Something really cool happened today...

[feranaja]

...yeah ok, I know, so Istarted this one on another forum, but hey, it went down well there and it's a reminder that the glass is usually half full, so what the heck.

The idea is, to share anything that made your day, however small it might seem as long as it added to the postivity of your life.

Example: Today I am overwhelmed with stuff to do and feeling like I need to be cloned. It's raining and my joints ache. I'm tempted to feel crazy, lol, but I got a wonderfully supportive email from a lady whose dog I've worked with, who wants to take one of my classes, but most importantly wrote about how much my dedicatoin to dogs inspired her and that she was grateful to me for "opening new doors of perception" to her regarding her own dog.
That was cool.

Later, I took my new puppy Daniel out for a walk in the woods, juts the two of us. My senior dog Lila is on exercise restriction so she stayed home with my friend.The woods we walk in is by a lake and although nothing special happened, I so much appreciate that I can take time away from my desk, and just be there with my puppy. We walked maybe 40 minutes and I came home to the same staggering backlog of email and work, but totally renewed.

So often it's the small things that matter, I hope that doesn't sound too cliche.

How about you?
fera

[Okazaki Castle]

Today Lady F told me she wanted to be cloned. That made my day, as it opened up lots of potential oppurtunities :D .We could give the clones a different hair colour, to distinguish them from the original.

I want to clone myself too. Would solve many problems. An interesting subject area, with 'problematic' areas such as how to make sure it's the clones who do the work and the less pleasant stuff...

all the best,
Oazaki.

[feranaja]

Oh my God - YES! But - the tireless blonde me does the housework, gardening and animal drudgery - the clever but argumentative redhead sits here and argues online and makes money - and the brunette - well, we wont discuss that in polite company.

Okazaki(i just noticed my former misspelling of your name -sorry!) you're a genius! Now how many of YOU do we make or can the world survive more than one??
lol...fera

[Okazaki Castle]

and the brunette comes to visit the original temple site at Kouklia whilst being feted by the Cyprus government, but for the most part just, erm, remembering the past Arts? Research, shall we say?


Okazaki(i just noticed my former misspelling of your name -sorry!)


Well, I spell it both ways actually. Tis one of the ways I cheat. I like to do that, makes things easier...

you're a genius!


Yes, I know. :D :yes: :cool: How few recognise this Stark Fact of Life though... *sighs* one is always underappreciated.... mainly because of others' limitations...

Now how many of YOU do we make or can the world survive more than one??
lol...fera

Well, how about Four to start with? I was thinking of making them different heights and nationalities but with the same character and recognisably the same face. Japanese form I'd use mainly to kill people with, with a sword. Sumerian form I'd use mainly to attack tanks, planes and whole armies with, using a Rod of Black Iron. Greek form 1, or Apollo, I'd use mainly for sex and cavorting, socialising and being stylishly arrogant in. Greek Form 2, or Zeus, I'd use for flying around and shape-shifting in, sending thunderbolts at airplanes, and, again, mainly sex. I'd also have a Hermes form to socialize with, as he is less hardcore and easier for the normals to relate to without freaking out or feeling utterly worthless because of their own comparative inferiority. I'd probably localize myself mainly in the Greek forms to start with tbh. More forms on demand would be good as well, I want the League of Shadows Vat reproduction technologies!! (they exist, those vats to be found most obviously in the undergroudn base in the Kun Lun mountain region, for those inetrested who want to project there or investigate psychically, or other means...)

I think a fun area would be to engineer different forms for us all, and then play about switching between them and stuff. Personally, I have a fascination with seeing just how much length and girth a woman can take, It is reputed in anatomy books that there is a certain length and so forth to the female vagina. However, as others can no doubt confirm, practical experience bears out the fact that the internals can move upwards and inwards to accomadate what seems fairly impossible. The problem from the male perspective is that a certain ammount of blood is required to keep things rock hard. This is in practice the limitation one comes up against when cheating there, to expand one's natural endowments. Again, it is why work alone cannot yield the results sought when one likes to go to great extremes....

So, the inescapable conclusion we reach in a study of incarnation and Hindu metaphysics is that physical forms are just like clothes. Hence, who wants a very large spending allowance to go clothes shopping? :D !!!

So excellent! We can all have new bodies and engage in fun stuff!!

all the best Lady F, truly brilliant style if I may say so. To paraphrase Crowley, you're a star. Which one would you like to be? (or perhaps a constellation?)

all the best,
Oazaki / Okazaki.

[Okazaki Castle]

Oh my God - YES!

Just wanted to get you repeating that....

Told you I like to cheat... :rolleyes: :laugh: ;)

Warm regards,
Oazaki.

[feranaja]

To paraphrase Crowley, you're a star. Which one would you like to be? (or perhaps a constellation?)


That's an easy one Oazaki (I'm kind of attached to the old moniker)...Sirius, what else?

fera ( very entertained here but much too tired to exhibit any style after an interminable day - will catch you in the morning...:coffee: with brains back on I hope!)

[Sibylle]

I was standing in line at the grocery store, and turned around to see this beautiful smiling face looking back at me. It was a woman with a baby in her arms, and a grocery cart containing two more children, with another child holding onto the cart and paying attention to the child sitting in front of him. I'd say the oldest child was 4. Every child was quiet, and the mother looked very peaceful and happy. I would love for this to be an ordinary sight, but it isn't anything I've seen before, and it did make my day.

[Okazaki Castle]

That's an easy one Oazaki (I'm kind of attached to the old moniker)...Sirius, what else?



Awww, but I was planning to blow up Sirius cuz it was fulfilling the Great World Teacher role in this system, causing us all to have to learn lessons and crap like that. I really, really want to blow it up. Then we can have a new Pole Star, and other stuff. But, *sighs* if you want it, and I can't convince you to take another one... But there's lots of pretty and brighter other ones, for example Rigel maybe?

http://www.galacticimages.com/catalog/images/RIGEL.jpg

http://www.univ-lehavre.fr/cybernat/images/orion.gif

Consider it at least, I really would hate to have to not destroy Sirius simply because you request it. But Temple always comes first you see. Hence why I'm trying to persuade you otherwise...

all the best,
Oazaki.

[feranaja]

And you're such a persuasive devil, oazaki.

We can sleep on that and see what happens. I'm never one to argue unnecessarily.

Yesterday wasn't earth shattering, incredibly fabulous and nor do I have a stupendously perfect life, lol - and many of you here know I am grieving, which occupies a lot of energy and changes the colour of everything while you're going through it. So my "cool thing" yesterday was related to that. After my usual full throttle Martha-Stewart-of=Canines sort of a day, I packed up the van and got us all on the road into town, because WEdnesdays are Lila's day for her back-to--back appointments, physiotherapy first and then chiro. Afterwards I had about 200 errands, as usual, but I pride myself on efficiency. Now, I'm good friends with much of the staff of the Blair, after going there for ten years with Luke and Lila, and now I am their nutrition referral person - I've become extremely fond of two people in particular. One is Lila's physiotherapist, a gifted and sensitive young woman who has helped us a lot with both Lila's issues and ourterrible recent grief and loss. I wasn't in the room 2 minutes when nancy said -" You know what Cat? I'm not working on her today." I was taken aback and said - what's wrong, is she worse, etc...when Nancy said," No Cat, it's you. You're burned out, She's just soaking up your stress and you can't be effective until you've taken care of yourself. your job for the next two months is to take care of YOU. And I'm suggesting that for her as well" (Daniel was blithely wiggling around in a corner decimating his dried bull's penis whihc keeps him happy when I'm busy).

I looked at Lila standing there with that angelic smile, and started to explain: I'm a single woman, I have a puppy, I do my best to be a great Mom - Nancy looked me straight in the eye and said, "Cat, this is about Luke, you need to grieve. You're running from it and I can't tell you what to do - but stop running yourself ragged and let yourself grieve. "So of course I broke down, it's a safe space for that,and she also cried telling me about a similar loss she had suffered, by similar I mean one characterized by a sudden death, no warnng., whihc is a unique kind of hell. And of course she is the sort of person who knows in her bones that loss is loss, whether human or non human, it's the emotions and attachment that count, and that Luke was my closest friend in this world.

Next she said, if Lila needs me, if she has a crisis, here;'s my cell number, I'll come up to your house. This drive is brutal for you, I love the woods, and let's get together up there."

I was really touched at this woman's compassion, insight and generosity...confirning again that it takes a very special individual to work with animals for their healing and wellbeing.

So that was nice, a cool thing in my day. Lila's chiro showed mild improvement and the vet agreed she could have a few offleash wlaks per week. I am loathe to restrict these since they are what she loves best in life, but I know it's not great for her with her orthopedic issues.

I'm home now for the whole day and have decided to streamline my weeks so I only have one bigass lengthy dog day and one half day in town for errands - a much more manageable schedule. I've also decided to set time aside specifically for activities I know will help with my grief - writing an article on the cancer that took Luke, working on an organization to bring more awareness to the public about herbicides and cacner, making a scrapbook of his life. I know only too well you can't bury grief under a barrage of activity and exhaustion; sometimes it takes a person outside yourself to bring that home.

Not a fantastic, over the top day of unspeakable bliss or anything, just a good one, and maybe a turning point, too.
fera

[feranaja]

Today we have our first real winter weather complete with a good snow cover. I just bundled up the dogs and took them to the woods, it's Danny's first time in real snow. I brought my camera but was laughing so hard I couldn't actually take any. He went totally berserk with glee and was leaping through the air like a thing possessed. He would leap in several large bounds and then freeze, and look around at me as if to say, holy cow, is this cool or what, Mom? Then he'd wipe out...oh it was just a hoot to watch the awkward puppy joy, all wrapped up in his adorable black Chillydogs coat which I bought 2 sizes to big so it would at least last till he hits 75 pounds.... Even my reserved and delicate senior dog had to give in to some shared spirit of hilarity.

Daniel is four months and for him, life is one fantastic discover after another. I intend to make his puppyhood the best I possibly can. And today, he made me laugh and even feel something close to inner peace. He's just the dearest, funniest little monkey.

I fed them an early lunch of venison stew, and Danny is now half asleep, blissfully farting under my computer.

There is nothing, truly, like a puppy to make your day.
fera

[Aodh]

Today, I woke up alive.

It was a nice feeling. :)

And of course, I'm actually getting quite a few things done and quite a few things started.

[hitman777]

Today will be a good day if I ever drag my ass away from the computer and get some magic and some Christmas shopping done!

hitman

[feranaja]

So hitman - did you get out shopping?

Yesterday was a weird day with some high points. I took the dogs to an annual event run by the Bytowne Association for Rescued Kanines ( http://home.ican.net/~933435/ ) a fundraiser for them that features getting your dogs picture taken with Santa Claus. Now in all my years of having dogs I've never actually done this because, well, I guess I just didnt get around to it - I'm certainly not opposed to a good measure of silliness in everyday life, I find it a great antidote for things like sadness, stress and general upset. If you cant be silly with your dogs and hey, especially with a puppy? Youre missing half the point, imo. But Luke wasnt the type, really, he was a curmudgeon even as a pup - Lila was a trauma pup and it would have scared her to death - Danny, now he was MADE for thinsg like this, little Mr. Sociable and cute.
So we went in and there was the usual good natured chaos - i LOOOVE how dog events like this (not competitions) bring out the best in people. There were several puppies present, and their Moms - including myself - all got in a huddle and commiserated about how we're run ragged but its so great. Daniel fell in love with an adorable Golden puppy, he hated sitting on santa's knee, I ate shortbread and it was a fun thing for all. I only got cornered once by someone who recognized me from a seminar and asked me 400 questions about dog food, but even that was ok.

I was accompanied by a friend who has been through a truly hellish time with an employer, and heactually ran into her while we were there-and blew up at her. I dont like fighting or confrontation at the best of times so that made it a bit weird for me and he was really upset, naturally.This woman ripped my friend off for 8k and he has no recourse to recover the money as he trusted her and didnt keep stubs, he just worked for free. He's lost not just money but faith in humanity as you can imagine. Life is never all cookies and fuzzy puppies, I just grab as much of that stuff as I can, and I feel for this friend who is so, so angry and disempowered..

After the BARK event, I met another good friend whom I dont see enough, and we had a long intense chat, albeit interrupted at regualr intervals by either Daniel's complaints or by other patrons coming over to ask if "thats a real Ridgeback?" (no, I carved a big cowlick on his back so he'd look like one) He IS pretty cute, but I wish people also acknowlegde my mixed breed, senior dog a bit - she's ony saved my life three times, and has been my stalwart companion through 12 years of good times and bad - and, she is unfailingly QUIET when Im in bar visiting.

So it was a fun day, but my friends issues - the one who blew up at his former employer, not the occult friend - do weigh on me a bit and I dont know how to help him.

Will post the Santa pics for you other fluffies out there who appreciate such things, as soon as I get them back.

Hope everyone had a good weekend too,
fera

[YsetEternal]

Almost finished on the first draft of two projects for finals. YEAH!!!

[Aodh]

I realized my Sociology professor's stupidity will help me ace finals! I also got out of a few thick spots with grades in other classes. Seems like it is very possible that I may get a 4.0 this year. :)

[feranaja]

Yesterday wasnt anything super special, but my friend came over to spend some time with Daniel and give me a break so i could finish a client case or two - Danny is 17 weeks and bit rambunctious, lol. Then my friend made supper and insisted I have some wine and watch amovie - simple things, but good for ths soul. So much appreciated - oh yes, he vaccuumed, too. Gotta love guys who do the domestic while you work, the world needs more of them, lol..
Thanks to J for helping on many levels..
fera

[feranaja]

Yesterday was work work work but I did have a bit of a fun moment talking to Yest on the phone - we always have fun chats even when theyre short... yesterday was pretty ordinary but that was a bright moment...
fera

[YsetEternal]

Have been PMing F like crazy this morning and having a blast. gotta love her... yes, that means you too... All should love F...

And I bet the highlight of our short chat for her was her hearing me lay into my bf and putting him in his place LOL....

[hitman777]

Well, pretty much everybody who is anyway related to her is here right now. Unfortunately, SHE is not! That's not cool, obviously.
What is cool, is that I am going to start drinking RIGHT NOW! GOODBYE SANITY!:laugh:

[YsetEternal]

oh fera and I have a head start on you hitman... youd better hurry :D

[Radiant Star]

I passed my exam :D

In October, I had problems with my electricity and it ended up with me losing my revision notes as I had to have a system restore on my PC just days before my exam.

I very nearly called up and cancelled it, but took it in the hope of just scraping through. I got lucky with a couple of the questions though and just found out online that I passed with a very good grade.
I am so relieved and so happy, in fact I feel like a radiant star right now :sunny:

[feranaja]

And indeed you are both radiant and starlike...congratulations, I raise my cuppa earl grey to you, not surprised you passed though...was this Art History?
My "cool thing" is just that I'm starting to feel much, much better. Sadness lifting, focus restored, I'm emerging from the long tunnel of grief, at least to the point I feel like life's worth living again. Ive been cleaning the house, decorating a bit, pulling life back inot order. It's a good feeling, although the sadness of loss never truly leaves, there are turning points on the road to restoration of our normal state. I feel like I've just crossed over one of those, and it's nice.

Congrats to you T !! You must feel great indeed.
fera

[Sibylle]

Congrats, Radiant Star :)

[Radiant Star]

Thanks Sybille.

Not Art History Fera, it was on globalization basically and very interesting it was too, though I am not inclined towards the social sciences normally.

[YsetEternal]

Finally finished my last final exam did poorly though still passed... I guess thats what happens when you get to anxious... LOL

[feranaja]

Well, passing is good - next time, you'll relax more and do even better. I'm proud of you if I haven't said that 300 times already...
f

[Aodh]

As I already informed fera, I miraculously recieved a 91 average in my Intro to Sociology class. Horrible professor but apparently, she knows how to add a curve. ;)

[MythMath]

Congratulations to all you intellect expanders...

It's inspiring to hear the tails of those
who refuse to stop learning...

MM

[feranaja]

I just got back from the most wonderful and magickal walk in the woods, I found a special spt surrounded by ancient cedars in a perfect circle, and did a spontaneous invocation - I felt like everyone who I care about living or dead had joined hands around me, and that even the painful things were on some level, all okay.

There is a light snow covering and the dogs were going mad with the excitment of finding a new place to explore and leap around, they just had fun while Mom talked to the spirits...Lila's well used to this sort of thing and Danny is just too innocent and happy to notice.

The sun is out, and it feels good to be alive today. I think I will carry the sense of joy and love I experienced out there for at least the next few days. It felt like such a gift.
fera

[feranaja]

Oh, these little signs and meaningful coincidences - they do give sustenance in times of pain.

Earlier today I took Lila and Monk (he's graduated from being the Poppet to The Monkey, or Monk for short) waaay out into the hills, to a place that takes a bit of hiking, but is worth the effort for the magnificent Eastern view of the Gatineaus. The two dogs ran their butts off - Lila really shouldnt but still - and I felt so invigorated and happy out there - I came home again today feeling blessed, stronger, forward looking.


But, at the risk of sounding like "Oh lucky me" - this is a pretty regular part of life in the woods, and a part also of why I choose to live here when sometimes its really very difficult. The bliss afforded by access to real wilderness is something I cannot sacrifice for things like convenience...no matter how much I might gnash my teeth from time to time. So, today started out beautifully, and continued in an easy, winter afternoon sort of a way..

It doesn't take a lot to knock you over, though, when you're in the place called Sorrow, when just beneath the surface there is some unattended pain and no pain is as searing as bereavement, especially recent bereavement. In this case today it was walking ino the kitchen for tea and hearing Sarah macLachlan (dammit all Sarah, why are you so lugubrious?) singing a cover of possibly my favourite Gordon Lightfoot song, A Winter's Night. The lyrics made me think so much of how I'd give close to anything to have Luke back, to "hold the hands I love" or in this case, paw - and I felt knocked over, blindsided, dizzy with pain as if I'd just found out he was gone...the images and memories start to flow with alarming rapidity and there is nothing one can do in that emotional space but surrender to it and hope the tears will bring release.

Suddenly the warm winter kitchen seemd nothing but alien, empty, a shrine to the glorious presence that had been so abruptly and mercilessly taken from it. I leaned against the counter sobbing, trying to breathe..hoping the dogs in the office asleep wouldnt hear me...

Somewhere in the midst of this, I said out loud , to nothing in particular- I need another sign (I havent written here about the wolf, but I met a wolf on my walking trail for the first time in 17 years, and I know without a shadow of a doubt the encounter was related to Luke). BUt today I felt I needed something more. I needed to hear him - directly, unambiguously.... I say these things out loud at the same time I feel the pointlessness of it, the childlike yearning for some comfort. Still, I felt a bit better asking out loud, and then I went upstairs mainly because Monk had run up and I never leave him unattended - wont do till the teething phase is over.

Running after that little hurricane kind of brought me back from the sadness, jolted me a little, but not entirely out of the state...Danny was ahead of me and had bounded upstairs and suddenly there was silence...never a comforting thing with a 5 month old Ridgeback...but then I caught up with him.

He was standing like a statue in my room staring at the wall, which was covered in rainbow prisms from my window crystal. It was like he had never seen anything so magickal and he was just...enthralled. He stood there watching the movements, and it was a moment suspended in time - me, still teary -eyed, watching Danny, this little imp of a dog I adore, watching the light bounce around like a human child at the Santa Claus parade.

Something moved me to go open the closet in which I keep my brother's clothes and stacks of our old correspondence and memorabilia. Something moved me to open one particular box. I'm not kidding - I have no idea why. And right on top of the box was a copy of an old Ridgeback Roster - all the rest are neatly stacked in a magazine rack in my office - but this one was open to an In Memoriam page for a magnificent RR named Gaius who had died unexpectedly at only three years old. I read through the heartrending text and looked at this dog's pictures - he had that same gravitas, that nobility and sheer masculine force that Luke exhibited so much of, even as a small pup. I read the man's words and tribute to the dog he and his wife loved like a child and I felt so, so blessed to have had Luke for eight years. Instead of feeling cheated, betrayed by God, angry at everything as I have been, I just felt so much empathy for the family of Gaius and so much less.... alone.

I felt this almost sublime wave of what i can only call peace just flood over me. And at that moment I felt that thinsg ahd, somehow, unfolded as they needed to and that I was in a sort of liminal moment - not actually in the ordinary world of shapes and objects, but not actually out of it either. I looked at Danny and he looked at me; the moment ended...but I was different.

At the end of the memorial there was a PS - seven months later the bereaved people who had loved Gaius had acquired a new male RR and while acknowledging that the pain was very slow in abating, they had made the right choice and done as Gaius would have wanted. He ended by saying "The King is dead - long live the King".

And I looked at danny and thought - the King is indeed dead - long live the Monkey!

He will grow into his Kingliness. Right now his job is to comfort, love and amuse me,and keep me busy with training and exercise and so on - oh, nd following his bright young spirit around so I can do things like, follow the prisms on my bedroom wall to rare moments of enlightenment and grace.

Just felt like sharing that with you.
feranaja

[Naomi]

Hmm, that was very thoughtful Feranaja, thanks for sharing.

You met a wolf on the trail?

I was jogging with Greg after dark down the busy streets of Memphis. I always try to remember protect myself with magic when I am out at night in the city. So tonight I tried something different just for the hell of it.

I decided to evoke the Orourboros serpent, so I reached out with my mind as far as I could, past the solar system, galaxy and universe into the outer reaches and drew down the serpent I could see there. I looked up an some lightning flashed in the clouds. I watched again but there was no lightning again for several hours and none before that one time.

Yes little coincidences....

Now six hours later we're having a torrential downpour.

[feranaja]

Well, we see the small things if we're open to them. And if we strike a balance between overintellectualizing things - talking ourselves out of meaning - and being overly romantic and credulous, I believe over time we learn to really *see* what we need to see., and most importantly, understanding it.


The first time I took daniel to the Park, alone, just the two of us to the place Luke and I went for so many years, about 10 minutes in a large male wolf walked right out on the footpath and stood in front of us. He just stood and looked, then turned and walked slowly away. There are perhaps 6 wolves in all of Gatineau Park, and they are extremely furtive - I was on a well traveled path not more than ten minutes from my car.

It was just breathtaking - in 16 years hiking in the Gatineaus, I have never seen a wolf before.

I feel quite sure there was some meaning to that, no?
:)

fera

[feranaja]

Oh this was just so cool I need to share it.

A couple of days back I noticed Danny limping a little after his walk, which is not at all surprising for a puppy who runs like a thing possessed all over the Gatineau Hills, offleash, on a daily basis. Still, I'm not one to overlook small things - there is a condition called Osteochondritis dissecans (OCD for short) that shows up in large breed puppies between 4 - 8 months, and can be quite serious if not addressed right away. So I gave it 24 hours, some hourly administration of Traumeel and tried to ascertain where the pain came from, paw, wrists, elbow or shoulder. It appeared to resolve a little after skipping;our hike yesterday but then last night he yelped in pain while just sitting there - I called my vet and headed in at 9 am for a check up.

First of all - good news...he's torn a bit of cartilage in the toe (Ridgebacks are big sucks and this is GOOD, the stoic dogs like my Lab cross who dont want to show pain are often a big problem since their condition is often advanced before the unsuspecting guardian knows it). So all we need to do with Dan is rest him (HAHAHAHA) for a week, use a little support when he does walk (a tensor bandage) and keep up the Traumeel. I didn't really think it was OCD but..I don't take any chances, that is one condition you really need to nip in the bud, and I'm so glad he doesn't have it.

Now - for the "really cool" thing - while I was there my vet kept marveling at how great Danny looks, I mean he said things like "I wish more people would consult with you, this is a shining example of the power of nutrition in the puppy"..and so on. His assistant asked me to speak to a conference of professional dog trainers about nutrition and behaviour - something that I wish more trainers knew about - and my vet said he would be delighted to write up a letter of recommendation for me to post on the homepage of my website. This is REALLY cool since he's a celebrity vet of sorts, a pioneer in the holistic field and a Phd as well as a DVM and trained homeopath. He just kept looking at Danny and saying "he's perfect...really incredible" and so on.

It isn't that I doubt what I do - I couldnt do my job if I didnt have consummate faith in the power of natural health - but hey, major kudos from above are always welcome, no?

After losing Luke like I did, its a good thing to look at my senior dog andmy pup and see both in glowing good health. It meant a lot.

Now all I have to do is survive a whole week of keeping daniel in! lol...

Thanks for letting me share that, it was so cool both professionally and personally. "Perfect" is a word I really dont like, usually, but today i have to admit - it felt pretty good to hear. I know I know its another dog post but hey, it was a really REALLY cool thing for me!

<hugs> fera

[Radiant Star]

Very cool Fera

Bloody Hell, I mean REALLY cool :yes:

Something good happened to me yesterday.

My college friend called me on Boxing Day to arrange to meet yesterday and celebrate our exam passes - he got a distinction :D - anyway, we met and went to the National Portrait Gallery and there was a picture of Aleister Crowley, not the best but it made my day. That simple thing just made yesterday cool.

[feranaja]

Oh thank you Rays! It was a really cool day allright! I could roll on the floor and howl with glee...but, that may be more info than anyone needs...rofl.


And hey, where's this portrait? Is there an online link? Maybe I'll tackle a portrait of Dion, bless her heart...now I've started to paint again. But I'd love to see AC...that IS cool, lol.

93, 93/93...
fera

[Radiant Star]

Aleister Crowley Portrait (http://www.npg.org.uk/live/search/portrait.asp?search=sp&sText=crowley&rNo=0)

"Roll on the floor and howl with glee", that could be fun to watch :laugh:

[feranaja]

Aleister Crowley Portrait (http://www.npg.org.uk/live/search/portrait.asp?search=sp&sText=crowley&rNo=0)

"Roll on the floor and howl with glee", that could be fun to watch :laugh:

Oh you really dont want to see it, rays. Living alone with dogs I try to speak their language but stop short of bum sniffing and that tooth clattering thing they love to do. Otherwise, I probably engage ins some pretty weird things that leave the canines standing here scratching their heads as is to say...Mom? Are you ok?:laugh:

NOw that IS a lovely protrait! I think Nuhad will go crazy....thanks for the link, I actually liked it a lot.

I seriously would like to do DF in her full glory, to me she is the greatest female occultist of the 20th centurey, Steinerisms notwithstanding. She was also quite lovely in her youth, and very imposing as an older lady, but we have so few good pics of her, most of my knowledge of her physically is from my innerwork and contacts. And she is such a force! Thanks for the inspiration,
fera

[feranaja]

Ok, this is so goofy its almost a True Confessions sort of a thing.

About a half hour ago the radio played that old chestnut "What a Wonderful World it Would be"...dont even know how mnay times Ive heard that covered..and....<blushes> I sang it to Danny.

Ok, I had tears in my eyes becasue this was "our" first song...anyone who knows me knows I have special songs for all my dogs but since Luke left I've been hardened, I've felt brittle inside - I felt like having a special dog song with Daniel was a sort of betrayal...so when I let my heart open and had a cuddle and sang it to him, I felt sad, happy, free, silly and blessed all at once. It didnt feel like it dishonoured Luke. It felt just..natural. I always sing to dogs, why shouldnt I sing to Danny?

That was a cool thing.
I know - I'm just weird, but that was special.

Hope you all have something cool today too...
fera (bet SOME of you have dog songs too...you know who you are...)

[Radiant Star]

I have a special cat song called Beautiful that I sing to a very tiny and cuddly and yes, beautiful cat that I know, she knows its her song too :D

My friend reads Harry Potter to a cat she looks after lol

[feranaja]

Ah well see, cat people are even stranger. A dear friend of mine reads Tennyson to his cat; if he even dares try, say, Frost or Whitman, the cat just gets up and leaves.

My poor dogs are just so loyal they have to endure my "singing" lol...

[Talkingfox]

I have a special cat song called Beautiful that I sing to a very tiny and cuddly and yes, beautiful cat that I know, she knows its her song too :D



OK...good to know I'm NOT losing my mind after all as I sing to my kooky Bombay.
Her fave? They Might Be Giants Particle Man. So she's a bit weird....

[feranaja]

Oh my God thats too funny...I wonder if I sang to my cats too would they stop misbehaving so badly? Or might they get actually worse given I sound like a cross between a tortured hyena and Betty Boop?

rofl...

[Radiant Star]

I sound like a cross between a tortured hyena and Betty Boop? rofl...

Could we have a demonstration of that? :rofl:

[feranaja]

Probably by about 11 pm my time you can hear it if you just open the window and turn your head to the west...

[Radiant Star]

Probably by about 11 pm my time you can hear it if you just open the window and turn your head to the west...

:laugh:

That was too funny

[Lucian]

lol... I sing to my cat sometimes and he looks at me like I'm absolutely insane and he's not sure if he should be sitting so close to me. Cats.

Today's cool things - a new Christmas/birthday computer, all set up and breathtakingly beautiful after my ancient Dell.

And I just made the best cup of tea evah. ^_^

[Radiant Star]

Today's cool things - a new Christmas/birthday computer, all set up and breathtakingly beautiful after my ancient Dell.

And I just made the best cup of tea evah. ^_^

Now that is worth celebrating indeed :D the tea and the PC lol

[Talkingfox]

I finished another room in the neverending house remodel....:D

Note to self: the magick word for my next place is CONTRACTOR

[YsetEternal]

Today I was able to get all of my stuff including my jewelry out of pawn :D

Also my roomie brought me home a great digital camera...

[Talkingfox]

It's cleared off and quit snowing for the first time in almost 3 weeks....and I can actually see the SUN. Sometimes one has to be content with the small happinesses I guess.

[feranaja]

My freinds came over and smudged the house, we did a ritual for luke - then we had a great walk in the hills and DANNY - my 5 month old Ridgeback puppy - chased off an adult Rottie, in full Ridgeback bellow - then sort of realized what he was doing, as in "OH SHIT Im only a baby!" and ran back wild eyed to Mom - it was funny as hell. But he protected us, it was very endearing.
We feasted on cheese bread shrimp and salad, and drank wine and port ... right now? All's right with the world.

Hope you all had a great weekend too - what matters more than love, pack loyalty, friends food and sharing experience?
Everyone today had some tears for my luke and for their own loved and lost ones - grief is such a uniting human experience. And Danny provided comic relief!

I'm feeling well and truly blessed today.
fera

[m1thr0s]

that sounds great fera. I am glad to hear you have friends around to help you get through this whole process...

m1thr0s

[feranaja]

that sounds great fera. I am glad to hear you have friends around to help you get through this whole process...

m1thr0s
Thanks m1thr0s - these are my anilmal friends - a vet tech a behaviourist a shelter worker and a doggie daycare person - so we understand each other - and sometimes, celebrating what a life gave you is a better thing to do than just mourning the loss. And the sun was out today for the first time in ages.

:)

Wish some of you oculd have been here too.
fera

[Ci Celli Ddu]

Glad to hear you had a nice day. :)

[feranaja]

Thank you Ci Celli, hope you did as well...:)
fera

[Copuldaemon]

Okay, today somebody that I respect and have deep feelings for told me that I have helped or to inspired or something to help them hone in on the darkness.

[feranaja]

Thats cool, CD...its nice when you feel you've made a difference.

Yesterday I had two amazing people come over, bring their adorable little dog (a five year old lurcher, we almost never see them in canada) and we had a great day! My one friend made a Greek feast - lamb, tzatziki, salad and pita - we drank retsina and listened to Greek music - and the other sat and talked with me about mysticism all afternoon while the dogs played like maniacs.

I had a great day. People can be wonderful, and I'm blessed to have these particular ones as friends.
fera

[Lucian]

.... I finally got rid of this piercing headache.

Still 40 minutes left in today. It counts.

Oh, and also...

I had happy dreams of suddenly being very, very wealthy.

Possibly after pulling off a daring heist. Wa-hoo!

[Kazahel]

I had something cool happen today. My son and I were getting out some PS2 games to play. He owns heaps and I let him play pretty much whatever.. but we still hire them out sometimes. Anyway after he had picked the ones he wanted(Predator,Mafia and a 007)these two maybe 11yr olds came up to him and asked if he was allowed to play those games. He just said yes very casually and was talking about how he's going to get past the level and that he hopes it has double pistols(he loves double pistols). Which I think really spun out the other older kids(my son is six this year).. because one came up to him and gave him a little punch on the arm and said "you rock "... and they were kinda awestruck. To which my son said 'yeah' as if.. meh. Which I thought was pretty cool. :cool:

I'm teaching my kid to be a little gamer kinda hey. I've been loading on my old pc games like Doom so that he can have a go. He likes to cheat though so I taught him idkfa and iddqd and stuff like that, but he is pretty good anyway.. Considering he doesnt start preschool till next week. lol

[Talkingfox]

Cool happenings today. I went to the new Goernors reception at the Ak Native Heritage Center. The newly appt. guv was spoken to by elders of the many tribes up here. She had snubbed the tribes during her electoral process, so the tribes laid it on thick with speech and gifts...in essence shaming her through kindnesses. Great fun to watch. Hopefully she gets a clue and does the right thing...but I'm not gonna hold my breath.

There were also some amazing performances by both Tlingit/Haida and Yupik dance companies. WAY GOOD. I came out of there with much painting fodder.

[Kazahel]

We had our Australia day skyshow(fireworks)the other night which was pretty cool.

But the natural sky show that was happening at the same time stole the headlines and the show kinda.. You can just make out the fireworks but it's nothing on the lightning.

Have a suss..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T71Y55wYItM

:)

The paper had some really cool pics in there but I cant seem to find them on the net.

[Oblio]

Some cool strikes there Kazahel!!

Haven't had a decent storm here (Sydney) for a long time :sad:

[Dragon]

This afternoon I was out on my deck just staring out through the trees. A chilly, sunny, Sunday afternoon, peaceful and serene. I wish I had the words to describe this one quality of light I see again and again...poets, musician, authors and the like have tried and have had as much success as I. It's when it's late afternoon, and the light just starts to dim; It flickers and dances without seeming to move in the stillness of the moment - filtered by the branches of the trees into a space that is all at once unearthly, yet nowhere but on Earth could you catch it. It reflects in the eyes and although it is not so bright, it makes you blink.

All you can do is smile and sigh.

~D~

[Lucian]

I am no longer single. I'm very pleased. This is very good.

*warmfuzzies*

^_^

[fr.novumorganum]

hey congrats:D

[Kain]

Congrats Lucian!
This afternoon I was out on my deck just staring out through the trees. A chilly, sunny, Sunday afternoon, peaceful and serene. I wish I had the words to describe this one quality of light I see again and again...poets, musician, authors and the like have tried and have had as much success as I. It's when it's late afternoon, and the light just starts to dim; It flickers and dances without seeming to move in the stillness of the moment - filtered by the branches of the trees into a space that is all at once unearthly, yet nowhere but on Earth could you catch it. It reflects in the eyes and although it is not so bright, it makes you blink.

All you can do is smile and sigh. I think your description was immensely good Dragon...



Anyway, here's an interesting occurance...I was sitting on the living room table last night, discussing with my brother who had come to visit, when I realized that the house had gone exceptionally cold. Noticing that, I stop the conversation ubruptly and get up, intending to walk all the way across the room and turn on the house heating system switch on a panel on the wall. While a few feet away from the wall and looking at the switch, the thing actually turns itself on before my eyes :eek:

I guess weirder things have happened to me, but damn...hehe...

Kain

[Radiant Star]

I am no longer single. I'm very pleased. This is very good.

After a long day, it is nice to come home to find good news making people feel warm and fuzzy :D

[Ci Celli Ddu]

Anyway, here's an interesting occurance...I was sitting on the living room table last night, discussing with my brother who had come to visit, when I realized that the house had gone exceptionally cold. Noticing that, I stop the conversation ubruptly and get up, intending to walk all the way across the room and turn on the house heating system switch on a panel on the wall. While a few feet away from the wall and looking at the switch, the thing actually turns itself on before my eyes :eek:



Cool. Sounds like you've got your own spectral servant(s). See if you can get it/them to make you breakfast next :D

[MythMath]

Kain the Firestarter...
http://www.livedemo.com/scripts/cpg/albums/userpics/10001/normal_firestarter+kirra.jpg
http://www.livedemo.com/scripts/cpg/albums/userpics/10001/normal_firestarter+kirra.jpg

[Talkingfox]

Oh gods what a fabulous image

[Kain]

Cool. Sounds like you've got your own spectral servant(s). See if you can get it/them to make you breakfast next :DHeh, right on Ci Celli Ddu, I've been wanting that for years :D . And apparently the saga of paranormal phenomena continues, as last night while working on the common paper-on-pin (http://i49.photobucket.com/albums/f299/Umbrax3/DSCF0026.jpg) telekinesis excercise I actually (and absolutely accidentally) had a relatively small flashlight of mine (weighing about 100 grams or so) that was put on the table behind the pinwheel start rolling...lightbulbs flashing intently at points too...what can I say, I guess it's a poltergeist effect sort of week...lol...

By the way, that image is amazing MythMath!

Kain

[Lucian]

I had a dream a couple weeks... or was it days??... ago in which I was shown a symbol. A very intricate symbol almost like a mandala, though I hadn't seen any Tibetan mandalas like it and wasn't sure of its origins. It was really pretty. I had no idea what it was, except for the impressions I was getting about it from the dream. I was seeing it and understanding that it was some kind of doorway - the one I was going to be taking at some point. I didn't have to do anything with this information. It was just an FYI. "Oh, by the way - this is a doorway you'll be seeing later on. Recognize."

So I just kind of said "Sure - whatever" and let it go.

Then I'm doing some research online and I come to a website with a design next to the article and I feel queasy the second I see it because it looks almost exactly like the symbol I saw in my dream. It wasn't the exact same one, but now I know that what I saw in my dream was something called a "yantra" and has its origins in Hinduism. Which makes sense because the doorway had something to do with the devayana.

Fun times. Woo.

Going to go find out more about these yantra things...

[Talkingfox]

I'd be interested in which yantra surfaces for you lucian :)

[MythMath]

Lucian,

I mean no disrespect, and if you feel it is a private, personal
assignation (like a mantra), then please disregard altogether...

But from the moment I read that you found, online,
a close match for an image in your dream...

I was hoping that you'd give us a glimpse... :eek:

[fr.novumorganum]

Free starbucks today!!!

[Radiant Star]

Well, don't think I can beat a Starbucks :laugh:

but I did finally understand quadrature of the lune, which was good because that was supposed to happen last week ; )

[Aodh]

This is definitely more magical than my responses to this thread would usually be but, on Thursday, I re-integrated several parts of myself that I have been cut off from for quite a while.

The new sensation of being "whole" is quite interesting.

[Kain]

This is definitely more magical than my responses to this thread would usually be but, on Thursday, I re-integrated several parts of myself that I have been cut off from for quite a while.

The new sensation of being "whole" is quite interesting.Great thing to experience, to be sure. Good to hear Aodh. I've always found the transition interesting in such states...how the exceptional "wholeness" becomes the new norm and the definition of average health, and how new, previously unimagined heights and reaches of wholeness show in the horizon. A wonderful experience of progressive and recursive transition.

Kain

[Aodh]

What's truly interesting about this is that it is reconnecting with my roots (and specifically with Loki, or my own personal view of the power behind the archetype).

[feranaja]

I've been lurking lately but now things are lightening up a lot for me. I've been inundated with work - a good thing in itself - and several really good things have happened in my life recently. They are;

1) the holistic vet I work with has written a glowing endorsement of my practise and also started to send many more clients my way - busy busy busy!

2) I had a full physical recently and my health is amazing. This is the reward of a lot of hard work and even since luke died, although I've let things slide, the years of effort previously "carried" me. I'm biologically about 36. I feel 25. Life is awesome (and age a state of mind)

3) Danny is the sweetest nicest RR puppy on the face of the earth and continues to make my days full of smiles hugs and optimism. Lila is going strong at 12 and I know we have a lot more quality time, she is doing better with her own grief, and enjoying daily life a lot more than she was.

4) My grief over Luke, while still severe, is settling into the phase where I can now start to get from it all what I was meant to. I know that soon I'll feel more blessed by what he gave me in life than cursed by the sudden tragic loss of him. He is still with me, he always will be. Of 5 billion people on the planet, I was the one chosen to have Luke walk with me for 8 years. And oh my heart was full when he was by my side. I know he'll be back. I am slowly getting better.

5) I found a new place to live and my GOD it is everything I could ask for! Much further out in the bush and so a bit more organization required (getting into town etc) but on 300 acres of wild, glorious Canadian forest..I can't believe this has happened, but I am getting away from ALL the dangers I've faced here - herbicides, pressure treated wood, a too-close road...I'm beyond words with happiness. I have so much left to do here. and now I have the place to do it in.

6) I think I'm finally learning how to balance work and rest, my dualistic personality and various other apparent contradictions, so life has started to open up again. This will be "the task eternal" for me but I feel it happening and it's exciting.


Things are looking way up.
fera

[YsetEternal]

wow congrats on all the above. this time though, be sure the internet satilite is hooked up first. :P

300 acres? wow thats awesome.

okay back to other things for me... Oh yeah, so when am I gonna be your your assistant :P

[feranaja]

wow congrats on all the above. this time though, be sure the internet satilite is hooked up first. :P

300 acres? wow thats awesome.

okay back to other things for me... Oh yeah, so when am I gonna be your your assistant :P


Honey, this time next year we gonna need a whole staff. You wont believe this palce until I fly you up to see it. I guess nice guys dont always finish last?

And I can bring the satellite with me!

I'm celebrating tonight...:rofl:

[Radiant Star]

This is all wonderful news and great to wake up to on a Sunday morning :D

I think the dogs will love the new place, sounds like there is plenty of room for them to run around safely.

Well, sometimes good things take a long time coming and you certainly deserve some good things bearing in mind the last few years.

[m1thr0s]

awesome news fera...sounds totally enchanted.

m1thr0s

[feranaja]

Thanks everybody - the house/land came out of the blue and I was not expecting it. As some of you know there have been problems with this place I'm in - it's pretty, but it's over 100 years old and needs repair; plus, it's downwind of a field that gets sprayed with herbicides, it's too close to the road and so on. The new house is a further drive of course but it's incredibly beautiful, and the rent is more affordable. It will be a wonderful place for me to write, work and so on, and a very special environment for Lila to live her Golden Years, which is one of the main reasons I wouldnt consider moving to town just now. I *could* live in a nice Ottawa neighbourhood with just Dan, but Lila has lived her whole life in the woods/country save for four months in a city apartment, and she is happiest in this atmosphere. For 12 years she's been a rock for me, never complaining when we moved around, when i was sick and couldnt walk her a lot, when work or Luke's seizures or whatever occuppied all my time; - she has been a true soulfriend and I want her old age to be the best possible. One of the first things I thought when I found out about this house was, Oh God, will Lila love this or what. :)

Of course, Dan will love it too, lol, but right now, Dan loves just about anything.
And I don't need a 5 bedroom house to heat and clean, believe me!

So thanks again, I hope to turn a major corner soon, toward a future less focused on sadness and loss, funny how a change of address can be so powerful, emotionally and spiritually.
fera

[feranaja]

My seminar on nutrition last Saturday was a huge hit - I have been swamped with work since then! We are planning an all day event that will cover nutrition and behavior, and I could not be more excited.

Danny is probably the cleverest pup I've ever known, in a different way from Lila, but then, he is a hound group breed and she is Lab and Border Collie - different types of intelligences. Dan and I are going into canine freestyle together since he cant sit still and can't learn fast enough - its really exciting. And, my darling Lila is still doing very well at 12 - there's the power of natural health at work!
Things are good. I'd love another RR pup but this one has so much potential I think I will concentrate on developing him. So who says hounds are so "difficult", lol!!! Maybe not the easiest group to work with but they are all individuals and this one is amazing.

I feel Daniel was God-sent to me, he is the loveliest puppy and has helped me so much. I will videotape our routine and when its good, I'll post it <blush blush> He still gets lost a bit on the "circle" part but hey - hes 6.5 months! We'll start agility and lure ocursing as soon as he's old enough.

I've started grief counseling about luke and it's helping a lot, so far.
Just an update. How's everyone else?
feranaja and the pack

[Copuldaemon]

That's good fera, lately I've been thinking about getting a doggy myself but most likely won't consider any pets until I move.
Well for me, what happened wasn't cool but it was funny and it happened last night.

I went to youtube and typed in Aliester Crowley and some segment I think they had on TV awhile back called Masters of Darkness I came up with him (A.:.C.:.) on it.
Anyway, they were making this guy out to be a real kinko pervert. So they had some guy imitate his (Victorian) voice when reciting one of his works and he said something on when a woman name Celia walks in the room and farts he sniffs up all the air-when Celia farts-I spat up on myself cuz that was crazy.

[feranaja]

CD, I applaud your decision to wait until you're settled to get a dog. They're really like kids, and need correct space, exercise, attention etc. I hope eventually you do add one to your family because - for me - they are the best of all possible companions.
The worst thing you can do to a dog is toss or tie him up in your yard, leave him in a crate for 12 hours - these are incredibly sociable beings and isolation from their families really wounds and damages them. I've worked with dozens of rescue dogs who were left in a doghouse or tied to a tree and as their behaviour "worsened" - eg, they acted out their bewilderment and frustration more visibly - they were ultimately given away like so much unwanted garbage.

When people say they are waiting to get a dog till they have the right set up for one, I just glow with appreciation. :)

I have no real earth shattering news here, work is good, dogs are great - but SPRING is upon us! The Gatineaus in spring are so magickal. Very grateful to see small crocuses and robins nearby. It wasn't a harsh winter, but it was a long one.
fera

[Lucian]

This is kind of ongoing coolness...

My boyfriend told me that he loves me. I've known him for a long time, and I know he doesn't say it unless he means it. He's only said it once before to a girl he wanted to marry. So that's a big thing. I've never heard someone say "I love you" and know that it's true, that they aren't just using me for something. It's genuine.

That is so new for me. I like it.

There are a lot of these new things happening for me. It's like a quiet revolution.

[feranaja]

Thats lovely to hear Lucian. I hope you continue to be happy. So many people have "loved me" and then proceeded to put a stranglehold on my life. I love my independence nowadays but I rememebr when "love" was so important, and I know how wonderful it feels when you're in it. Keep on being quietly joyful.
fera

[Talkingfox]

Kind of not exciting to anyone but me coolness. I've gone a whole 24 hours with no nicotine! :D

[feranaja]

That is fantastic, TF! YOu go girl! how does it feel so far?? In time you know you will find the concept totally revolting. Just hang in there.

I'd say it's cool that I am so deluged with work Im now using a 6 week waiting period...but, the reason for the latest frenzy is the dog food recall, so i can't feel good about that. I'm posting a few basic recipes on my group for those who are afraid to use ANY commercial food. As if the first one (menu foods) wasnt bad enough, Royal Canin now has a 50 million dollar suit on its hands for poisoning dogs with excess Vitamin D. Good for people to start home cooking, but I wish it didn't take a disaster to initiate change.
fera

[YsetEternal]

so fera when are you moving a;ready?? :P

[feranaja]

Hi Yset...we don't have a date but sometime before my birthday...have to admit I'm totally preoccuppied with fallout from the recall, but the move is looming. One day at a time...thanks for asking.:)

fera

[feranaja]

Yesterday was quietly pleasant. I don't know if it was because Luke is finally cremated and therefore I've turned some inner page,moved forward inmy journey, or whether the soul just gives itself a break from time to time, but I felt more like myself than i have in six months. Nothing spectactular, and a staggering amount of work, but spring is finally here, I paced myself, had a good chat with a dear friend, a little wine, worked on my house plants and listened to my radio shows. I don't actually crave much more. serenity and inner peace is good enough.

I did start my meditation practise again a few weeks ago and maybe that's contributed, but I do feel overall - a greater sense of equilibrium. After all the upheaval of the past while, a nice pleasant Saturday was something pretty cool.

Hope everyone else is enjoying the weekend...
fera

[Radiant Star]

I have friends from school days that I meet with every so often. Today I met up with one of those friends. We ate a lot, drank a lot and talked a lot. One of the things we talked about was a letter I had written to him about thirty years ago (which he still has). Things can look very black and white to me and I can be very outspoken but I have always felt guilty about some things I said to this friend which were, on reflection, quite blunt and could be considered hurtful. Today he told me how he had initially been upset by my letter but soon saw that my words were true and told me that they had made a big impact on his life and he had made some changes based on it. I told him how guilty I had felt over the years as I had gotten older and wiser and how I had always wanted to say sorry for the things I said.

We had our opportunity to talk in depth about this today and the very positive effect it had on his life. I am so grateful for this and much relieved, it has bothered me for years.

Truly, this was such a cool day.

[feranaja]

That's so wonderful when that happens - I mean, yours is an extreme example, but I've had similar episodes, where some misunderstanding, some divisive interaction later on was resolved and even proved to have had postive repercussions.

I'm happy for you.
<hugs>
fera

[feranaja]

My radio show yesterday was a lot of fun, and I'm getting really good feedback as well. What's most important to me is I am starting to enjoy media work, I had just loathed it in past. And, my "emergency" seminar April 14 is half sold out BEFORE we've started advertising. It sucks that this recall is the catalyst for change but clearly, it's helping people see some of the issues with a self-regulated industry like pet food.

Onwards and upwards one dog at a time...:)
fera

[Naomi]

I saw 300 yesterday....oooh good movie....

Also my garden is in full bloom, it's very Satanic.

[feranaja]

My Bunny Lila was sore today which is worrisome. Usually no matter what's going on, she wants her wlak but today, even with a Bufferin at 8 am, she did not want to go. I am not the best at adapting to change so this threw me.
I hate leaving her, I hate making my 8 month old pup stay in.

I told her I love her and went out with DanDan.We not only had a great walk deep into the woods, we trained in the field and he was great, I mean this pup is brilliant.
We're registered in Rally-O, SAR and freestyle and I really feel, after 40 years in the dog world, this boy has it all.


When I came home, Lila was better and ate well and after a half hour of massage seems quite back to normal.

I know she is 12 but with good care, old age isn't a trial the way it is for Purina-fed, yearly vaxed canines.

I'm making primavera and lemon cake for my club walk tomorrow. I live in gratitude for all I'm blessed with, and today, Lila is well. I can't imagne my life without her. I pray daily for more time, MUCH more time. Dan may be my prize winning partner and the dog who helped me heal from last fall's tragedy, but lila is every beat of my heart. Neither of us will ever want to part, no matter what.
Today, I have my kids close by, happy, and well.
fera

[Radiant Star]

Something really cool happened yesterday.

I had the most delicious organic lunch before meeting with a friend to go see The Illusionist in Leicester Square. Really great film followed by lots of chat and yummy cake in nearby restaurant.

[Kain]

Daniel sounds like a very smart dog fera...also, it's surprising he is so young and already so big...!

As for myself, today was a rather good day for me also, I should say. I spent most of it in the forest-like areas surrounding my town (as I live in a town in the northern subburbs of Athens, quite far from the densely populated parts of it). Equipped with plenty of water, a variety of dried fruit and a sitting mat...since spring is kicking in in a big way, the weather was very good also. I managed to spend the whole day with only the occasional small animal rushing through nearby bushes as company. Excilirating...

Kain

[feranaja]

Ricci: I totally loved The Illusionist! Even better follwoed up with dessert somewhere, too. Sounds like a nice day.

Kain: Thank you! Danny is really amazing. And although 70 lbs at 8 months sounds like a lot, his adult weight will be about 100 so this is right on target - I've been so so careful to grow him slowly, feed very carefully. Actually last weekend one of his brothers was up to visit and he is much taller and rangier than Dan but only weighs a few pounds more. Danny is well msucled and solid so while very lean, he is also heavy for his size if that makes sense. He won't be a huge Ridgeback like Luke, but he will be a very fit and healthy one.

What matters most is havng fun and that, we are doing. Both my dogs are just wonderful little beings no matter whether they excel at a thing or not. ;)
fera

[feranaja]

Yesterday was just a good day - I worked like a fiend but then, I love my work. Had two wonderful walks in the forest, worked on my medicine wheel in the back garden, and felt both peaceful and energized.

The recall has me inundated with work, but I feel I am seeing the rewards of all my studying, sacrificing, and pouring my soul into this endeavour start to come to fruition. When I look back at the last three years, I wonder how I got through it - determination and flexibility in equal balance, I think...grace and grit! and not to understimate, friends. I have the best circle of friends, both online and off. This is definitely the year I can lighten up on 14 hour days a little and devote more time to spiritual practise and related things like hiking, camping with the dogs, activities like my SAR classes with Daniel. I'm planning to start public circles here as well at the Solstices and Equinoxes, for people of all spiritual outlook to join in. The small community nearest me is filled with artists, Pagans and hippies, it's often called "Canada's Woodstock" and I feel blessed and excited to be part of life in this area.

Maybe I will finally get to meet some of my cherished AF friends too - Newfoundland, here we come. :)

Happy Spring everyone..here's to renewal!
fera

[Anibis]

I smell a road-trip! Hola!
-Anibis
Spring indeed... All of a sudden I'm loaded with crazy projects... I'm on the radio in about an hour to talk about my shows, and the philosophy of magic(k)... should be awesome...

[MythMath]

Would love to hear the interview...

{It seems we were typing the word 'philosophy' nearly simultaneously}

[feranaja]

Anibis, I have been asked to do a seminar in NS, and as I'm seriously thinking about buying land there in the future; I have a lot of good friends in the dog world there - I may well put the furkids in the van and head East this very summer.

I'm not sure yet where I want to settle - obviously Canada, but - NS? further into the interior or La Belle Province? We aren't sure yet. AT least I can make road trips with my sweeties and visit, although I do think YOU are the only other Canuck at AF?


Today has been so good. Falcons in the backyard,lotsa people in and out of here all day - ground still frozen but soon...soon..
I roasted a turkey for the dogs, which may sound funny but it's a hurdle I had to overcome, since turkey was luke's favourite thing, I had a sort of mental block. More and more I feel him near and accept the gift of Danny, the many blessings in my life. I think its such a mistake when people rush through grief as if nothing happened, it just manifests later as uncontrollable anger and physical illness, and it takes a lot of courage to grieve fully in this culture. where idiots regard grieving as weakness. But I have done just that and through that process I feel so deeply renewed. Ready to hit the highway! Ready even for New- found- land...:)))

Alex is in the kitchen making Easter dinner - how nice is that? while I finish some work and then - finally - I am taking some time off! I mean like 6 whole hours...then back at it tomorrow...

Blessed is she who loooves her work, no?

fera

[Anibis]

I'm not sure yet where I want to settle - obviously Canada, but - NS? further into the interior or La Belle Province? We aren't sure yet. AT least I can make road trips with my sweeties and visit, although I do think YOU are the only other Canuck at AF?


fera

Well I am actually about two days journey from NS (I know it doesn't seem far when you look at the map, but it's 14 or 15 hours across the island itself. I'd give ya' the royal treatement, though (Which means a backyard for your dogs, and good coffee), heh heh... As for being the only other Canuck... Well Imagenerator, Yellowseed, Nuhad, and Mikerocosm are all Ottawans and Lucifitas is Southern Ontario... I think there's somebody from BC somwhere on the list too... We sure stirred up a vortex in Ott.. I like how this forums is coming along... conversation is getting better and better here as more people with interesting perspectives show up, and as those of us who have been here a while get to know each other... Cheers. I will have to pick your brain on how to properly feed our cat... Right now we feed her dry food and tuna from time to time... I like your philosophy on food for animals... I have a bit of a discipline problem (Well at least a short term discipline problem; my long term discipline's good), so it's hard for me sometimes to pay attention to how I eat, let alone my creature companion... My girlfreind's the same way, so it's a bit of a loose thread, sadly... Definitely looking to accquire some calmer perspective from which to plan and organize my life... but as you know... I'm a bit all over the map... Anyhow... Have a good one;
-Anibis

[feranaja]

Anibis, you know the way to my heart - space for the furkids and coffee - I'll buy the beer! It sounds like a wonderful trip.

Of course, NuHad, MIkerocosm and I go back a long way (grimaces in their general direction) but I don't know the others. My theoory is that Ottawa either turns people into deranged, malevolent civil servants (I pray for your souls) or crazed occultists, I know which one I am (the Wakefield dog obsessed neo-hippie freak?) But seriously, we should have a visit. And a conference - when I get moved, we could hold it at my place - 300 acres should be adequate for AF? Yes? Just not in black fly season, lol. I foresee much drinking and partying, not a lot of alchemy - but hey thats ok too. :)

I wish I could help more with cat nutrition but my training and experience is all canine. I feed my felines top quality foods - like THAT means anything anymore - and I use the brands that are unaffected by any of the recalls. but felines are obligate carnivores as opposed to dogs who are facultative, and that means their nutritional requirements are more specific and rather different from dogs. Everyone asks me if I know a person doing cat nutrition on the scale I do dogs, but I don't - I really wish I did. I could refer you to some reliable reading material, but that's about it.

My cats are eating Fromm and EVO right now, Felidae is another good brand unaffected by the debacle. Sorry I can't help more.

Keep in touch about this, I am very serious about taking my seminars on the road and Halifax is eager for thm. I'll bear in mind its 14 hours, but with scenery like that, who could mind? I'm antsy just writing about it.
fera

[Anibis]

It's 14 hours plus a 6 hour ferry ride from North Sydney, which you have to wait for (They run about twice in a 24 hour period... And YES, the scenery is worth it. If you give yourself extra time check out Grosse Morne along the way... Just giving you the perfunctory warning...
-Anibis

[feranaja]

There's no way I'd go to The Rock and not visit Gros Morne - thats been a lifelong dream of mine. I might never come back to the Hills!

<vbg>
fera

[Anibis]

Give youself another 5 hours Up the northern Peninsula to L'Anse Aux Meadows (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/L’Anse_aux_Meadows) to be really complete... We went up there last summer... Viking settlement from like the 11th century! It's starting to sound Epic. Then hit Fogo Island and check out Brimstone Head (http://www.town-fogo.ca/bhff.htm)... Heh heh... I'm like a friggin tourism pamphlet for occultists...

-Anibis

[Radiant Star]

Yesterday was especially good.

Met fellow magickian for curry in absolutely fave curry place then spent the afternoon drinking beer and discussing things in the sunshine.

Got home and another of my mage friends called for a long schmooze.

It was such a good day, I didn't have to do any cooking or anything, just enjoy doing the best things all day.

[Kain]

I just accidentally found the book on Yoga I mentioned earlier here (http://www.forums.abrahadabra.com/showpost.php?p=17449&postcount=12), in paragraph 2. This is awesome...this one has been lost for at least a decade, lol...upon reflection, it's a great little book, written in the early 70's in early modern Greek (quite a difference from the current Greek language). It even proceeds to describe the Kundalini force and how it should be treated to avoid premature awakening episodes...a bit too late for that I guess, heheh...

Kain

[MythMath]

Yoga Yoga (think: Animal House) :p
______________

Well, this book keeps finding you for a reason (or two)...

Let us know where this re-discovery leads...

[Kain]

Lol...thanks MythMath, I will...I'm re-reading it from the start as we speak...;)

Kain

[Naomi]

I think she did it on purpose Kain.....you're going to need it...

[Kain]

I think she did it on purpose Kain.....you're going to need it...Yeah, I think so too Naomi...hehe...I'm already in the midst of a very intense overall redefinition of her treatment too...

Kain

[Talkingfox]

Marvelous early morning...replete with Northern Lights that I didn't have to freeze my extremities off to see. Usually it's well below 0F when we see them. It's a real treat to see them in the spring and fall!

[Naomi]

I finally memorized how to spell Ningishzidda.

I could sit there in word retyping it 10-20 times and not get it right. Kind of frustrating and embarassing.

[feranaja]

Oh cool Naomi. I have two that really frustrate me; and they ARE...ta da...


"docosahexaenoic".... and "eicosapentaenoic", known to most as EPA and DHA, thank God..

I'm always afraid I'll be called on for the full term and I can hardly say them, much less spell.
Nothing hurts a Gemini worse than not bein able to spell a thing. I'll take your example and practise these two devils some more.

Only really cool thing so far today in my most exciting life is that I've made three days of dog food, a batch of dog cookies, walked the dogs for an hour, and am working away at some dog diets for clients, online. Perhaps I'm getting a tad one dimensional, dy'a think?

fera

[Naomi]

Yeah why don't you go play fetch with them for some diversity or something....

XD

[feranaja]

lol...aw you are NOT a hound person NC! hounds do not "fetch" thank you very much..I doubt this one will quarry lion either, given how much he adores the household felines.

I think I'll take them for a walk now tho...quick spell Ningshiszidda....

[Naomi]

Sure I like hounds....they're all over the place down in Agshekeloh....

Yeah good luck quarrying those lions....

XD

Yeah what's the difference between Ningishzidda and Ningczidda?

One is god of the underworld, the other is an onomatopoeia to describe sneezing.

[feranaja]

There are hounds..and then there are HOUNDS...ok, I might be a bit biased, lol..

http://i8.photobucket.com/albums/a33/feranaja/danny4158.jpg

[feranaja]

I dont know Naomi my dear - what IS the difference??
PS -

fera, sad tired joyful irreverent

HEY! ISnt he beautiful! Wait'll you see us dance!!

[Naomi]

You click the show answer button in my post, it's a new forum toy. I'm abusing it. But not really. It's a good joke.

Yeah that's a damn fine...hound. Damn fine.

[feranaja]

lol, i cant believe i missed that..yesterday was loooong....
fera

[Radiant Star]

There are hounds..and then there are HOUNDS...ok, I might be a bit biased, lol..

http://i8.photobucket.com/albums/a33/feranaja/danny4158.jpg

He is handsome and a special gift to you I think : )

[Kuroyagi]

I had a warm meal for lunch.

[Naomi]

Kuroyagi that sounds either very sad or very zen. (?)

I just got a call from my mom, the family millionaires (ie the jewish side) just sold a really valuable property in Las Vegas after many decades and she's getting a large chunk of the cash. Since she has lived in poverty since I was born so it's a big relief to me and she is very happy. So that is very good news. It also means she's getting a house instead of a shack in the middle of the Navajo desert so I will have a place to stay when I come visit, and I can spend all summer looking for rattlesnakes and artifacts. XD I think she is also going to buy another property in Washington so I can visit my friends up in Tulalip and Lummi. I havn't gone to a traditional dance in years so that would be awesome, even if it's Zuni or Hopi or smtg that would still be cool.

Oh and she is going to give me one of her kittens from the cats she is breeding. They are some sort of wild spotted cat I think ocelot maybe. So that's cool. I've only ever had moggies except for Ninja who is a siamese/burmese mix.

[Kuroyagi]

Naomi: Its neither sad nor zen, its just "enjoying" a thing that I have nearly every day, nowadays. If I took everything for granted Id lead a sad life indeed.

But since your mother is rich now, maybe she could treat me for a bit of lunch sometime. :D

edit: uups sorry Naomi thats what you meant by Zen anyway.

[feranaja]

Thats wonderful news Naomi. I'm happy as hell for you, but even moreso for your mom. She has to be at a time in her life where a little comfort wouldn't go amiss. I hope you all benefit from and enjoy the windfall.

ROFL - I just saw your signature line and nearly fell over!! Thats too funny - especially out of context....!!!

<hugs> fera

[Naomi]

Hahahahaha!!! That is the best reaction I am glad you almost fell out of your chair! I can find all sorts of funny things to take out of context!

Oh yeah well I told her to buy a house and invest the rest. - it's not really that much in a worldly view of things. Myself, I'm not really interested in it at all except that I don't have to worry about her at all now, so I can focus completely on world domination. Sebastian and I tend to think of ourselves as owning everything anyways - so we simply are waiting for humans to recognize that. :dull:

I always get what I want, eventually....it's just a matter of time/sand falling.

The fun of the game of magick is without price. I wouldn't trade it for all the money in the world.

That is how Vishnu works you see - the preserver has access to anything, he can create tiny perfect worlds within worlds, bubbles of paradise immune to the influence of the outside world. (Tis why Siva finds him so annoying, when there's work to be done)

It would be really funny to watch a bunch of hare krsnas and saddhus battling in like a parking lot...the hare krsnas would just like sing and dance and pass out pamphlets and then get the crap beat out of them by the saddhus walking sticks or bowls or something. Man that would make an awesome video. I don't know if I can set that up though.

The only way to get Vishnu to come out in the world as Krsna is to tempt him with the promise of girls or making trouble - which is definately what he is best at. So Siva makes a great partner in crime, you know....when they get together it is crazyness....

SO yeah money is completely useless to me in the grand scheme, though I do recognize I need to make it to get certain things in this creation. So there's that. If I ask really hard I usually get what I need when I need it.

Anyways the cool thing that happened today was the sun came up and is so pretty...It's sparkling on my desk across all of my fancy tarot cards...I spent 3 hours or so in the middle of a two thunderstorms yesterday so it is quite a relief. :o_O: I'm going to sunbathe. hurrah

I'm also planning on ignoring everyone today!!! mostly!

[Radiant Star]

Something nice and unexpected happened today.

A dear friend called and said he would drop by for coffee on the way to an appointment, so I was a little unprepared when he turned up with flowers and cakes. He then suggested I might like to go with him for the ride as the day was sunny, so we went for the briefest business appointment ever and then he took me for a surprise lunch in a very stylish pub.

Very cool, made my day.