Breaking character/muscular armor

[fr.novumorganum]

Exctasy is another chemical which has not recieved its fair share of discussion in occult circles.

From my own personal research and work, I've found E to be very useful is 2 operations:

1. sex magick (obviously)

but also

2. work to break character/muscular armour (http://www.orgonomy.org/glossary.html).

I'll publish some of my records here in the near future (hopefully), but in a nutshell E operations were very sucessful in eliminating these blockages. When the character/muscular armor is dropped, a powerful "energy release" experience is encountered. This, to me, felt exactly the same as the completed middle pillar (when the energy finally flows from kether to malkuth) and offered the same oportunties for circulating energy.

[Amur]

MDMA is certainly very opening emotionally. But it has the danger of making ones character too soft. If one becomes too soft in the wrong areas one becomes abusable, or actually one starts to almost emit an 'abuse me' beep. Though I suspect it is also a matter of how one turns the mental rubiks cube.

Certainly there is an almost empathic link between the ones in a state of mdma. One could say almost that it is 'magical' to an extent lol.

The downside is the heating of the body/brain. Feels like a mental fever heh.

[fr.novumorganum]

I'm curious to learn more about your worry of being to soft, or opening oneself for attack? Was this an experience you had?

[Amur]

I'm curious to learn more about your worry of being to soft, or opening oneself for attack? Was this an experience you had?

I'm still pendling if it is some psychological trait which has happened in this life due to a traumatization of somekind. MDMA usually opens the emotional part. And in me the emotional part is at the level of a 4-year old about. So, I think it's just me lol. Though it does have a softening attribute to it, but I don't know if it's positive or negative or both.

My experience was merely about a time when we were singing with didgeridoos. I was singing sygut, and it went fine until I took MDMA which in turn made me soften up way too much to be able to put any power to the singing as I was singing way too soft. But haven't really had many experiences in a long time with this substance and probably will not have until it's legalized or in another country. The things we get here is polluted with a bunch of other substances.

Though, I have noticed a pattern, that people with somekind of problem, start acting in this way as a mean to solve it or something. Generally MDMA gives better chance to solve something as one can think about matters more in tune with ones emotions. Don't think that MDMA opens oneself up to an attack. As one is more likely to forgive the offender than to take any grudge over it.

[fr.novumorganum]

I performed an operation with E (mdma) on the equinox, and I thought I'd share it here.

Before starting, I should define some technical aspects here. During drug states (and also sometimes when sleeping) I employ an astral technology that I term 'astral circuitry'. Using techniques very similar to building an astral temple, or setting up latent astral defenses, I contruct a symbol/sigil within my body of light.

I use or create a symbol/sigil that donotes the purpose of the operation. I then construct/place the symbol/sigil over my astral body, with the symbol interlacing into various parts of my body, almost is if the lines were being plugged into my astral body. I use the Tree as a guidepost for where to "plug in" because I am more familiar with that system than others (chakras etc).

The networked sigil acts in a latent way. As the drug state takes hold, the sigil is charged with the energy produced by the drug state, and the sigil acts as a circuit, moving/directing/transforming the energy.

Perhaps an example from last night will make this more concrete.

Purpose of ritual: to workthrough certain emotional issues which have been destablizing optimum performance.

Technology: I designed a sigil which originated in Netzach, and then doubled through Tiphareth and Malkuth, ending in Malkuth. I decided upon these sephira based on the drug (MDMA), the issue, and the desired results.

1 pill of regent tested MDMA

Operation: candlelight, soft music in background.
I entered into a light meditative state, and ingested pill.
As pill began to work, I visualized the sigil over my body. I then 'let go' and let the drug effect flow without any conscious guidance.
During the drug state, images of the issues I was trying to resolve arose rather vividly, and then the images disolved into a fuzz of colors.

[m1thr0s]

I then 'let go' and let the drug effect flow without any conscious guidance.This is an interesting application of the principle of the Hanged Man we find almost essential to operations of this sort. Preparations are made beforehand and even further on into sessions scrying or ritual activity can proceed but there seems to always require a certain period set aside for just letting it go and letting the agent do its thing.

I find this fascinating from a number of perspectives and have settled somewhat upon the principle of The Great Mystery as perhaps the best way to approach this procedure. The analytical mind has a lot in common with a pencil sharpener actually and is not especially good at fuelling the mind so much as honing that which has already been latched onto. This whole process of letting things go (in just the right way) is our means of taking on whole new layers of raw data that cannot effectively be accomplished while sifting through every stitch as it comes in. You have to let it all go to get a proper download...

m1thr0s

[fr.novumorganum]

oh yes. to achieve the mystic state, in both drug and non-drug work, its critical to be able to 'let go'.

i often find that those who can't reach full potential in meditation/visualization ritual have not been able to quiet the rational mind.

the same holds true with psychadelics. i've done a lot of trip sitting and guiding in my time, turned on lots of folks ( i'm a believer in sharing these things when i get them). with weaker chems/doses, the difference between deep, beautiful full trips and just tripping is the abillity to let the drug work, to trust enough to 'buy the ticket take the ride' as HST says. at stronger doses i believe the 'bad' trip comes from the fear of letting go, from the mind figthing to keep hold in a situation that requires no grasp at all...

i think its a matter of trust and confidence