Who Are You - Really??

[feranaja]

NaomiChan gave me the idea for this thread, and since it's a topic that interests me greatly - the human psyche - I thought I'd pop it off for your weekend entertainment and mutual edifiction.

What I'm wondering is this; how does the "real you" differ from your online persona? Do you even have an online persona? Do you present - deliberately or circumstantially - a certain side of yourself online - here - are there perhaps facets of your personality we don't get to see, usually?

In a nutshell - if any of us here were to meet in real life, would you be much as you seem in your AF posts? What would be different? What might be a surprise?

I noticed in our comments on one another - the "three words " thread - that 90% of what we said about each other was positive, and most was very astute. BUt still, I think these stereotypes emerge, an it might be an exercise in furthering community and self knowledge to explore what we DONT always show in our online presentation.



So - who are you really?:laugh: How is the "real you" different from what we know of you online?

fera

[YsetEternal]

youd better answer this first :P

[Kain]

Hmm...lol...good subject for a thread fera, now that's something not often discussed :) . Even though this is quite true for most internet interractions and communities (to an extent), personally at least, I have proven again and again quite unable/untalented as far as projecting or bringing forth alternate facets/aspects of my personality in exchange with others via the internet. I'm too boring I'm afraid :laugh: . In fact, one-track-mindedness is usually my worst problem in daily life, since it gives me a really hard time in situations that require care as far as conduct is concerned and may need "social maneuvers" of a sort. I am very one-dimensional and this is partly because I have taken a great deal of time in trying to successfully de-fragmentalize my self, views, goals and viewpoints, an all-aspect-reintegration process that has gone a long way and has made me difficult to "bend" in any way other than my standard mental/emotional setting. I can't really complain here, as specialization is a wonderful ally in certain battles, especially internal ones, however it has it's side-effects...

So no, I don't really think meeting me in person would prove to show any changes (or worse, improvements!)...perhaps a layer or two of random and unfiltered mild paranoia that goes on and off, setting a sort of rhythm on my conduct, and that would be pretty much it. I'm usually awefully boring socially, and (some tell me unnervingly) quiet when I do not feel motivated to point something out or engage in particular discussion. I dislike pointless or void-filling actions and words, so that usually causes quite an awkward setting for people that are less accustommed to silence (when it is due, as you all have noticed that I can be quite wordy if I deem it to be appropriate). In fact, my ex-fiancee had pointed out at some point that "she did not intend to get related to 'Dalai Lama' " as she elegantly put it :laugh:

Kain

[Ðanisty]

Online, I have the ability to read carefully over what I'm writing before I post it. I can't do this in person and I do sometimes say something that I might have edited if I was on the internet...lol. This is not so much for content as for eloquence. Writing gives me the time to find the right words...sometimes I even go to a dictionary or thesaurus. The format of forums also gives me the ability to stop and research something a bit before I respond. In person, if I don't know, then I just have to sit their looking like an idiot...lol.

Because I'm on the staff here and, to a large extent because I've never wanted to get banned from a forum, I bite my tongue sometimes. I tend to get very worked up about arguments and I can be pretty nasty (just ask m1thr0s...lol). I try to tone that down in a public forum.

[Naomi]

GREAT TOPIC FERANAJA! :laugh:

Well I do seem different here, mostly because everyone is so busy trying to talk face to face...about their life, their problems, their day. A great majority of people have little interest in asking questions or figuring out someone else, so generally I seem quiet and reserved offline. I can just sit and type without interuption here online so I can really express my true thoughts on matters without being rude. No one knows everything about me, though the few who do a little digging are pretty shocked most of the time. Or horrified, whichever. I'm not very approachable, either. Alot of this is body language, attire and my pepetual frown and furrow brow because I'm almost always thinking really damn hard. So people don't usually bother me, but if they do I will usually snap out of it and smile at them or crack a joke or something.

I use many masks - all of them facets of myself. So while I'm always honest I usually don't show my full self to people. They'd probably freak out. I think they do, in fact. I had this one girl tell me "You always seem so serene." and then the next day she asked me what my religion was. I told her "I'm a Satanist." I'm always bluntly honest with people if they actually bother to ask..I believe they've earned the truth if they have the courage to ask. So she kind of, you know...freaked out. Yet it's good for her to see that and be surprised by the idea that Satanists arn't all blood drinking freaks. It surprised me when she described me as serene. Most people regard me as intimidating and unapproachable. But I had listened to her problems and we did the smalltalk thing so I guess she had an oppurtunity to see beyond the Scorpio rising in my chart.

I think the only thing you could really describe me as is surprising. And if you met me for the first time you would probably think I'm really polite and down to earth, and I smile at people alot, just randomly. I'm really at home with pretty much any kind of person...it's not about being someone else, it's just about covering up deeper aspects of your personality or lifestyle until the right moment appears. And then you spring the surprises on them slowly "tada!" and you've just altered their consciousness by ensnaring them in a web of feel-goodedness while springing on them a big nasty surprise. So they're like "Wtf...this nice chick is a witch/sleeps with demons/practices magic?"


SO yes, irl, I like tricking people. I also like playing practical jokes and so on and testing people's limits. They need it and it's good for them.

My Kiersey personality type is ENTP, and it also describes me really well.

[m1thr0s]

I think I am probably a lot less intimidating in real life than I seem to be online. But I have always been a very distant sort of person...fairly "formal" with people and not inclined to jump right into things at all. I have been known to blurt things out though without thinking...I'll be sitting in some coffeee shop overhearing some nitwit conversation about magick or something and someone will say something that drives me right up a wall. I'm sort of the maniac who leaps across several tables unexpectedly to let them know that the correct qabbalistic name for Earth is not "MULGOON"!!! Then right back to my corner as if nothing ever happened...

I try to avoid cofffee houses these days...lol...

m1thr0s

[feranaja]

It's hard for me to say, because I'm not sure actually how I come across online. A lot of people respond warmly to me but the faction who dont, seem to respond - extremely negatively. I think I affect people one way or another quite strongly but not entirely sure if its good or bad. In my defense I'd say I ma always authentic and rarely, if ever, put on a "front"> Love it or hate it, it's who I am. I loathe headgames...



In real life, I have often been called "charismatic". I dont know what that means, aside from the fact everyone likes to tell me their problems, and feels that I'm not going to judge them - and I think of that as empathic. I'm not at all judgemental, so I think that makes people think I have some mystique, only becasue it's rare to find people who truly accept and love other humans. I'm a funny mix because I both love other people and can do without them. too. I care about people, but once you've crossed that line into my "pack" as it were, you are in for life. For better or worse, I'm exceedingly loyal.


I think of myself as basically paradoxical. I'm extremely strong yet incredibly vulnerable - people affect me, they hurt, anger, and make me love them. I'm probbaly an ongoing series of apparent contradictions with one basic continuity which is a responsivess for the needy and a love of the human potential. SO I love the weak and strong equally. I have ADHD so I appear remote when in fact Im just trying hard to concentrate.

I odn't know who I am in real life that differs from me online. I never try to appear anything deliberatley online, I just struggle to make sense. I'm a perfectionist and also moody and if people dislike tihngs about me its usually one of those. Otehrwise, I am who I am, flaws and all, and I dont ask much of people other than they take me as I am. Because at this stage of the game I wont be following any dictates other than those wihin my own heart.

And whether this comes across or not, I looove to party. AS much as Im ok being alone? I'm also highly sociable. Another paradox I suppose. At bottom, I just adapt to what life throws at me. If I have a talent, it's probably for that.
fera

[Anibis]

Hmm. This aint easy to answer. I guess intense is one word for it... I am actually very social, and playfull, and being a performer, I am often onstage... There is not a huge divide between myself online and myself offline. I am very extroverted, but ultimately a hermit, if that makes sense. I am very shy as well. I don't feel like I need to spell stuff out to people. Either you get it or you don't. I am actually very congenial most of the time, but like I said, very intense, so when I get focused on something I tend to be intolerant of wishy washyness... I find vascillation annoying. Often people think I'm an intellectual, but I am not, really. I don't argue so much as explain and describe, but when it comes down to it, I just do... I dig wierd stuff, and collect tricks... Anyways, I dunno if that's much different than what you see. It usually takes people a while to a) get to know me, and b) get to like me, but after that, once the BS is all filtered out, I make for strong freindships and sturdy alliances... I often play dumb to find out who is is likely to scapegoat, or take advantage of people they think are weaker than them... I hate corrupt 'leaders' of any kind, and do my best to enable them to expose their games... I dunno, just a ramble... I beleive strongly in fairness, and the subtext underlying anything I will or desire, is 'if it is just'... In the old Tortoise and Hare fable, I'm the Tortoise...
-Ibisis

[feranaja]

Two things:

1) I just had lunch with two very perceptive friends,and at one point we were talking aobut how non humans - cats snakes and dogs in this case - pick up on what humans are feeling, whereas we have to work so hard to read them back. I commented that animals read me really well "because I'm sort of intense" - at which pont they both burst out laughing, as in "No way Cat - YOU? Intense? lol" and so on.

So, I guess in "real life" my intensity is evident. I have two positions on the switch- full and off, and its on full more than it's off. Makes for a tiring existence though...

2) Naomi, I always imagined you as a lovely person to meet in real life. Satanist or otherwise. Things that seem paradoxical to many are just logical to Geminis.

fera

[Sibylle]

I can express much better online than offline, for the reasons Danisty mentioned. Because of this, I am probably better known online than off, as far as who I am. This, however, may not be saying much.

My friends and closest family know me to a point, but most family members do not have a clue as to who I am or what I believe.

An aunt of mine and a guy I once knew both used the word "cavalier" to describe me. This aunt said I am like a martyr. A lady I knew when I was a teenager later told me that she had found me intimidating. While the aunt and the lady are not people whom I've allowed to know me, I was quite open with the guy. He was My Bartender :rofl:

I don't have particularly good social skills in person, and as a result I am quiet when I find myself in social situations. Either that or I put my foot in my mouth!

I like being with those I am comfortable with, online and off, because I prefer to be genuine and can't stand insincerity and game-playing.

[YsetEternal]

Well, this one is hard but easy at the same time.

Sibylle would probably say Im more serious in real life and less comedic, but she has only met me the one time. BTW Ill probably be heading to CA again either in winter or spring. So prepare for a few margaritas'.:yes: ;)


This is difficult to answer. The only answer I can really say for sure is that I am me, regardless of if Im online or we are meeting in RL. I have many different aspects to myself and not all of them show at one time.

Sometimes a total hoochie both online and in RL, sometimes the comedianne, sometimes psychically open and receptive, sometimes hormonal, sometimes the intellectual, always the artist - seeing the beauty in the world as well as the beautifully ugly and wanting to capture it in word, on canvas or on film, and I would have to say seasoned too, due to one of the largest life experiences available.

One thing I will say about myself that might not seem so online, is I am uniquely genuine as are many on the forums that I have spoken with and have met... Ive yet to meet someone from the forums that have been so different from the person they portray themselves to be that Ive been in shock...

I, too, would call myself a contradiction.

I know its still a vague answer, but the only one I can give at this time... At least its an honest answer. Perhaps those of you here that know me, can see things about me that I can not?

If so, care to elaborate on my post a bit?

[feranaja]

Well you know the expression babs - what others say about us may not tell us much about ourselves, but it will tell a lot more about them.

One thing I see in you is a great deal of pain with a strong and brave insistence on not succumbing to it - using humour and wit to carry the day a lot of the time. The fact you and I can banter about like we're in junior high and you still respect my intellect and learning tells me a lot about you - you see through people's facades, you don't judge, and you understand humanity very well.
And you know, I do love you for that.
xxoo
fera

[YsetEternal]

Well you know the expression babs - what others say about us may not tell us much about ourselves, but it will tell a lot more about them.

True...

One thing I see in you is a great deal of pain with a strong and brave insistence on not succumbing to it - using humour and wit to carry the day a lot of the time. The fact you and I can banter about like we're in junior high and you still respect my intellect and learning tells me a lot about you - you see through people's facades, you don't judge, and you understand humanity very well.

You are so right!!! I have had a great amount of pain in my life of all sorts, and I do refuse to succumb to it because I do know that there is more to experience. That's why I am here after all, to experience and live...

I wouldnt say that I see through facades, I just know there is more to people than the side they are showing of their personalities at that moment. I do try not to judge, and I do try to undertand, if not ween out the humanity in ppl... Though in actuality i guess I do see through facades quite more often than I know about. Come to think about it, Ive alway done that. How? I havent the foggiest. I just think it's in the natural ability to read ppls energy even if they dont like it or are blocking...

And I love our banter sessions and can not wait to banter about your garden table with a huge bottle of wine and perhaps some really good canadian beer... Perhaps even with NuHad around. I cant wait to see if he is as much an intellectual in person as he is online as well as experience his hilarious sense of humor...

And you know, I do love you for that.
xxoo
fera


And I love you too...

[Sibylle]

YsetEternal:

I think we were both well-behaved when we met, though we may have it in us to be otherwise ;) I think you have a graceful quality to you, and are warm and down to earth. I sense the comedienne in you, as well as a love of adventure and a hunger and thirst (haha) for knowledge and seasoning.

I too found it hard to answer the original question. It is interesting to know what others think of us and how we are perceived. Sometimes the message received is not the one we intend to send.

Yay for margaritas!

[YsetEternal]

You know what, I think you were right that we were both well behaved... However Im not planning on being so well behaved next time:devil: :twisted:

[feranaja]

ye gods not NUHAD...lol.

Now there's a person whose real life personality is totally goofy crazy and nonstop fun. I mean he gets ME, Miss Public Image, to walk down bank Street yodeling Heeeerrrnnne at the top of my lungs..ok well maybe not Bank St (downtown Ottawa) but he definitely brings out the crazy in me. And others! Nuhad is a blast.


For some reason I envisage you Sibylle as very much the same in real life as online - wise, a bit detached, but gentle and very observant. Maybe we need to get some Canadian beer into you too?

I have this hunch that m1thr0s is a real dear in real life too, but let's not say that too loudly, shall we? Wouldnt want to blow anyone's Online Persona...

fera

[YsetEternal]

Sibylle has a very strong energy and is cautious to let it shine... However it shines through anyhow, both online and in person.

As for NuHad, hehehehe :twisted: I have to go to the pub with you both, all of us in one room? too much fun!!! ::: wrings hands together planning :::

[Sibylle]

... Maybe we need to get some Canadian beer into you too?

fera

Well, I am really not a beer person. I do have a thing for José Cuervo and like the margaritas; however, they are much better when it is 107°F rather than the 37°F it is right now. I need a hot drink. I think I'll go get something to enhance my coffee when I go pick up the Mister. Then I may have to drop in at the Altered States thread :o_O:

[YsetEternal]

OMG its actually colder there now than it is here... WOW, I never thought Id hear that one...

Hey dont forget though, after the thirteenth or fourteenth, Jose will definately warm one up ;)

Im not much on beer either unless in the mood to drink it... However with certain ppl, the mood definately kicks in... And I think Ill be adding to the Alterd States thread myself in a bit :D

[Kazahel]

I would be alittle different in away, the main difference with me is that in real life I dont actually like to speak or talk to others now. I'm very shy like that and I tend to avoid places where people may talk to me. Which is almost everywhere. Anotherwords... in real life you wont ever see me, and if you do, I wont ever speak to you.. Where online I tend to be alittle less closed like that and I'll be alittle more.. social. I think also that people would be surprised that I'm actually a kind and forgiving person. Online I dont think people can read between the lines as well to grasp that. Which is apart of my humor in away.. Which is the other main thing that people would maybe be surprised at. I spend more of my time laughing and dancing than crying or hating. And infact I dont actually hate anyone... even though my love for many may come across as such. If people were to meet me in person they would see how my eyes shine more because of them. But only if they dont break the silence by talking to me first.

[m1thr0s]

I have this hunch that m1thr0s is a real dear in real life too, but let's not say that too loudly, shall we? Wouldnt want to blow anyone's Online Persona...oh well...those are overrated...I actually like to keep people guessing about my online persona anyway...;)

m1thr0s

[Zaii]

Rarely does one person ever truly know another person, as we're always presenting select sides of ourselves if we're presenting them at all, and not presenting one of a myriad of types and shapes of masks.

So my answer is that I think life is just as much about creating yourself as it is finding yourself.

Specifically, I try not to talk to anyone on the internet differently than I do in real life (though my words tend to flow better in live conversation), because I absolutely -loathe- the idea of the "keyboard warrior" and have run into quite a few, as I'm sure we all have.

[Logos]

I'm the guy in the picture. Or, at least I'm pretty sure that's who I am.

v/s/s/v

[Dragon]

Umm...Pretty much I am what I am....I try to remain consistant through all the worlds I am in...even electronic ones...How could I not be...It's always me...

Although it is a bit easier to get me to complete a conversation in the flesh...finding the 15 minutes here and there to make time to read and type is difficult at best right now...as I am a busy little camper...So that one thing would be different.

~D~

[feranaja]

Rarely does one person ever truly know another person, as we're always presenting select sides of ourselves if we're presenting them at all, and not presenting one of a myriad of types and shapes of masks.

So my answer is that I think life is just as much about creating yourself as it is finding yourself.



You know what, I absolutely agree with that last statement...but the first one I'm not so sure about. I think there are certian aspects of others we rarely see, but I think I know the people closest to me pretty well. DO you think it's worthwhile to try to know/be known? It's not a popular idea anymore, but it's a valuable one for me personally...for me, holding back anything important is a form of manipulation, I mean with very close people.
What do you think?

[Zaii]

You know what, I absolutely agree with that last statement...but the first one I'm not so sure about. I think there are certian aspects of others we rarely see, but I think I know the people closest to me pretty well. DO you think it's worthwhile to try to know/be known? It's not a popular idea anymore, but it's a valuable one for me personally...for me, holding back anything important is a form of manipulation, I mean with very close people.
What do you think?

Well for the longest I was burnt out with people in general, and was convinced after being thoroughly fooled (which in reality was just a case of me not trusting my instincts) by someone who was very dear to me at the time, I just stopped caring and trying.

But lately, I'm thrilled with the idea of trying to know someone, and to be known myself, although who knows which is trickier?

Holding back.....good topic. I'm always trying to sort that out. Now that I've been blessed with a wonderful gift in my life that I'm immensely thankful for, more than ever. I am completely stunned at the simplicity of the blessing that led to me finally feeling something again, while also being downright amazed at how utterly confusing that blessing is.

I've held back from people my entire life, and the one time I did truly let "myself" show, it was one of the most disastrous experiences, yet one of the biggest learning points for me as well.

Identity is so complex.

So here I am. Where that is exactly, I'm still feeling that out.

[Kuroyagi]

Yeah of course I am a different mask and persona online- what did you think? In life I’m a very polite and reserved person at times and at others very outgoing and dashing, but whatever, I’ll just quote some passages of my personal online natal horoscope-chart and everyone can believe it or not ("You don’t know if what I write is true. Heck, you don’t even know that it is I who wrote this" as Ramsey Dukes said…)
Your life will be marked by your shrewd, secretive, obstinate, clever, and reserved disposition. You remain an enigma: with these traits, your life events could be either very tragic or very fortunate. […] There are two types, the extremely emotional, attracted by those pathological aspects of biological relationship, or the highly mystical, concerned with spirituality.
You are a person of extremes, very sensitive and desirous of attachment. There is some attraction to the occult or to psychic phenomena. You are active in the sense that there is a psychological struggle going on inside you between the positive and negative poles-those of affirming and satisfying or rejecting and repressing. You are very intense in your feelings and remain passionately attached to the person you love. Similarly, when you dislike someone you are very fixed in that feeling. However, there is room for optimism in that: whatever type you may happen to be, there exists a desire deep in your inner self for psychic regeneration.

The intensity and profundity of your passion, however, will always be constant. You have a tendency to go into the shadows and secretly plan the course of action you will take, reluctant to let others know the exact nature of your mood or feelings. In your sexual affairs you are full of passion and strong attachment.

If your inner growth is such that your vital energies are oriented toward spiritual rather than material pleasures, then you will arrive at gratification and happiness through inquiry into the mysteries of life and death.

The Sun was found in the ninth house at the time of birth. This is an indication that your real self possesses an attraction to higher levels of thought. Additionally, this indicates that the most important realizations may come through the process of pure reasoning.
You will tend to grow through the workings of your higher mind where you may find, after much striving, the creative principle and the power of self-expression.

You possess a rather austere mind which is fearless, self-confident and keenly analytical… from: http://www.astro.com/h/index_e.htm?lang=e (http://www.astro.com/h/index_e.htm?lang=e) (I am a cancer ascendant Scorpio etc..)

[Ci Celli Ddu]

I don't wear an online mask per se, Ive had around 3 years to master this media of communication so I think Im as true to my offline self as is possible. Ive been studying the Occult on and off for 20 years, but "on and off" are the key words here because Im in no way a disciplined magus. I have eclectic interests but I tend to follow only one interest at a time and alternate them every few months. My persona varies from introvert to extrovert depending on where I am and the company I keep, but Im generally stoic with a deadpan demeanor, virtually impossible to shock, yet easy going and affable. Im only assertive or aggressive in real-life situations where I deem that necessary, though I don't suffer fools gladly and anyone who treats me condescendingly or in a disrepectful matter will soon feel the sharp end of my wit, which is pretty much why I am not suited to most jobs. Im also undisciplined and lazy. :)

[Talkingfox]

Who am I?? I'm a Virgo /Leo Asc./ Scorpio moon.

In short a neurotic egoist with a god complex.

[Amur]

The God-child. That's pretty much who I am. Playing around in this life, wearing an insane body like it was my costume for the dawnbreaking of the new Day. :laugh:

Life made me like skateboarding/snowboarding/making music/martial arts/and I'm looking forward to starting to draw things.

Just broke my arm while lamely snowboarding and spent 2 weeks in the hospital with 3 surgeries. Ouch :laugh: Now I'm recovering and getting depressed. Hopefully the hand will recover to it's fullest.

[Kain]

Just broke my arm while lamely snowboarding and spent 2 weeks in the hospital with 3 surgeries. Ouch :laugh: Now I'm recovering and getting depressed. Hopefully the hand will recover to it's fullest.Ouch indeed...hope you recover soon Amur...

Kain

[silentjohn]

I was silentjohn offline before I was ever silentjohn online - Qhen I was way young, 2 years old approx. I'd shower people with paragraphs upon paragraphs of stories about how I went fishing and so on,... I thought thats what one did.

Of course it was all just creative rambling...

Eventually I refined that into a very introspective nature, observing, learning..

"Talking to myself without uttering a word...


speaking to myself cause I'm the only one that can listen to the words that don't exist..
I'm an inner-monologue lyricist."


then.. the appreciation of how careful word choice can make all the difference.

Astrologicaly speaking:

Sun in Libra, Moon in Leo (http://www.astro.com/cgi/atxgen.cgi?lang=e&cid=niffileKfVCUK-u1170361091&nhor=2&btyp=apx#B3) • Ascendant in Libra, Venus in the Eleventh House (http://www.astro.com/cgi/atxgen.cgi?lang=e&cid=niffileKfVCUK-u1170361091&nhor=2&btyp=apx#B4) • Saturn in the First House (http://www.astro.com/cgi/atxgen.cgi?lang=e&cid=niffileKfVCUK-u1170361091&nhor=2&btyp=apx#B6) • Moon in the Eleventh House (http://www.astro.com/cgi/atxgen.cgi?lang=e&cid=niffileKfVCUK-u1170361091&nhor=2&btyp=apx#B7) • Venus in the Eleventh House (http://www.astro.com/cgi/atxgen.cgi?lang=e&cid=niffileKfVCUK-u1170361091&nhor=2&btyp=apx#B8) • Sun in the Twelfth House (http://www.astro.com/cgi/atxgen.cgi?lang=e&cid=niffileKfVCUK-u1170361091&nhor=2&btyp=apx#B9)

Which is pretty much gibberish to me mostly...

[feranaja]

Who am I really? I'm Luke, Lila, and Daniels Mom.

I hope to be the person my dogs think I am.

[silentjohn]

With the true understanding of self, comes the real fun of refining, celestialy or otherwise, one's truest nature.

But when a distorted ego is at the helm, great chaos may be the result, as your essence seeks , magnetic style, to align back as it was... and so..

There is true freedom, really.

Here is a pretty picture:

http://silentjohn.doitbig.org/astro-silent.jpg

[feranaja]

Astrologically here is what I identify with most:

-Sun/Mercury Gemini: talktalktalktalktalk
-Moon/Mars in Aries: Are you lookin' at ME?!?
-Venus in Taurus (in the 8th House) - I love you, youre mine, case closed.(see Mars in Aries)
Jupiter in Libra in the First House - if its not true, and its not fair - see; Mars in Aries (if youre still standing)

In short: I am communicative, passionate, I hate liars, I'm (too?) quick to respond, I value justice, truth, loyalty,body language, open-heartedness - and dogs.(see above)
fera

[Sibylle]

I'm a Scorpio with Virgo rising and a Libra moon. I'm very concerned with justice and entitlement as the default mode for all human beings. Loyalty and integrity are important to me, as well as independent thinking and personal responsibility.

You won't see a ribbon on my car showing that I've jumped on some bandwagon. But I thought about how one would look that depicted a sheep with the symbol below shown on it. I'm dismayed at sheep-like behavior, but hey, I love animals, so that wouldn't be an appropriate sticker for me after all.

[Nuhad418]

ye gods not NUHAD...lol.

Now there's a person whose real life personality is totally goofy crazy and nonstop fun. I mean he gets ME, Miss Public Image, to walk down bank Street yodeling Heeeerrrnnne at the top of my lungs..ok well maybe not Bank St (downtown Ottawa) but he definitely brings out the crazy in me. And others! Nuhad is a blast.




jjjhhh...Well for what its worth my persona online is the same as my persona in real life...only my posts are FAR less long winded than my real life lectures :dogma:

And please, get a glass or two of wine in you and you make ME do shit I would never do with anyone other than my significant other like shop for hats and bras!?:possessed:

[BrotherM]

IRL I am complicated. I keep my worlds appart and I always have, my different sets of friends never meet. I suppose it is because the real me is actually the child that survives from my youth who believes in a place where there is only sun, warmth and time passes slowly, i.e. Africa as a 3 year old. So it depends where you meet me. At work I am the tough a$$hole investment banker and you really wouldn't want to be negotiating with me. At home I am a softy doting husband and father to the dawg who gets bossed about by his wife on all but important matters where I gently take over so as not to bruse egos. Funnily the dawg knows this and goes to his mother for food and to his father when he is scared. With my climbing friends I am the idiot smoking on the edge of an 1,100 foot cliff with my harness tied in wrong (only smoke when I climb). My school friends that I am still in contact with call me BLACKHEART because I broke up with some chick and didn't care when she took time off school as a result. They also regard me as a bit of a bully, which is probably somewhat true. So, complicated.

Bro-M

[feranaja]

And please, get a glass or two of wine in you and you make ME do shit I would never do with anyone other than my significant other like shop for hats and bras!?:possessed:

Nice to see that years later, you have still not recovered from our visit to the lingerie department. We should do that again soon, the staff will love it.

:twisted:

[Nuhad418]

Nice to see that years later, you have still not recovered from our visit to the lingerie department. We should do that again soon, the staff will love it.

:twisted:

Oh I'm over it...not that there was anything to get over other than endless movement from one rack to another, then another, then another, then...that's right...ANOTHER!! lol I don't think any staff of any place likes it when we are together.

[Ratatosk]

I'm dismayed at sheep-like behavior, ...

http://www.evardsson.com/sheep.gif

had to do it!

and yes, I really am a smartass!
not really ...
actually, yeah ...
nah ...
yup ...

[Radiant Star]

Oh LOOK!

Theres me, second row up, on the left :eek:

[Sibylle]

Thanks for the laugh, Ratatosk :laugh:

Let sheep be sheep. And let people use their brains, and cherish the only true freedom they have - freedom of thought.

[Cosmicbrat]

I never think of that.. I'm just me as I'm me... What's outside is what's inside.. no paint, no fake, just an honest gentle human critter, out here, dedicated in doing what I can think of to try to stop the destruction of this planet.. in hopes some of my output will somehow have an effect, to save earth from humanity's destruction, by waking folks up to switching on their minds, for them to begin to see what we are doing to our home...

[Amur]

Ouch indeed...hope you recover soon Amur...

Kain

Hey, thanks :cool:

4th week and still almost completely numb and no feeling in 2 fingers. Atleast Ican write now with 2 hands (and continue to program my memory game in Java :laugh: )

[hitman777]

Actually, recent events have been showing me more and more that I have no real conception of who I really am, and that instead of actually trying to understand it, I have been putting on "masks" so to speak, in terms of forming patterns of behavior and mimicked feelings or emotional reactions to form some kind of "personality" or "identity", and that I inevitably find something wrong with it once I forget I'm doing this and start getting too much "into character" for too long. So then I go to work tearing these down, but usually while doing this, I'm already unknowingly building up the next pattern of behaviors and false reactions. Now, I just have to figure out how to stop doing that!:laugh:

[Copuldaemon]

Who Are You - Really??

I'm the exact opposite of what you're limited and prejudiced mind could concieve.

[Aodh]

I am someone whom I never could have conceived and am only beginning to understand.

I am More and Less than what people think I am.

I am born of something not exactly Alien and not exactly Native; not exactly Ancient, not exactly New.

I am an Amalgam, an Enigma, an Open Box, and a Supernova.

[Cosmicbrat]

"I am an Amalgam, an Enigma, an Open Box, and a Supernova..."



Without thought you are an engine without gas... A supernova stillborn... An empty box, full of nothing... An enigma with a stigma... An Amalgam missing the crucial component....

We are the sum of our feature abilities...

We gain abilities by acting upon thought, as it becomes thought...
Spontainuity, Respect, Dignity, and Humility are the Key...
Any less is in the direction of productive-fear and nonproductive procrashtination...

You see Life offering you a piece of treasure.. You Take it gracefully.. where "thankyou's" are but pleasant turds...
The moment you waver, is the moment the offer vanishes forever...
As in Life you have one chance, till you experienced other options..
Same with Life's treasures... You take it, or you lost it...

It's true you are a supernova in-process, in being a child of the sun.. but who would want to live that vile restriction?.. to be forever shrouded and layered in such a god-prison, now scheduled for extinction, as reward for applying greed to love..?

"Supernova" is the reward for murder.. in that you have established your heavenly "god-post" by bumping out its original occupant...
Murder on a god's level, is still murder... None have that right.. and thank goodness that no hume will ever realize that opportunity...


It all goes back to you establishing your base... Miss a brick.. and your foundation is not...

You are a combination "critter of earth", and "spawn of the sun"... Essentially you are a "clueless baby sun", a dry match in a wet match box...
Everything you are, and will be, you have now... So, when is it time to be you..?

Problem is that should you establish an imbalance between critter and spawn, there's is a delta-chance that you could burn the critter, if you failed to build a sturdy base...

It's OK to step one foot into cloud.. as long as you maintain the other foot upon stable reality...
Should you place all your feet on the cloud, you had better have a substantial cosmic-base to sustain your bank... or the repercussion could be fatal, on more levels than you can know...

[m1thr0s]

You are a combination "critter of earth", and "spawn of the sun"... Essentially you are a "clueless baby sun", a dry match in a wet match box...
Everything you are, and will be, you have now... So, when is it time to be you..?rofl...very funny CB...I would have to agree with the "clueless baby sun" motif...although in truth I am slightly more optimistic since I think we are all "clueless baby universes". Same idea, different magnitudes. Most of these baby universes are probably a wash for the time being but time is not what it seems and there is nowhere else to go anyway...

m1thr0s

[feranaja]

I am my job. Or so it feels these days.

[Radiant Star]

I was me...

Now I am morphing into a desk chair :rofl: