I have entered the Twilight Zone...

[Lucian]

This is probably a pretty dumb question to put to people in an occult forum, but I just kind of wanted to put it out there anyway...

Do you ever sort of slide into these phases when your whole life seems so freaking unreal and bewildering that you feel you've entered the Twilight Zone or something?

I've been there for a few weeks. It was just like one day I had everything all figured out - I knew who I was, what I was doing, where I was going, etc., and the world was just the way it had always been, and the next day everything familiar was gone and I felt like a stranger to my own life.

It seems like almost overnight I went from having my life and myself figured out to not knowing what the hell I am doing, and not even recognizing the person I had been for the last couple of months. Not only am I totally confused by who I have been and what I have done, the world itself is not following the rules and is throwing stuff at me as if there really, truly is someone testing me. Like someone knew the perfect thing to tempt me with and just sat it right in front of me to see what I would do.

I honestly don't know who I've been for the last 8 weeks or more, but looking back I am utterly confounded because that person was so unlike me. What is worse, I was making decisions at the time I now bitterly, bitterly regret. I made a huge mistake with someone I cared deeply for and now I have to figure out how to fix it - if it even can be fixed.

While I'm trying to sort that out, there's some weird kind of magic going on where things that should never happen are happening, things are happening as I think them... I'm outlining a hypersigil, but it's like the hypersigil is starting without me and presenting me with all the openings and opportunities before I even write them and long before I am ready.

I'll be honest, it's a little tiny bit... frightening I guess.

Everything is different now, a stranger has been living my life, I'm somehow living a hypersigil I haven't yet written, and... I don't know what the hell is going on.

Anyone here been through something similar?

[m1thr0s]

yes. these things often preempt an actual relocation of some kind...like it's time to move on, away from your comfort zones and familiar patterns. It may be hard to see your way clear at first...it might not mean changing towns and everything but many times it really does.

I am not sure what to advise though...keep your head low and your ears perked more or less...you'll be looking for what the Chinese sages call the "intimations from fate" I think...some indicator of where you next "stage" will be set...

Things sometimes go crazy because they have to just in order to take steps you might not otherwise be willing to take...

or quite ready...but some other part of you is...

AstroCartology can be helpful if you know anybody who is any good at it...figure out just how far from your "power spot" you really are...

Make sure it's not a health related issue if you can...sometimes these things are...I am guessing you would know if you were pregnant for instance but there can be other physical factors to being tranced out all of a sudden...once you eliminate that, it's almost certainly life's way of telling you something's got to change.

m1thr0s

[Okazaki Castle]

Do you ever sort of slide into these phases when your whole life seems so freaking unreal and bewildering that you feel you've entered the Twilight Zone or something?


Oh yeah, all the time. Deliberately shift into it at times actually. It's called walking the paths between the worlds in shamanism, fr'example...


I've been there for a few weeks. It was just like one day I had everything all figured out - I knew who I was, what I was doing, where I was going, etc., and the world was just the way it had always been, and the next day everything familiar was gone and I felt like a stranger to my own life.


Well. You always know who you are, for you have a strong sense of self, do you not? Yet also, you are aware of deeper sides and higher aspects of your being, are you not? Many of these are quite dark, some very dark, some lighter and fairier, others other things. And then you have your day-to-day regular ego personality, which you are used to, live in regular affairs... and who everybody around you knows and identifies as 'you'.

But why are those deeper and higher aspects of your being there? And why were you made aware of them before this happened? So that you were prepared, and able to handle what you have been thru now, and what perhaps is yet to come, perhaps?

Further, and though it is oft hard to begin with when you know not where you stand, with repetition and so familiarity it actually becomes a quite enjoyable process: allowing greater freedom, for example, more interesting perspectives and, yes, indeed, the abilities to do the seemingly miraculous -


While I'm trying to sort that out, there's some weird kind of magic going on where things that should never happen are happening, things are happening as I think them... I'm outlining a hypersigil, but it's like the hypersigil is starting without me and presenting me with all the openings and opportunities before I even write them and long before I am ready.


Well, before you are totally ready... does this not move faster (so requiring less patience and mundane waiting on your part (which you like, correct me if I'm wrong...)). And does this not push and stretch you, making you more than you were before, at least in terms of your capacity to handle what is thrown your way, through the experience of challanges and interesting/dynamic situations?

It seems like almost overnight I went from having my life and myself figured out to not knowing what the hell I am doing, and not even recognizing the person I had been for the last couple of months. Not only am I totally confused by who I have been and what I have done, the world itself is not following the rules and is throwing stuff at me as if there really, truly is someone testing me.

Who are you? This is an interesting question. What are you? So, too is this. But, in practical terms, does it matter? In hypothetical/theoretical terms, sure, we like to understand the full totality of our being and what self consists of, and what lies where. In practice though, you just begin your day and then ride thru the day's situations as life presents them to you once you walk out your door.. This is known as living in the present moment. Only the now physically exists, properly speaking. The rest is just memory or potentiality: conceptual structures used by us as conscious individuals to make sense of, categorize and order all that fits into our lives or connects to it. Such a large conceptual framework is useful, and gives one a sense of security, but it is not necessary. The strong can live with it. The future? Well, it will come. Then you shall live it when it arrives. Until it so arrives though, it is not your concern. Living in the present, with full attention in the now, one is truly alive and, actually in control. Of that present moment. And the future, when it arrives, live it too as a present moment, and it too you shall control. Why? Well are you not stronger and more dynamic/powerful than all around you? Does this not mean that you can, when you choose, dominate all around you, should you choose to do so? And is it not the case that you have refrained from doing so usually mainly to be gentler with them and 'fit in' more comfortably and covertly into regular life, scenarios and society?

Yet has not your main complaint always been that they were weak and shallow, and not able to see what you saw, not strong like you were, not free like you were or at least sought to be, not aware like you saw? Well then. Why concern yourself overly regarding the weak when you begin to live that strength? Because you care for them and do not want to see them hurt? Yet would they grow stronger that way? Sometimes, you have to cut those around you, and you do them no true favours by holding back out of pity. They will recover, as they grow into the process and become stronger thereby. And through that, they will be able to relate more, and be more worthy/strong. And utlimately, though it may not seem that way now, they will thank you for it. The dreamers in the cave do not like to be awakened from their comfortable, arrogant slumber. Yet they do like to be awake. Once they get a bit used to it...

Like someone knew the perfect thing to tempt me with and just sat it right in front of me to see what I would do.

Who is the tempter? ;) :D Thus, given your Satanism, where's the problem? Temptation can be fun, especially when you yield to it. And it is good too, if the nature of the being tempted is superior, and balanced. As I would contend yours definitely is...

I honestly don't know who I've been for the last 8 weeks or more, but looking back I am utterly confounded because that person was so unlike me.

Well, you are many things, some wholly contradictory. The dark, nasty side does not always have to be lived. Indeed, it is there to protect, produce changes thru force (as m1thr0s noted) and then you can once enter the lighter, funner, more charming and chilled sides (with an edge, which is sexy and fun). But who are you? This I would like to discuss at some point, when you feel like it, if you do. All the various aspects to your character and being. I find them very intriguing and attractive, plus fun to just get to know...

I'll be honest, it's a little tiny bit... frightening I guess.

Fear is for the weak. Don't be silly. It is beneath you. Move thru such clearing of fear patterns as your group karma requires and calls for, but do not think it belongs to you and do not attach to it. Much less be frigthened by it. After all, given your deeper, darker natures, what is there for you to fear, truly? Those who you love and care for, if they love and care for you in return, will respect all that you are, and learn to face it, and accept/love it also. And if you wish, you can always change who and what you are and how your being is composed/made up.

all the best,
Oazaki.

[Okazaki Castle]

I thought you might find this useful. It provides a neat and relatively easily practicable applicable way to shift into, and out of, the 'Twilight Zone' pretty much at will. There are other approaches availbale which work also of course, but this one is very well woven and very easy. Level 6 is especially useful for this as it allows you to be suave and smooth in ways which hide/conceal the darker sides which freak people out, and also provides the ability to simple tell people in your physical presence what to think and how to feel. And also what to do, if you like...


The structures are now in place for Shadowdancers to density phase shift. What that means in practice is that your energetic bodies work in different ways dependent on which density you choose to locate yourself in. Your physical body in turn follows the energetic (eg mind) parameters which you flow with. An obviously noticed example is in combat situations, but in day to day life it also works, noticeably and easily. The physical body changes follow at their own pace, in time with the overall First Wave on this planet: ie as fast as all its members together can handle, which is obviously slower than we ourselves as High Command can conceive and live. The physical changes are being produced by the KARRAMEKANARBAH transmutational system (detailed a bit on magic catastrophe). The mental and energetic changes - and the genetic structures allowing for them - were put into place using the ABRAHADABRA transmutational system. The latter system pertaning to vertical changes in genetic structure, the former to horizontal.

The details of the densities and how they've been set up are as follows:

1st density : Rocks, minerals, buildings. Also the Planets in their physical (as opposed to soul, character or will) aspect.
2nd density : plants, animals
3rd density : ideas, causal plane, thinking. Also The Zhedhi Order in its Original Symbol form of expression.
4th density : control of life and death. A focus on destruction and/or creation. Present-time weaves.
5th density : death again, in the sense of transformation and paradise. The domain of Pluto, mainly.
6th density : Vampyres. Control and movement of images (in the world, in your mind, in others' minds. Tell them what to think and how to see/view things).
7th density: Ganga and the Priesthood codings. Sex and ganga... but no other drug.
8th density : ninjitsu. The ninja 8-fold. Being comfortable in the darkness, and moving it from there.
9th density : Illuminati. Not the old homosexual reptilian version, the original version. The light in the darkness, shining to help out the peasants who are afraid of the dark. From here you decide what people will focus on, where human history will go.
10th density: The Jedi Order. The Antarean gate, the domain of Jedi in this system, for that is how we approach it here.
11th density: A mystery, for now (though check it out for yoursleves if you like)
12th density : The Olympian Gods. The planets in their soul / character aspect.

Within that context, you can do various beats. For example, a useful one is 9~6~3: Illuminati > Vampyre > Ideas. That beat works for us, but we could also do a fuller expression, for example including levels 7 and 8: ninjas are a gentler image to the mainstream than illuminati and vampyres, and ganga is useful cuz if you're populace is stoned most of them you can do pretty much what you want in terms of reforming, radically altering society and they won't really care too much as long as you keep them comfortable and give them plenty to smoke, munch and stay entertained. But yes, faster beats are possible, though they have to be shall we say 'numerically stable' to work best/most smoothly. Numerically inharmonious beats produce inharmonious, ie violent, results which 'grate', or disturb, the system and, as such, are useful for that property.

These densities rotate in spheres around you, with our physical bodies being wholly First Density in terms of thier energetic structure, second density is the auric layer out to about 2-6 inches, third density (ie most humans and interaction with them) is from around 6 inches out to around 0.8 metres. A perfect sphere is not formed till 6th density, at around 2-3 metres. It is on that sphere which the mind of this planet turns, and that's where you see it combining and fitting into place to create this planet's mind grids. Indeed, the sphere you have to work with there is the planets' mind grids, or an exactly, responsive copy thereof if that perceptual approach works more easily for you.


This contrasts to the normals/mortals/mainstreamers view of reality which is basicaly summarized thus:

3rd Density: The Physical World. Some ideas and feelings, which are basically neurological and chemical reactions. What's around us. This physical body. Pretty much everything else also. Soem other stuff I don't understand and haven't really looked at.


all the best,
Oazaki.