Who do ya love??

[feranaja]

I know I know, another annoying feelgood fera thread...

but seriously, we can all use a little warm fuzzy stuff at times,and I think people ain general fail to communicate to others who they feel, all too often. So here's the deal with this thread. Just tell us about someone you love. Someone here, and/or someone in your real life. As often as you want. It's a big gooey hot fudge Sundae of a thread.

Right this minute? I love Nuhad. Well hell I almost always do. And why? because - there's nobody like him. YOu just have to trust me on that. He's just himself and he's funny, clever, a bit idiotic and a very good-hearted person. He loves his damn rabbit for Pete's sake! Right along with Mr. Crowley.

I relaly love people who can be themselves no matter how weird the world at lareg might think they are - and actually - the weirder the better. Nuhad is also someone I know I could call at 3 am andsay, I cant sleep, it's the 19th Path again and he'd go put on the coffee and listen to me blither. :mad: We can have the most intense intellectual discussions of anyone I know and then go get loaded and act like teenagers.

Hail the Goat! A good friend,a great magician, and a very smart guy.

Who do YOU love today?
fera

[Forest Breath]

Well when I decided to reply to this thread I thought of the obvious people, but that was so...obvious so I thought....who I do love right now.

I would have to say a friend of mine in Canada. I am sure many of you know him by Samhain, some by Stritheil on Occult Corpus. Not sure if he is on these forums or not.

But I have had the pleasure of getting very close to him over the past few years and this last year in particular. I trust him 100% and consider him one of my very best friends. He is caring, compassion, wise, strong, loving, intelligent and we share so many things in common, but have enough differences to give us many beuatiful conversations with each other. When I have contact with him I am elated and leave the conversation feeling renewed and like life is prefect if only for that moment.

He is truly one of the most beautiful souls I have ever known and I am blessed and honored to call him my friend (and often teacher, councelor, and much much more).

So my answer would be that beautiful man from Canada!

(I could think of others but this one is the most prevelant in my mind at this moment)

[Nuhad418]

. He's just himself and he's funny, clever, a bit idiotic and a very good-hearted person. He loves his damn rabbit for Pete's sake! Right along with Mr. Crowley.

First I am not a bit idiotic. I have much idiocy thank you very much.
Second my rabbit is a demonic familiar not a cute and adorable fur friend (http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v46/nuhad418/CarlGustavCG.jpg)


Hail the Goat! A good friend,a great magician, and a very smart guy.

Who do YOU love today?
fera

Shucks...you rock too Dingle :D

[Amur]

At the moment I try to love myself as much as I can. It's a hard job but can probably be achieved if the seeds are cultivated. (Right at the moment I love myself by giving myself enough oxygen and prana)

They say that it begins first inside :cool:

[m1thr0s]

nice to see you posting again Amur...I was beginning to worry what had happened to you...guess that makes me a worry wort or something...

m1thr0s

[Okazaki Castle]

Mmm, Black Dragon Path is always the hardest to contain in many ways. One hopes that it is duly contained in all ways now. Certainly I have tried to do so with my own tools after the last mischance there...

all the best,
Oazaki.

[Amur]

nice to see you posting again Amur...I was beginning to worry what had happened to you...guess that makes me a worry wort or something...


Thanks, that's very kind of you.

Been reflecting some things and re-arranged alot. I can understand why people would worry since this life isn't anywhere near safe. More along the lines of wondering when one dies from some sudden impact of a Divine Hand(meteorite from the sky for example) :D

Anyway, thought my posts along with my life had a huge decline of quality so I decided to take a step back and reflect upon what the defect was about. Also been living a hypocritical era where I've talked alot but not really walked the talk, which lacks percision and sharpness I very much want. :ninja: Don't think it breeds the wanted effects. I can always talk how good I'm at playing the guitar but if I don't play it how could I be good at doing it then lol. Was hoping to download somekind of automatical programming skill-packet from the weird world of mental-internet but to no avail.... Sorry spilling my guts out here.. :possessed:

[Zaii]

http://genkisudo.com/en/diary/index.html

[feranaja]

Today: I love my friend Diana, not a member here. She's so inspirational in what she does for dogs and how beautifully she has crafted her own life, balancing so may problematic opposites and making it all look easy.

I want to be Diana when I grow up ...an Artemisian spirit if ever there was one.

fera

[feranaja]

I love Aodh, for being my buddy and sending me just what I need, when I need it.
hugs to you, sweetie...keep it coming. There's always a room here for you if you escape for a bit!

And a special hug to Yest Eternal for inimtable humour and resilience of spirit, two thinsg I strive for, sometimes I hit and sometimes I miss. Cassi can kick my ass more humourously than anyone I know expect Nuhad - its probably a good thing we dont all live closer of I'd feel ganged up on :)
In seocnd thought - I can take ya both ...lol...now get up here and visit me!

and zaii - your emotional courage and capacity to be honest with yourself and other just takes my breath away, in part because you're so young, it took me years to cultivate the ability to share without fear. Deep admiration on many fronts. I'm so glad you're here!

fera

[Aodh]

Hmmmm, I'd been avoiding posting in this thread just because I didn't really feel like giving explanations but since somebody just had to mention me...

I love Fera like crazy because she is one of the most genuine and caring people I think I have ever met (two qualities I don't feel I necessarily have, but can admire). She's a great inspiration as well from a business standpoint and from a life-experience standpoint. She hasn't become a boring middle-ager with no life! in fact, it seems her life has been picking up quite a bit recently. (As far as experiences goes) Lastly, she is a very understanding individual and great to talk to.

I also have to say that I really do love hitman. Everytime I see him post it brightens up my day and his unique sense of humour brings an inescapable feeling of mirth to every place I've seen him. Plus, he's just freaking insane.

Yset Eternal, is also someone I feel a good bit of love for. She's dealt with some interesting things in her life and seems to have come out just fine. A very intense and empowering individual. :)

[feranaja]

Aodh, this paragraph is someething I will cherish for a long long time. It has to be one of the sweetest things Ive ever read! thank you so much. You've hit the things I strive for most - being genuine, no false front to the world (except when i have to act cheerful in a business capacity and hell, thats just life) and caring for others. Life has to be about more than our own egos or what use is consciousness? If I've hit the mark as caring and genuine, I can't tell you how good that makes me feel.

as for not being boring - come spend a week with me sometime, and then decide! My life is pretty sedate, but I like it this way...good books, friends, a lot fo movies and time spent in nature/with animals. Suits me very well., but I think it might drive youa little crazy..

And please dont sell yourself short! You are at an age (hope thats not condescending) where it's your BUSINESS to be self focused, to sort out who you are and where you're headed. I've always found you genuine, and sometimes its not a matter of whether one is "caring", but of being ok expressing it.

Thank you again, for such a lovely commentary, you know I love you like crazy too.
fera

[m1thr0s]

geesh...I can't seem to talk about who I love or don't love. I suppose there aren't that many people to begin with...maybe it's just too hard to think about all of that and how insane that really seems to me...

I love my daughter though...Yarrow...love her very much...she's 9 now...they grow up too fast...

m1thr0s

[Lucian]

I love me. I've known me for a long time - since I can remember, really - and I've always been there for me. In fact, I do believe I am the only one who is always there for me, without fail. That's pretty neat. We have a lot of the same interests, and I can talk to me about anything. Anything at all. We have the same dreams and the same goals and the same taste in men and women. I do believe I am the best friend I've ever had.

I love my family, though they are the single greatest source of pain in my entire life. Well, after me anyway. Like myself, they've been there from the beginning for better or worse, and that counts for a lot with me.

[feranaja]

Wow...I'm in awe that you can say you love yourself. It's a really hard thing to feel, isn't it? I can honestly say I love aspects of myself a lot - where I excel, I accept - but there's a lot I dont love and that makes me overly critical and also drive myself too hard. I think if you love only your good qualities it's not really love. I admire what you've written here, Lucian, even though its sort of tongue in cheek.

YOu know what I love most in this lifetime is my dogs. It;'s just this massive, all consuming passion for them, their language, their sweetness, their innocent reliance on us and their stupendous contribution to human life. I love these particular dogs - my three, the two in bodies and the one in spirit - with every fiber of my being. I decided a long time ago not to pray or do spells for personal gain, but I thank Who or Whatever is out there for my dogs every night before I sleep, and for giving me the opportunity to work with them and reverse the flow a bit - give a little back.

You knew that, but it's nice to say it sometimes, too. :)
fera

[Okazaki Castle]

I love me. I've known me for a long time - since I can remember, really - and I've always been there for me. In fact, I do believe I am the only one who is always there for me, without fail. That's pretty neat. We have a lot of the same interests, and I can talk to me about anything. Anything at all. We have the same dreams and the same goals and the same taste in men and women.

HAhaHA!!! :D :D :D

Neat little piece of info that! Thx Lucian... :yinyang: + :) = :D :D :D

Oaz.

[hitman777]

I love my wife, obviously, and I love Jesus.
Hmmmm, this is kind of a tough one, I usually don't get all mushy and emotional. At least not in public. I try to save it for ritual (obviously not for all ritual, though.):laugh:

[Okazaki Castle]

You love Jesus? Damn, guess you're serious about that... slightly problematic for me there... ah well... hmm, well, I tracked his present incarnation to a guy callled Adam if you're interested. Cross-reference and confirm on the basis of your investigations of course cuz this one is the sorta thing designed to induce heavy skepticism normally I'd guess...

all the best,
Oazaki.

[YsetEternal]

F, for always being a great sis and myself, aint that obvious :D

Cant foret naomi or aodh nor m1thr0s and Sibylle (whom Ive met personally, and shes beautiful). Hell most of you on these boards I love in one way or another after all how can I not after knowing you for years.

[hitman777]

Wow, I feel like a dickhead. Of course, Fera, for helping me out, putting up with my rants, and basically just being her loveable self!

[Amur]

I love everyones higher aspects. :rainbow:

[feranaja]

Wow, I feel like a dickhead. Of course, Fera, for helping me out, putting up with my rants, and basically just being her loveable self!

It's always my pleasure to help any way I can. You're one of my favourite people, and without question, my very favourite hitman. You've helped me a time or two, let's not forget that...

And - I love Jesus too. Anyone with the character and integrity to die for their beliefs has my admiration - make that awe. Besides, what did he ever preach except stand up for your truth, love other people and don't judge them - and that's just the public version.
fera

[hitman777]

Thanks, Fera!
A lot of magicians seem to have a huge distaste for Jesus, without even really understanding Him.
There's a lot of people and beings who I have love for, but I don't want to come off like a giggling schoolgirl (because then I would have to cap myself).

[feranaja]

c'mon...tell them about the Juggernaut... you can do that one with no danger...

[hitman777]

Oh, our new dog, Jugger. He is a jug. He's a nice dog, though he doesn't like to behave himself, and eats anything you don't lock up. Paper towels, tape, all kinds of sick stuff. He's a handful!
My wife jokingly calls him Juggernaut, because he is so small and wimpy (though he thinks he's a hardass!:laugh: )

hitman

[feranaja]

Danny is at "that age" as well - after four months they start to challenge authority a little, and breed-specific characteristics emerge. You have to watch the JRT aspects with Jug...they dont call them "terrorists" for nothing. In my case its this selective hearng thing - "Oh were you talking to ME? Is MY name Daniel? Gee- sorry, Im busy eating the remote control right now..." selective hearing in my breed AND counter surfing (sorry about that lamb roast, mom) SInce your puppy wont be 120 lbs as an adult, you can relax a bit about that last one..


Danny is a bit twisted too, in that he likes to eat things like rocks, houseplants, wood, newspaper - and there is no shortage of chewies and bones around here...one just has to puppyproof everywhere and consider it an exercise in the development of patience.

Try a raw carrot with the J-man. Daniel went absolutley berserk with joy when I gave him one the first time. It's good for their gums and they can eat it too. AS with all puppies, supervise in case of choking.

And - I want that picture!
fera

[hitman777]

Sorry, still working on the picture thing, Fera. You'll get it, I promise!

[YsetEternal]

Danny is at "that age" as well - after four months they start to challenge authority a little, and breed-specific characteristics emerge. You have to watch the JRT aspects with Jug...they dont call them "terrorists" for nothing. In my case its this selective hearng thing - "Oh were you talking to ME? Is MY name Daniel? Gee- sorry, Im busy eating the remote control right now..." selective hearing in my breed AND counter surfing (sorry about that lamb roast, mom) SInce your puppy wont be 120 lbs as an adult, you can relax a bit about that last one..


Danny is a bit twisted too, in that he likes to eat things like rocks, houseplants, wood, newspaper - and there is no shortage of chewies and bones around here...one just has to puppyproof everywhere and consider it an exercise in the development of patience.

Try a raw carrot with the J-man. Daniel went absolutley berserk with joy when I gave him one the first time. It's good for their gums and they can eat it too. AS with all puppies, supervise in case of choking.

And - I want that picture!
fera

not only for choking though f, one should check for missing clothing or pieces of silk plants as Intussusception, as you Im sure are aware, however others may not be... puppy proofing your home can prevent many problems that can be life threatening...

[feranaja]

not only for choking though f, one should check for missing clothing or pieces of silk plants as Intussusception, as you Im sure are aware, however others may not be... puppy proofing your home can prevent many problems that can be life threatening...


Only too well I know, Babs - good point. When the attending vet came to tell me they couldnt revive Luke, I still thought he had bloated. (It was too surreal he had HMS and I had no idea, not the slightest sign). I saw a lot of bloat when I worked for my father and recently, a close friend who is also a vet tech lost her beloved Standard poodle to it. It's an evil thing. Puppies are less bloat prone than adults but any large, deep chested breed is susceptible.
Sometimes I wonder why I have purebreds . Its often such a heartbreak.

Another thing -and we are WAY OT here but since we all love the hitman, its ok to post puppy stuff I'd think, since he has a new baby? WATCH electrical plugs. I babygated all mine that I needed to have ongoing and one day Danny knocked the gate over and headed straight for the plug, jaws first. It can happen so fast.
And some houseplants are poisonous...hell, I'll start a natural health for animals thread.

It was gonna happen sometime...:laugh:

[YsetEternal]

Still off topic, but the following plants range Range from mildly toxic to deadly for most pets....

African violet (leaves)**Amaryllis (bulbs)**Angel's trumpets**Datura or brugmansia**Arrow grasses**Autumn crocus**Azaleas (leaves)**Bluebells**
Box (leaves)**Buttercup (entire plant)**Castor bean (leaves and seed)**Christmas rose (leaves, root)**Chrysanthemum**Clematis arnamdii (entire plant)**Columbine or aquilegia**Daffodil (bulbs)**Daphne**Dumb cane or dieffenbachia (leaves, stems)**Elder (leaves, root, bark)**Flak**Foxglove**Fritillary**Glory lily**
Glorisa superba**Hemlock**Holly (berries)**Horse chestnut (nuts, leaves)**
Hyacinth (bulbs)**Hydrangea macrophylla**Iris (roots)**Ivy (entire plant)**
Laburnum (leaves, seeds)**Larkspur (leaves, seeds)** Lily of the valley**Lobelia**
Lupin (leaves, seeds)**Mistletoe (berries)**Monkshood**Morning glory (seeds, roots)**Nightshades**Oleander**Philodendron (leaves)**Poinsettia (sap)**
Poppy (unripe seedpod)**Potato (green skin and sprouts)**Primrose (leaves, berries)
Privet (leaves)**Rhododendron (entire plant)**Rhubarb (leaves)**Snowdrops**
Spurge**Euphorbia**Star of Bethlehem**Ornithogalum**Sweet peas**Walnut (green hull juice)**Wisteria (pod, seeds)**Yarrow (achillea)**Yew (entire plant)

[hitman777]

I'll try the raw carrot thing once some of these damn inlaws leave. Right now he's playing with the kids, and begging for food, and I have to check everysooften to make sure they aren't giving him scraps, letting him near chicken bones, etc. Makes sense though, as one of the things we constantly have to take from him is mulch! I'm guessing he does this for his gums, I'm sure that carrots will be a lot nicer to his digestive tract!

[feranaja]

Cocoa mulch is very toxic, even deadly to dogs:

http://www.peteducation.com/article.cfm?cls=0&cat=1275&articleid=3004

Don't let the J-man near it!
fera

[Lucian]

Wow...I'm in awe that you can say you love yourself. It's a really hard thing to feel, isn't it? I can honestly say I love aspects of myself a lot - where I excel, I accept - but there's a lot I dont love and that makes me overly critical and also drive myself too hard. I think if you love only your good qualities it's not really love. I admire what you've written here, Lucian, even though its sort of tongue in cheek.

Thanks. I'm a very intospective, introverted person, so I've had a lot of time alone with myself and become familiar with all of my neurosis. Every so often I find myself in a new situation in which a new flaw in my character presents itself. But I have studied these flaws of mine, and in doing so have come to the conclusion that they are not truly flaws at all. They are merely variations.

Usually when I see something in myself as flawed one of two things have happened: 1. I have done something that is against my nature and have denied what I've decided to call my true Self, or 2. I'm looking at me through the eyes of society - not my own. (hmm... These two usually go hand in hand, now that I think of it.)

I cannot judge myself as being either good or bad based on what society decides is a good quality or bad quality. Society is always wrong about me, and never right. Therefore, how can judgements based on what society believes ever be trusted? I'm not good or bad - I simply am. Pretty liberating, I guess.

It is often the case that what is considered a character "flaw" in me is the very thing that makes me strong and empowered. How can I judge myself according to standards that keep me weak?

And the negative variations in my character might actually be positive - I just don't know how to use them yet. Or a "flaw" might drive me on to greater things and modes of being.

Anyway, I'm talking too much because I haven't eaten today and I'm getting a little shakey and weird. Sorry bout that. Didn't mean to go off on a mini rant.:o_O:

What I should have said is "I kinda like my flaws. They're nifty." and left it at that.

:laugh:

[Lucian]

AND - I forgot to mention my cat.

I love Morpheus. He keeps my feet warm at night, snuggles next to me when I'm sad, is pretty much always ecstatic when I come home, his personality rocks, he makes me laugh, he looks up to me, he adores me...

Very good company for my reclusive self.

[Phoenix]

Well i love every intelegent being, because they know the power of love.:rolleyes:

[Amur]

Thanks, Fera!
A lot of magicians seem to have a huge distaste for Jesus, without even really understanding Him.
There's a lot of people and beings who I have love for, but I don't want to come off like a giggling schoolgirl (because then I would have to cap myself).

Well. Looking at how polluted the Bible is, it's no wonder the world is as polluted :dogma:

Even glimpsing at some of the gospels gives quite another viewpoint of whom Jesus really was. Seems like the concept got hijacked and sold to the mass-media just like any other moneybloodsucking corporation would do whenever they get a 'hit'.

I love love :laugh: I also love hangovers along with the purity they bring :laugh:

[feranaja]

"Usually when I see something in myself as flawed one of two things have happened: 1. I have done something that is against my nature and have denied what I've decided to call my true Self, or 2. I'm looking at me through the eyes of society - not my own. (hmm... These two usually go hand in hand, now that I think of it.)"

Lucian, I think I'm pretty much the same, insofar as the thinsg I truly dont like about myself are based on my inability - refusal? to go along with what I see as BS. NOw, that was all well and fine when I was a young un, thowing red paint at Holt Renfrew windows for selling fur, making big noises about animal rights and so on - youth is expected to behave that way. BUt although I have mellowed - a lot - I still despise, I mean I am sickened by injustice, stupidity and above all cruelty. I react to it. I react badly to it. And this is something I don't like in myself, but it's a double edged sword because it's also this energetic refusal to submit to bullshit that has kept me young and vibrant...when the stresses I've lived with all my life should have made me old before my time. I feel if I start to accept it all, I will just shrivel up and fade away.

This is an interesting topic, but we should move it I guess. I love myself when I'm living up to my own ideals, but I fail myself on several fronts, one of which is being able to detach from personalizing things that shouldnt really affect me. I greatly admire Sibylle's ability to do this, to detach and not be affected. I think this is a task for me to work on, and perhaps one shouldnt "love oneself" unconditionally - we're not hippies, love has a dark face when it encourages individuals not to live up to their full potential, no?

fera

[feranaja]

I just want to say, I just love this community - so many unique and gifted people and such a spirit of shared enthusiasm, learning, energy and fun too. It's like m1thr0s and Danisty's online Mystery School, but everyone is welcome and all input valuable. AF rocks!

Thanks to everyone who contributes here, it restores my faith in the whole esoteric world, actually.
feranaja

[m1thr0s]

well you're surely an important part of that fera...so glad you finally decided to drop in...now we've got you! lol...

And...

m1thr0s... for starting this kick ass forum. ^_^

I love you man!!dammit Lucian...now you've gone and made my horns blush...:devil:
m1thr0s

[feranaja]

well you're surely an important part of that fera...so glad you finally decided to drop in...now we've got you! lol...

Ahh I KNEW Nuhad was behind it all somehow - yet another plot to snare me! Damn! I think you have "got" me this time...careful what you ask for??:laugh:

Today I'd just like to send a big old heart shaped hug to all of you who signed Luke's candle vigil site...I cry every time I go there, but they're tears of gratitiude for him and for people who care and the too- sweet words people left for me. Don't tell me community isn't powerful, online or otherwise! Thanks for being you..
love fera and assorted fourlegged and crawling things