:

http://www.rathergood.com/vid/

[Naomi]

http://www.thetengu.com/abrahadabra/worldclassart.jpg

I Created this whole thing in like 6 seconds

FASTEST ARTIST ALIVE

[Naomi]

I call this one "Power of Purrsuasian" because it was the most art snob title I could think of....

http://www.thetengu.com/abrahadabra/purrsuasion.jpg

[Naomi]

Great creativity yesterday....high art....thanks for not biting my head off, it's appreciated, it's real hard to think during those periods so normally where I would normally just keep to myself comes out in this kind of strange trance expression that is outside the current norm.

15:17 The Priest

This morning I woke up with a sparkling white galaxy in my brain. Pretty much just enjoying that all day and now going outside to catch some sunshine.

I'm running really hot energy so I seem to be constantly running out of water. So today is pretty much just

tanning+water+chilling

It's a lot of work as you can imagine. No actually - it really is. When I say chilling what I actually mean is total brain freeze meditation intensity that makes it appear like I'm just being lazy - I'm really just busy being nullified. In fact I tried to do visuals and didn't get much but a slam on my back (with an audible energy sound) forcing me back into mu-shin. The energy isn't staying but channeling off of me towards elsewhere.... Today's random cards:

Male: The Lovers
Neutral: Three of Swords
Female: Queen of CupsNow I'm going back to bake-rinse-repeat mode...

[Anibis]

I was just thinking... you mentioned how since the Balance, you have found this much more 'serious' and harder to do. Your manner of approach has changed, too... It's neat that you percieve this, though cuz of course the energy is now 'contracting into a point', rather than expanding outwards from a point, so, I suspect that some of the way you are encountering these 'upper paths', has to do with the overall trjectory of the grid. Cheers;
-Anibis

[Naomi]

Well that's a helpful obsevation Anibis, I never noticed that. It's probably while I'm feeling a bit backed into a corner.

[Naomi]

OOps I did the wrong one yesterday, didn't I? Well I did it again today, but I can't do it over, it took me 3 hours and it was totally intensely exhausting.. It's going to take me a long time to write it all out.

[Anibis]

I have no clue at all what 'the priest' is... Yesterday was 'the Teacher'... 'The priest' must be an interpretation of the Hierophant from another deck... The only time I use 'the Priest' is to refer to ATU XIX, the Sun, since it is the Priest to ATU II's priestess. (They are polar paths and the Sun and Moon respectively...) Today we are working Atu IV, the Star... At the end of the day, it always takes a run or two to get the hang of this type of operation, so mistakes are to be expected, though if at all possible minimized. Like in juggling: they are signs of error, but are unavoidable in the process of learning... Just pick up the balls and carry on. The more Uhmph put into these workings, and the less mistakes, the more potent the overall field becomes. Think of each visit to each path as a little 'charging' or period of adjustment... at first though, they are super intense and wild... after a while, the energy of a path will come more under control, and the visuals themselves will reflect that... Anyhow.. three hours... Whew. That's a long haul. Used to do rituals which were that long... got it down to fifteen minutes... no less potent, though... Cheers;
-Anibis

[Naomi]

15:18

well this is going to be pretty hentai, im either going to write it all or none...your choice Ibisis, since you're the mod

I made up priest...mine says hierophant but I thought priest, I was imagining that I remembered that was in your tarot....sorry

Do you mean I should make the rituals shorter? I don't know if I could squeeze alla this into 15 minutes...would be pretty boring...it's not like I wasn't having the time of my life. Time of my past uh...two days, come to think of it.

[Naomi]

Oh man lol! I get what you are saying! you mean I should do it over the right way in 15 minutes. Sure, sure I can do that. Just gimme until after dinner.

Do you still want me to post the other version too? :)

[Naomi]

Ok this spider has been sitting on my sliding glass door all day, but I didn't bother looking at it until I had gated to the TC The WOman Thing working, and so it took me 15 minutes to grab it and take a photograph and stick it in my Solomonic torture box

(Yeah I have one but I don't use it...I didn't have a jar)

Um so what should I do with the spider?

[Anibis]

Uh, don't post it if it will violate the regs for the board. As for method, I'm not saying you have to do it over again or anything... Just that it is my experience that a uniform, succinct method, such as: circle open, centre, ground, call Abrahadabra (at whatever level it's at), Focus on Juggler, enter Atu, and interact with it, return focus to juggler, centre and ground, close circle, will do you alot of service. I write about a paragraph after each experience, and use that to construct my entries here.

Instead of trying to correct this run, concentrate on getting the last few paths right, and then when you go into the next run, try to use a uniform method throughout, focusing on the Tarot's I have provided/referenced, or on making your own. It would not be a difficult matter to spend the next 22 day run actually composing a set of glyphs to work with. You could use the one I did up, or devise your own... This is a science. The methods by which you open and close your circles should be ones that you devise, adopt, and tweak as neccesary... Avoid doing things that you, yourself don't comprehend...


-Anibis

[Naomi]

THIS BOARD VIOLATES MY REGULATIONS.

lol j/k

I did it again already! Look!!!

Oh how do I make my own? Doesn't it have to be based on yours?

[Anibis]

It should be numbered in the same way mine is, but beyond that the gylphs are yours to devise. Have a look at the Tarot thread... The titles are pretty obvious... I call the hierophant 'the teacher', you could call it something else, it doesn't matter... you should just understand WHY you call it a given thing... You are really, at the end of the day going to have to piece this one together yourself... To start, why not getting the numbers 0-21, looking at the trump titles, and doing a small image for each one... That's my advice at any rate... you could also do one per day, for the next run, so you would end up with a full set of charged ATU...
-Anibis

[Naomi]

Oh fuck, it's the numbers that are important?!!? Here I was concentrating really hard on the names. Are all of mine fucked up now?!!?

[Anibis]

Just ride it out... it'll be okay. Worry about the numbers the next run.
-Anibis

[Naomi]

yeaaaaaaah riiiiide it out.....

good ideaaaaa

[Naomi]

TC 15:19 (May 22nd)
TS:'-' (Silent Beat=Daath)
ARBAdaharba

ATU III, The Woman

Lots of sleeping/meditation today, as well as some major energy input into my left hand, didn’t bother analyzing it, I am sure it has already begun to decompress, however.

As I gate in I become a lotus, black, then I start folding out towards the cosmos - the garden of the universe, where stars, galaxies and nebulae are simply flowers. They express according to input, the absolute shapes the course of shakti, so intricate in the patterns that it is never completely understood. The entire cosmos is like a river of sakti, that when broken by the shape of stone, creates the patterns and shapes we see in between the worlds, the maya, a playground.

play=education

The absolute reveals itself, the abyss does not - neither is easy to understand.

What can be understood is this - the void, where absolute only gazes at the abyss, brings clarity for the present moment. But! Play!

Random Cards

Male: Death
Neutral" The Empress
Female: The Hermit

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[Naomi]

Thoth Year 15.20

Meditation on The Priestess takes us along Path 13 from Tiphareth to Kether
Assistive vibrations are Twin Star 3 and ABR(ahadabra) on 23nd May 2007



JUST TO BE SAFE. :dull:


Difficult, very difficult. Couldn't figure out what to do for this TC. I studied the tarot for a while, then the book of mirrors (looking for Twin Star 3 - wtf is that?) and then I went and took some fish oil and vitamins. I'm also drinking a lot of water.

I didn't get any sun today either, it was much too busy. Lots of major energy fluctuations goin on in my left palm.

Everyone has left the house so I think i'll go out for some solitude and try to sort this one out. :|

[Naomi]

Well..

I went outside and asked where I should lie down. ("Over here...stop! Right here.") As I lie down, I notice the moon - a waxing crescent, lies directly above me. Everything is beautiful, in green, the clear blue sky and the white moon. Birds sing lovely songs in the trees.

Noisy sounds of the city chime in with the sounds of nature. A jet cuts across the blue sky, and with it's referenc epoint, I am able to percieve the moon moving slowly. It crosses the line of jet steam as if stepping over a line drawn in the sand. I smirk.

As the sun closes in on the horizon, the moon grows brighter, and waxes in front of me to a half crescent. Amazing - It's been a while since I've done some moon gazing - they used to be quite fond of it in Japan, even designing gardens around flowers that bloomed at night.

I notice a slight yellow tinge to the sky, I realize it is pollution. Remembering the intricate rituals of the days before, I part the air and offer the keys to air to the emerald one. The poisonous breath. I think of all the discontent people in the world, unable to see the beauty all around them - seeking some sort of magical world at amusement parks, in foreign lands - thinking enlightenment lies in some far away exotic place. Their busy travels and rush to get somewhere away from where they are poisons the very world they live in. How very silly.

Here I lie, in my simple backyard, engaged in the most ecstatic cosmic dance with the ancient lord of what - half the universe? My words cannot express the bliss felt. I, who have plunged the depths of hell, seen worlds beyond worlds - such darkness I have seen - such exquisite light - such beings of magick and power. The fierce nagas, tengu lords, peerless gods, the ancient centaurs, satyrs, beings of dark power beyond the reach of common man, even Yama, King of Death, even Siva. They pale in comparison to this.

Oh humanity, such fools you are - you trade emeralds and gold for mud.

I sing some mantras to quiet the busy city around me...the humans cease their idiotic arguments and go inside, no doubt touched by a profound peace spoken in a few simple words. Om Nam Ningishzidda. I perform the ancient ritual, the parting of the ways of the earth's veil. The moon I offer up to the great one, freely "Humanity submits to you, lord of all, we submit to your will." I breathe in the air, while breathing in him. I sense no other will to counter mine.

The moon continues her travels across the sky. Ebon leaves against lapis sky, and the bright white beauty of the waxing half-moon, that breast of nothing, the goddess, as she appears for a moment, smiling down at me.

The 9'oclock blue (or what you might call midnight blue, if you havn't watched the sky recently) creeps over like a dark blanket, the black scaled trees, shaped like serpents, the dragon's mouth, opens wide to <******************CENSORED************************ *>

And she says to me "Aaaaah, yesss....such bliss rendered unto me, what beauty."


I hear a scratching noise over by the pond, and look up to see one of the local raccoons peering at me, surprised and wide-eyed. I smirk and lie back down, and it cautiously walks out of the garden.

Well that's the best I could do, there's more but I won't bore you to tears with it. :tnerd:

[Naomi]

Well I don't have much time, apparently I'm going to a luau tonight.

This should be good though.

431
430

[Naomi]

Today was difficult, I can't get photoshop to load my current painting because the scratch disks are full for no $*@!ing reason. Then I wrote a huge long e-mail to someone I was supposed to write two days ago and the power cut out just before I was going to send it. So I called the outage in and meditated while that was going on.

Then the power came back on,I was all worried and I went to that retarded forum Digital Gangster to get some customer support from the hackers and pirates surrounding my work in Photoshop.

So after that I shut down my computer and invoked Durga to do a coupla tarot spreads. Here's one. (http://www.thetengu.com/abrahadabra/durgaspread-foolsday.jpg) And I also had her make a playlist for me in WinMP by closing my eyes and picking randomly with my crolling wheel...I have a zillion songs on my computer to choose from, but she only picked 7, most of them are ones I only gave 3 stars. (I guess I have bad taste?) :rolleyes: I listened to them all and extrapolated her messages but I couldn't understand all of them.

In order:


Eifersucht - Rammstein ( I don't speak German or understand any of it except cuss words) Sehnsucht Album

Mangalam - Ravi Shankar (I don' t understand any Indian dialect) Mantram: Chant of India Album

Homage to Baba Allaudin (Raga Hemant) - Ravi Shankar (Instrumental Sitar and percussion) - Vision of Peace Album

Little Black Mess - Shivaree off the Who's Got Trouble Album
"I should try to be good, forever and ever, I meant so I'll touch wood. And hope I don't get caught again without my lies"


Question! - System of a Down, Mezmerize album
"Are you...Dreaming! Dreaming the night! Dreaming all right! Do we! Do we know, when we FLY? When we, when we go Do we die LALALALALALLALAALALALALALAALALALALA"


Violent Pornography - System of a Down, Mezmerize album
"It's on the TV ....Fuck...Turn off your TV, Can you say "brainwashing"? brainwashing...It's a non-stop disco"


Brighter Than the Sun - Tiamat, Skelton Skeletron Album
"we could wander in the garden of eden baby

we could anything tonight, maybe

we could even touch the sky

if we just get up on our feet and try

we could wander in the garden of eden baby



will you settle for the bull's run

for the second best of fun

for the fire of a handgun

burns brighter than the sun



any colour you like as long as it's black

you have anything if you just give it back

you could be a celebrity like me

it won't change anything as you will see

any colour you like as long as it's black"



I might do some more invocation today but I don't know just yet..

[Naomi]

Man what the fuck ever, you know this calendrics stuff is reaaaaalallllllly starting to insult my dignity

i meanwhat the hell

what the hell!!!!!! seriously!!!

[Naomi]

grownups just leave me out of this k thx

http://www.thetengu.com/abrahadabra/3cobras.jpg

"Nothing says memorial day weekend like freshly barbecued hot dogs"

- Naomi Chan

http://www.thetengu.com/abrahadabra/durgaspread-foolsday2.jpg


PHOTOGRAPHS OF TEH INTERNETS:

http://www.thetengu.com/abrahadabra/OFOLDGUARD.jpg

this thing I painted in febury on conceptart.org, kinda cool:

http://www.thetengu.com/abrahadabra/sisoft.jpg

[Anibis]

Man what the fuck ever, you know this calendrics stuff is reaaaaalallllllly starting to insult my dignity

i meanwhat the hell

what the hell!!!!!! seriously!!!

? What's up ?
Ready for round 2? If so, may I suggest you take some time to learn the pattern of unfolding, so you know what's coming in advance and can avoid unneccessary mistakes re: path orders... Just look at the tarot page and know that we are going from 0-XXI. Look at the map MM has provided and it will show you where each path is. You will experience much less confusion if you have this apect straightened out at the get go. Today's path is 'The Fool'. Know also that if you wish to exit the working and get your bearings, these transition points are the best place for it... Okay, good on ya'.
-Anibis

[MythMath]

Onto the next firststep... :yes:

[Naomi]

ATU 1

THE MAGICKIAN

:::a fox silently pads in and drops a book at the feet of the magician:::

http://www.dresdendolls.com/downloads_n_lyrics/lyrics/coinoperatedboy.htm

http://www.sing365.com/music/Lyric.nsf/Dead-Girls-lyrics-Voltaire/683677FBE47FA31748256DAA0025529D

www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/drdre/deeeznuuuts.html

http://www.lyricsfreak.com/s/snoop+dogg/lil+ghetto+boy_10218437.html

[Anibis]

My dear. Today is the Fool. Tommorow the magician. We do the Fool two days in a row at these transition points.
-A-

[Naomi]

well that's ironic.

[Naomi]

ATU 0

THE F(o)(o)L

The fox says, "Happy birthday!"

http://www.lyred.com/lyrics/The+Birthday+Massacre/Violet/Happy+Birthday/

[Naomi]

Well I can't go back and fix my mistakes but I sure can keep trying...I did some other stuff today and I'll post it in a few min

Well I took the neighbor girl Mackenzie who is 7 and my daughter Iriana to the empty parking lot where there is an old oak I like to sit under. She was riding on a scooter and I asked her about it, it had four princesses on it from Disney. I said to her "Oh you stand on their faces when you ride on your scooter, lol" and she said "Yeah, well it's just a scooter." So I said "Which one is you?" and she pointed at Belle. And I said oh I like Princess Jasmine. And she goes "Yeah I guess she's kinda pretty." So after we walked down to the back lot of the church I had my deck with me so I was doing readings and Mackenzie picked up one of the iron rods that was sitting in the parking lot from the broken concrete parking divisions and starting hitting my tree with it! I told her she shouldn't hit trees, they have feelings and change the air we breathe from poison into life giving air. She asked me "How do you know that?!" I said "I'm a scientist." ^_^

Then she decided to sit on the trees roots instead, next to me, and I praised her. She then asked if she could play cards with her. I said to her "Well this is a tarot deck, it's a book." she said "Oh" and I asked her "What do you want to know?" and she said "Nothing." I said "Nothing, that's pretty important stuff." I drew a layout for her and this was her spread:

http://www.thetengu.com/abrahadabra/m-girl-tree-tarot.jpg

Then we went home....David played Neopets all day pretty much

[Naomi]

ABRAHADABR(a) TS2 on 27 May 2007
The Magickian on Path 12 (a)RBADAHARBA

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[Radiant Star]

Ah Naomi, just to mention that you don't have to do the Abrahadabra bit the way I am doing it, you could just do it as usual if you like, I am just experimenting with it like this :D

[Naomi]

oh :(

You mean copying your text? I am just doing that so I don't fuck up the numbers or anything...

[Radiant Star]

Copying my text is fine but when you are vibrating the Abrahadabra, you don't have to do it twice - once forward and once backward as I am doing, that is just an option. You can just do the forward Abrahadabra if you want to, though I have to say, I love making it into an Abrahadabra Sandwich filled with the path an twin star. :mwink:

[Naomi]

Abrahadabra sandwiches huh? Hmm.

How about Abrahadabra pancakes?

Actually, I don't really vibrate Abrahadabra much at all, at least not as part of the Thoth count.

MMM

SYRUP ON TEETH

- SJ

[Naomi]

ATU II THE PRIESTESS

http://www.thetengu.com/abrahadabra/cobra.jpg

[Naomi]

http://www.thetengu.com/abrahadabra/sekhmetatron.jpg

[Naomi]

I was watering my garden and Tengu locked me out of the house on accident when he went to the post office, so I got my Bhairav off the wall and walked down the block to the churck parking lot and picked flowers on the way, then I sat and did puja to yama bhairav and he came to visit me, it was neat. I made this alter on my desk.



http://www.thetengu.com/abrahadabra/bhairav.jpg

[Naomi]

Game on. #13

[Naomi]

Fort Minor Petrified Lyrics

Yall are not, not, not Ready HO
Not not ready HO
We're gonna drop it steady so
Do it like that
Like that (like that)....

Now why is everybody so petrified?
WHAT?
Petrified?
WHAT?
Step aside.
And just drop that...
COME ON!
Drop that...
COME ON!
Drop that...
COME ON!
Drop that...
COME ON! [x2]

Yeah
How you doin', y'all?
My name is Mike.
I'm fooling with the new shit
I'm doing it all like
I like what i do
I do what i like
I could quit and get it back like i'm riding a bike
Like stop...
...bring it back, bring it back

We got that balance keeping us on track
That ya get when ya move and quit, wit no slow
You stare like you don't care
But you do it though

I know
You really must be so lonely
Puffed up, lookin' tough, but so phony
You and your boys, you don't know me
You really wanna hold me show me, homie.

Lets get it over with for good
I got a friction addiction i wish you would
Machine Shop rockin' when we step inside
And we got everybody so petrified

Now why is everybody so petrified?
WHAT?
Petrified?
WHAT?
Step aside.
And just drop that...
COME ON!
Drop that...
COME ON!
Drop that...
COME ON!
Drop that...
COME ON!

Listen you are not ready
Like children in a building you can't stand steady
It must be the beat so heavy
Causin' panic attacks like a crack in the levy

Give you that Robert Plant
Dancing days are back
Feeling all in the track and in fact
For those knowing the name
Of back with some brand new attack
Who can do it like that?

You really must be so lonely
Puffed up, lookin' tough, but so phony
You and your boys, you don't know me
You really wanna hold me show me, homie.

Tough talk doesn't mean a thing
Get over yourself you know when we're up in a scene
[Petrified lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com] (http://www.metrolyrics.com%5D)

Its Machine Shop rockin' when we step inside
And we got everybody so petrified

Now why is everybody so petrified?
WHAT?
Petrified?
WHAT?
Step aside.
And just drop that...
COME ON!
Drop that...
COME ON!
Drop that...
COME ON!
Drop that...
COME ON!

Now why is everybody so petrified?
WHAT?
Petrified?
WHAT?
Step aside.
And just drop that...
COME ON!
Drop that...
COME ON!
Drop that...
COME ON!
Drop that...
COME ON!

Yall are not, not, not Ready HO
Not not ready HO
We're gonna drop it steady so
Do it like that
Like that (like that)...

Yall are not, not, not Ready HO
Not not ready HO
We're gonna drop it steady so
Do it like that
Like that (like that)...

Get UP

Now why is everybody so petrified?
WHAT?
Petrified?
WHAT?
Step aside.
And just drop that...
COME ON!
Drop that...
COME ON!
Drop that...
COME ON!
Drop that...
COME ON! [x2]

Like stop...
...Bring it back Bring it back
We got that balance keeping us on track

Like stop...
...Bring it back Bring it back
We got that balance keeping us on track

Like stop...
...Bring it back Bring it back
We got that balance keeping us on track

Like stop...
...Bring it back Bring it back
We got that balance keeping us on track

Stop...stop...stop...stop...stop...stop...stop...s top..[fades out]

'Chine Shop! shop...shop...shop [fades out]

http://www.egolikeness.com/music.php_files/water.html

[Radiant Star]

The pic of the Lion is so full of expression, truly great artwork Naomi. Possibly my favourite so far in fact :yes:

[Naomi]

Thanks Ricci!

ATU III "The Woman"

http://www.thetengu.com/abrahadabra/doomcobra.jpg

[Naomi]

http://www.thetengu.com/abrahadabra/thestar.jpg

[Naomi]

http://www.thetengu.com/abrahadabra/destruction.jpg

[Naomi]

ATU VI The Chariot

Everything is going great, very busy over here it is and active.

I drew a spread, Sword and Shield

The Magician
King of Swords
Strength
Ten of Swords
Prince of Cups
Four of Cups

Queen of Cups
The Star
The Hierophant
The High Priestess

[Naomi]

15:29 The Chariot

I only had a few seconds to paint this up, because I'm really more interested in my movie rentals tonight than the TC (LOL) but this is the one single vision I recieved really strongly today - the only one. Anything else was too difficult it was all electrical sensations, no unusual hallucinations such as the ones I experienced early on in the workings.

http://www.thetengu.com/abrahadabra/thechariot.jpg

[Naomi]

ATU VII Strength

Well today was real cool, I did some meditation out in the sun for the firt time in a week and I had some cool visionary experiences after viewing the Nukua-P'an Ku mirror pair. Strange unexpected visitors.....felt like i had more control on this one than with the chariot.

[Naomi]

ATU IIX The Hermit

I did a meditation to withdraw into complete shakti, so I was aware of the machinations of the absolute as the body I posessed and became detached. Also, in such awareness, I contemplated the fact that I could get whatever I wanted but only if the shell was provided to animate. The stronger the construct, the more power I could provide. I have no regard for lesser constructs -human life or no- in this form. They are literally meaningless. Humanity is nothing but a toy at this level. However, the strong have nothing to fear. The shakti provides all for her most beloved - even if it means her entrapment or the destruction of anything else.

Oh I thought of all of this in the sun - man that light feels good.

[Naomi]

ATU X The Wheel

468

[Naomi]

Scheisse, talk about checks and balances today....I think I'll deal with this one a little later when the shifting stops.

[Naomi]

ATU 11 The Balance

Well...it took me all day and all night but I finally sorted it all out.

I've also acquired an ungodly taste for photomanipulation, oh well I guess, something's gotta give...

http://www.thetengu.com/abrahadabra/kirin_ichiban.jpg

[Naomi]

http://www.thetengu.com/abrahadabra/thehangedwoman.jpg

full non-radioactive bikini version at abrahadabra/thehangedwomanfull.jpg

[Naomi]

ATU XIII Death

Today was very interesting and morbid. Death is everywhere. I looked out on the backporch at the dead fieldmouse covered in flies the cats had hauled in. I remember reading about an ascetic in India who said you must follow the divine no matter how difficult it may be. I felt so sick this morning I had to lie down for a while and then I got visions in my sleep. In it I kept visiting a store int he mall. I look at a blue and white sweater that is very pretty but it's for winter, and much to warm for th coming summer. The dream keeps repeating itself, I keep visiting the store. It's becoming boring, and frustrating, though it changes each time. Finally, As I am standing in the back of the store in a lime green loincloth, I yell out "ZOMBIES! RUN!" and I start screaming, and everyone else does, too and they run.

I scamper out into the mall and discover there are zombies - but they're all fake. Everyone is afraid of them anyways, I pretend to be afraid of them and run around the circumference of the mall until we all stop in front of a glass fronted empty shop, with snow inside and a coyote. The coyote comes out and the fake zombies next to me tell me he lives inside there in the winter exhibit like for xmas time. I say "hmm do you like it in there?" and pet him. Then I run off again, into a dark vault, I find myself sitting next to some ugly white haired guy wearing purple who is trying to explain to native americans some sort of end of the world dogma from religion. I interupt him, sit next to him at the table and begin explaining to him and everyone exactly what is happening.

"You see, back in 2006 humanity had a choice of a split - splitters are crossroad points in the system that reroute power to different aspects of reality. There was what I like to call "The Zombie Choice" where the living dead was a very real possibility, despite how crazy it sounds." The patterns created by these splitters are much like the pattern of DNA, you can change your choice but have to travel the right route to do so. The zombie choice would have resulted in the end of the world as a planet that supports human life. Instead, humanity chose to ressurect not the dead, but Lilith, the only other option presented outside of moving in a circle - they had been avoiding it for so long.

(I have no idea where this came from, I've never espoused such a concept - lol)

At this point the man started talking over me and I say "Oh sure you know it all son of a bitch, if you know everything then keep on preaching, see you later asshole." and I run down the mall again, descending to the first floor. I pass by a jewelry shop, but the gems are all on display, really huge round cut ones just lying out on a shoe rack style shelf covered in silk. I run up and grab a blue one and I run out the exit of the mall and out into the New Mexico desert, where there is an old abandoned open face watchtower/garrison made of concrete and with steel rails - I take the blue gem I stole and stick my hand outside of the rails, placing it on the ledge where no one can find it.

I reach out with my mind and contact Sebastian, we have a long chat to each other about important issues. After we end the talk I go to inspect a situation he has told me about. I find a soul who is causing a problem Sebastian mentioned and I ask them politely if they can leave. They agree to leave their body because they do not wish to be incarnated anymore with the future in store for them. I wake up at this point, a little upset. Greg walks in and tells me one of the newborn kittens is dead - is it normal for cats to eat their kittens? I tell him yes, if it is already dead. Apparently it was, it was the runt of the litter that had died.

Later as I am talking to Greg he says "Do you notice how some of the most natural things are considered to be completely hardcore?"

[Naomi]

Well, I have been trying to digitally paint over this all day but my processor needs a new copper heatsink and keeps overheating, and thus, crashing, making Photoshop pretty much impossible for anything but simple photomanip.

http://www.thetengu.com/abrahadabra/bashumu.jpg

[Naomi]

I tried to post yesterday but my computer overheated again during an attempted paintover - heatsink is coming.:( Summer just does this and I had tons of upgrades all winter.

But it was pretty much just X rated in all sorts of ways. So yeah - basically this TC thing is working. ;)

[Naomi]

Ok well, I have an excuse for being a day late again - it was my birthday and all kinds of people wanted to drag me around the city. Then I went to the library to ditch everyone and studied for a few hours in the history section. It happens to be pretty high up so my tower is a library apparently. I remembered then that I made an offering to Thoth when it first opened, some crystal thing, I imagine it's still around there somewhere....the cool thing about nobody knowing anything about this magic crap is you can hijack practically anything and use it as bribes for the divinities....

So yeah - Thoth Tower Library Study. Pretty laid back day really.

[Naomi]

I once had this dream where I was on stage with a spotlight on me and I was a stripper, but for some reason I stripped off all of my skin too....sort of reminds me of the way the absolute pierces illusion so well....

Here's a nice pic of a skinned dakini/kitsune until I can get my new heatsink installed (ups is coming today) Of note in particular is the drippy chain thing hanging down which sort of reminds me of the stuff going on over in the "Images that Inspire You' thread....
http://www.thetengu.com/abrahadabra/tc-thestar.jpghttp://www.thetengu.com/tc-thestar--june12.jpg

[Naomi]

http://www.thetengu.com/abrahadabra/nigumammit.jpg

[Naomi]

ATU XIIX The Ocean

Busy busy...lots of cleaning out of my mental space and also working out. It was intense!

[Naomi]

ATU XIX The Sun

Invocation of Kali, aftermath sure to follow....I'll make some cool art or stmg...

[Naomi]

No time to finish or color in any way....
http://www.thetengu.com/abrahadabra/kali_viper.jpg

[Naomi]

ATU XX

Pretty cosmic far out energy....last night was cool.

[Naomi]

Well, today was pretty X again (lucky me, I know) but so as not to be boring looking, here's some interesting clips from the Guru Gita, (translates as shadow and light, god?) I noticed that it's written in an evocation temple format, and the style of dialogue is not the same as the Vigyan Bhairav tantra, but more akin to Subedai's channels. Note to self, study more of these old evocation recordings, they explain alot....

1. On the summit of