Serpents up down left right

[Naomi]

I think I have figured out the symbology of the serpents I am dealing with in mutational alchemy.

The one rising up my spine and causing the yoga asanas is from the base of the lower chakras residing in patala, the soles of the feet, it is called ananta and represents the endless. Tha is why he causes despair Don't correct me on this unless you understand what it is I mean by despair or if you have read the poet Kamalakanta.

I think the descending serpent through crown also represents Ananta as a being of light, because in the Patala realm he is black. This connects entire macrocosm in an endless loop or klein bottle (not a spiral, this is incorrect)

Then there is the repeating vision of a small gold serpent, I think that is that is me or my HGA covered in the design/maya of Shesha Ananta.

Then the kundalini serpent represents our partitioned section of Maya we call earth.

So four serpents in all contained in the Absolute yet not totally manifest, instead defined under human parameters.

As for Ningishzidda I also think that it is a facet of Ananta that is guided by the power of the endless. in a human-like form.

[Naomi]

I want to come to an understanding of why I feel encased in reality, if I am feeling seeing Maya/mother or if I am experiencing becoming maya and relating to the absolute or ourourboros. It's difficult to understand which is which because it is obviously such a grand topic to uncover and explore.

Here is Kamalakanta for those unfamiliar with bhakti poets:

"Is my black Mother Syama really black?
People say Kali is black,
but my heart doesn't agree.
If She's black,
how can She light up the world?
Sometimes my Mother is white,
sometimes yellow, blue, and red.
I cannot fathom Her.
My whole life has passed
trying.

She is Matter,
then Spirit,
then complete Void.

It's easy to see
how Kamalakanta
thinking these things
went crazy."