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BrotherM
09-17-2007, 04:30 PM
I have three reasons for writing this topic:

1) I am disturbed and want to get it off my chest
2) I would like your thoughts
3) I wonder if this type of shit happens to others

My dreams are vivid, I dream in bright colours, audiable sounds, I feel pleasure and pain and even smell things. Taste happens sometimes but not often. My experiences in dreams are never replays of real life as my dreams nearly always involve me being chased by some kind of monster. Sometimes I win, sometimes they win, often I die, sometimes my dreams carry on after death which is fun.

Last night started out like normal, I as in a field and something (or in this case thousands of zombies) were trying to kill me and a bunch of my friends - dream friends, in real I don't know these people. We run away and get separated, by the sounds of the screams I assume people are dying. Right now it isn't me so I keep on running. Eventually I get exhausted, my lungs are burning and I collapse on the edge of a raised river bank. I think if I can get across the river I will be safe. I see movement and on the other side of the river and there are more zombies. I accept that I am going to die or whatever happens - be zombified I suppose. I start to look around, this gloomy place is the last thing that I will ever see and I want to see something beautiful. To my right is a dark place, evil radiates from there. To my left is a place with weird colours. There are trees there and the place is lit with green and purple auras, almost like the Northern Lights had be captured in vapour form. I hear noises of hungry zombies coming to eat me and I decide to make a futile run into the glowing gas. I do so and a strange little woodland creature (like an elf I guess) appears and welcomes me into his world. I go with him and everything changes.

I lose touch with the normal world now, I feel as though I lived in this place for 3, maybe 4 years with these creatures and I fully integrated into their culture and am accepted into their tribe. I even married one I think! Anyway, I developed a strong bond with these things and they took care of me.

In the normal world, I guess the zombies continued to destroy everything and I guess after 4 years they ran out of stuff to kill and got hungry and this magickal little elf world started to get attacked. At first the attacks were minor, but they started getting worse and the elders got more and more worried as did we all. One night I felt a strange presence and, when I went looking for it I found 3 of these little elves in the process of zombification - kind of rolling around on the ground throwing up in great pain. I ran screaming - trying to frantically get these little elves our of here and to a safe place. Eventually there were zombies everywhere and I got cornered and bitten and dragged off by them to a kind of zombie camp. Slowly I zombified, my vision changed, my skin became rotten (a rather awful feeling) and I became hateful and angry. I started walking around screaming and moaning, anything not in as much pain as me needed to die and then I went out by myself to randomly kill things.

Instinctively I was drawn back to the place where these little elves lived, I knew the way quite well and soon I was happily killing every elf I could find. I was mad, I had lost the ability to reason and all I wanted to do was kill. I killed lots of them, especially the ones I knew and the ones that had taken care of me. Eventually I started to change, I think these little things were using some kind of magick on me because I started to see through the haze of anger and stopped killing. I realised through my zombified brain that I was being killed by these things, but it was a warm feeling (it usually is by the way - even when I have done past life regressions and experienced past deaths accidentally). So I died, my rotten body collapsed onto the floor with my normal and very regretful spirit standing beside it. The little things were sad that I had died, that made it worse. Standing next to me was one of the little things that I had just killed and he extended a sort of paw thing (his hand) and invited my spirit to walk with his, he had no anger. The End

I woke up feeling pretty crap after this one, betrayal doesn't sit well me with, kind of pisses me off really, spoiled my day.

BrotherM

m1thr0s
09-17-2007, 05:13 PM
I woke up feeling pretty crap after this one, betrayal doesn't sit well me with, kind of pisses me off really, spoiled my day. I didn't get this part...whose betrayal? Yours or theirs?

I'm not sure I am understanding the betrayal concept on either end...you were poisoned or turned into something like a rabid dog so you weren't betraying them...they were doing whatever they could do to defend themselves so they weren't betraying you...right?

m1thr0s

BrotherM
09-18-2007, 08:09 AM
yeah, it was a weird experience... Vivid dreams are cool when I have sex but at all other times they suck to be honest :)

Nnonnth
09-18-2007, 10:02 AM
Perhaps this will amuse you BrotherM, my fellow-londoner. From Robert Peterson's excellent and very entertaining (and useful) book, 'Out of Body Experiences'. He's about 14 and discussing bear-hugs with his friend, who has learned how to give a 'sleeper hold' that will knock you out. He agrees to let his friend give him this bear-hug:

"We went outside and he gave me the strongest bear-hug I've ever experienced. I couldn't breathe and soon became unconscious. It was like waking from a dream; this world was a dream and I awoke to a reality more real and vivid than this world was. I saw the illusion of this existence on earth disspelled! It faded away and I didn't regret it. Soon I found myself in the 'real' world in a huge city that I already knew. My memory seemed to return - yes, I had gone to sleep and deamed of a little place called 'earth' and now I was awake. 'That was a silly dream,' I thought, and I soon forgot all about 'earth'. I continued my life, just like it had been before I fell asleep. I lived in that fantastic city for years and years - centuries it seemed...

Then one day I was walking to a store. Suddenly I became confused, losing my sense of direction, and I felt myself falling. Abruptly I opened my eyes only to see strange leaves, the sky, and [my friends] looking at me! Where was I now? How did I get here? What happened? Then I remembered: hundreds of years ago, I fell asleep and found myself here...

I asked the boys how long I had been unconscious. They said only a few minutes. They asked me what happened, and I told them I didn't want to talk about it."

:rolleyes: NN

Kazahel
09-18-2007, 10:16 AM
2) I would like your thoughts
3) I wonder if this type of shit happens to others


I used to kinda dream like that when I was about 17. So I look at it like its one of those first things you must conquer. It's like young wolves learning to survive. Unless they learn to fight and face their fear they basically lose. I cant explain it well but how could you be happy with running from fear in a dream? It sounds like you almost just expect it to happen. Which is not a good thing I dont think hey. Like when I used to get hunted and have those 'creature' dreams when I was young.. I just got annoyed and took it as a challange.. and I ended up hunting it back(I learned to lucid dream), and eventually I cut its head off with my katana. So anotherwords.. to accept that you run from fear from some 'creature' is like a lack of control or something... and its what the rest of the dream is based on..

Anyway it all sounds like a very personally meaningful dream.. But I dont think the rest matters as much... because imo if you are always dreaming of running from creatures it just shows you need to learn to not run. Which is where the learning begins kinda. I look at it like.. going wolf... which is like the first stages..(young wolves). If you know what I mean..

It's just after I cut the head off the wolf looking creature from my dream, when I was about 17.., I was never bothered by it again. But I took the time and thought to hunt it.. and I wanted to slay it because I knew I was stronger. So maybe if you dont want to run in dreams anymore you should learn to be stronger. Which is as simple as telling yourself that.

I should add though... that I never really ran in dreams from fear... I did when I was younger but hardley at all now hey. Like if you read some of my dreams you might see that I tend to run a lot. But I run for the thrill of the speed and nothing more. I run because I like moving as fast as I can(its most thrilling in lucid dreams when running with all fours). So maybe you should try running for the thrill of speed instead of from the fear of your own 'monsters'. Or maybe.. learn to decently lucidly dream, and then use the fear to trigger you into going lucid so you can... move on from it. Maybe.

Apopheros
10-03-2007, 03:02 AM
I have three reasons for writing this topic:

1) I am disturbed and want to get it off my chest
2) I would like your thoughts

BrotherM


what are you talking about?:confused: